'Honey, what caused you to do it? I mean I know you love your Daddy, but what in the world ever made you think of going into his room like that?'
Sandy didn't look at either of them. Her voice was barely heard. 'I don't want to talk about it. Just leave me alone please.'
Steve turned quickly and hollered at her, 'Well, you're damned well going to talk about it. Sandy, my God, you scare the hell out of me like that and then make me feel like the world's original Dirty Old Man, and then you say you don't feel like talking about it. Why the hell did you come into my bed and do that to me!'
Sandy shrank back in the face of this never before seen anger in her father. She felt dirty and frightened. She was also a little nauseated prom swallowing and choking on his come. In. stead of replying she broke into heartbroken sobbing.
Ellie got up from the wheel and grabbed Steve's arm. 'You take the wheel. We girls are going below and have a quiet talk. I guarantee it'll be better than this wild yelling at each other.'
Steve was so numb he didn't argue. He watched as Ellie lifted Sandy from the seat and help her through the hatch. He stared out at sea for an unknown amount of time. Finally Ellie emerged from the darkened salon, alone. She came up to him and laid a hand on his arm.
Her face was sad and yet calm when she spoke to him.
'You're going to have to go down and talk to her Steve. She's convinced that you hate her for what she did. She told me that she saw you and me that night at the dock, and then again a few nights ago. She said that she heard you say that you needed a woman on the boat with you, and she wanted to show you that she was woman enough for the job. She loves you so much Steve, she'd do anything for you. I asked her if she'd ever done it before or anything like that, for that matter, and she admitted that she'd lost her virginity a year ago at a dance on the campus. She said that one of the sons of one of the professors and she had been playing doctor and nurse- well hell, you know what happened. In any case, she lost her virginity and was afraid to tell you. Then that last boy you had on board, Jerry something, well he got her to admit that she'd fooled around and he gave her some more lessons. In any case though, tonight was the first time she'd ever attempted to take sperm in her mouth like that. She just loved you so much, she thought it would make you happy.'
Steve felt his heart break. 'Oh Christ, what've I done to her. I never should have taken her away from her mother. I'm to blame for this I suppose. I should have known not to fool around on the boat like I did.' He slammed his hand down hard on the teak-wood coaming.
Ellie spoke up. 'All right, now just wait a minute. In the first place, you didn't take her away from her mother from what I hear. Her mother left her. What could you do really? In the second place, sex was something that she discovered before she ever saw this boat, so that's something you can't assume the responsibility for. Another thing, if you and your wife had been aboard and you had Sandy here, would you refrain from making love to her, simply because Sandy might find out? Sex is a fact of life, just like that sky and the ocean. It's the way you handle sex that makes it messy and confusing for people.'
Steve looked at Ellie as if he wanted to be consoled by her words, but wasn't able to yet be convinced.
'Ellie, I want more than anything to feel like I'm not responsible for the destruction of my daughter. But Ellis, she came into my cabin, got into my bed and put my sex organ in her mouth. That was my child who did that. Then to make it even worse, she ends up with my sperm in her belly and all over her face. How can I rationalize that?'
'Don't try. Simply believe that she loved you enough to want to do what she'd seen me do. It seemed to make you happy as hell then, and she figured she was woman enough to emulate me. Hell, you let her cook, sew, and buy groceries for you. She's never been told there was anything that she couldn't do as well as anyone else, that's why she's so self-assured and confident. Please Steve, don't make her feel dirty or degraded. That was an act of love. Go down there and love her in return. Let her feel your warmth.
'What do I do if she wants to know if she can do it again. I'm going to have to tell her it wasn't dirty or wrong, so what do I do if she wants to try to do it again?'
Ellie didn't speak for a long moment. She looked with deep speculation at him. 'That's something you're going to have to decide for yourself. I can't help you. I can tell you that there are a lot of people in the world who take their own children to bed with them. There are a dozen reasons why they do, and the societies they live in don't condemn them. We live in a society that locks you up if you do. I can understand the argument against creating a child that way, and I can understand why forcing a child to submit to you could damage her emotionally, but in this case she's neither pregnant nor a rape victim.'
'Ellie, are you trying to tell me something? I know you're a little off center when it comes to tradition, and we both know how capricious your mood gets whenever you want sex. Have you ever been to bed with your son?'
Ellie smiled smugly. 'That Captain Lark, is none of your damned business. What I do with you is one thing, but that doesn't mean I have to tell you everything about me or my past. I will tell you this though, I've known it to happen in other families and there wasn't a great hullabaloo. I know of only one instance where it resulted in tragedy, and that was because the mother didn't have the good sense to talk things over with her husband, and he caught his son screwing his mother one night. The divorce was quick and final, but the son stayed with his mother. That was years ago and now the kid's married with a happy family of his own. The gal went on to get remarried to a South American that got shot in a political debate, and now she owns a half a million acres of grass and so many cattle she can't count them, in Argentina. That is not one of your run-of-the-mill stories though, so don't take it as your average test case. Oh hell Steve, I can't decide this for you. Take it a step at a time and we'll see what happens next. Anyway, the most important thing is to go down there and make sure she knows you love her and don't think she's a freak or something.'
He nodded and headed for the hatchway. After he was gone Ellie thought to herself, I doubt that this is the last time you wake up and find Sandy in you bed, my friend. She has a case of father worship that won't quit, and I suspect that you'll succumb in the end. Hell, I can think of worse things to have happen to you. She smiled when she thought of her old Uncle Charlie and what he'd done after he'd discovered her and her brother one day in her room. Uncle Charlie had been a realist. He'd also taught her things her brother hadn't even thought of yet.
Chapter 13
Steve and Sandy talked for over an hour. She was ashamed when he sat down on her bunk and started discussing the situation, but then as he talked she realized that he was only scared for her. She in turn convinced him that she really hadn't minded what he'd done with Ellie, and that it had made her feel good to see him so happy. It was after that last time that she'd seen them together on the deck that she's made up her mind that she was going to do the same thing for him.
Finally the conversation, reached the point that Steve had dreaded.
Sandy said, 'Daddy, I'm glad you're not mad at me or anything. I really got excited when I went into your cabin. I'd never done that before with a boy and I was surprised when you gave me so much juice to swallow. The boys I was with didn't have that much, Daddy, at least I didn't think so. I only had them in my pussy then.'
Steve's blood raced as he heard his daughter quietly discuss her sexual experiences. He knew that he must get control of himself or he'd be unable to tell her that he really didn't want her to do it again. The physical evidence would make him out a liar.
Sandy hugged him and said, 'I'm sorry I scared you when I choked. I won't choke next time, Daddy. Maybe Ellie can tell me how to do it easier. You're so big that I can just barely breathe when I get your cock in my mouth.'
A shot of pure lust went through Steve and he averted his face from her.
'Listen honey, that's something you don't do with your own father. We're not married and we never can be. There's a law against what happened in the cabin and if anyone found out, we could both get into trouble.'
'I won't tell anyone, Daddy. There's a law about doing what Jerry and I did, and Philip back at school too, but we didn't tell anyone and nobody got into trouble. Besides, who's going to see us out here? Ellie won't tell on me and I won't tell on Ellie either. You and she aren't married.'
Steve's brain was spinning. He felt ridiculous. If he insisted, then Sandy would take it that he was rebuffing
