person she knew might dare to want a king instead of a prince, for all that the prince was far out of her grasp as it was.
“Perhaps you need Eliza on your side.” Pragmatic Eliza’s ambitions couldn’t have risen so high, and yet it was far too easy to see how they might have. An ache of unfamiliar sympathy shot upward through Belinda’s chest, spiking in her throat. She quelled it with stillness: it was not her place to care for the pieces that were moved on the board, only to make certain of their alignment. It was easier not to care from the guise of a servant girl, though, removed from the intimate interactions of lifelong friends. This would be the only time in Belinda’s life that she played so public a role-indeed, to do so again would be to invite exposure-and she found that the larger part of her was glad. Caring made her vulnerable, and she was unaccustomed to and displeased with the sensation.
Sacha answered her unspoken question with a sharp look. “She’s not to be any part of this. My name, Marius’s money, those might save us. Eliza’s got nothing. Not even the patronage of the queen could keep her safe if she were part of plans that went awry.”
“How long have you protected her?” Belinda hesitated over the penultimate word, knowing Asselin would hear the pause and interpret it as hinting at another: loved. His lip curled, equal parts confession and dismissal.
“Long enough to know what I’m about. She shares your roof, Irvine. Make sure she doesn’t share your secrets.” He turned on his heel and stalked away, slush splashing around his feet. Belinda held her hand at her throat, her lips pursed as she watched him go. Whether he’d finished with her or whether Eliza was a delicate enough topic to drive him away, she wasn’t certain. If it was the latter, that would be useful in the future, for all that the idea of using Javier’s friends against one another sent a shiver of regret over Belinda’s skin.
“Weakness,” she murmured to herself. It was weakness to be concerned with any one of them. That thought fixed in mind, the stillness drawn around her like armour, she straightened her gown and her shoulders and stepped out of the shadows to climb her front steps. She would have to watch the mirror carefully for signs of bruising on her throat, and entreat Nina to find the best cosmetics to hide evidence of Sacha’s visit.
JAVIER, PRINCE OF GALLIN
10 November 1587 Lutetia Of all people, it is Marius he feels he must ask permission of. He, a prince of the realm-a prince of several, to hear Beatrice tell it, and the truth is, she’s right-finds himself at a merchant boy’s door somewhere past midnight, further in his cups than any sensible man should be, most especially one of his status.
He cannot, for some reason, bring himself to knock. His carriage waits on the street, coachman patient or at least silent, and Javier de Castille, son of Louis IV and Sandalia de Costa, can’t bring himself to knock on the front door of his friend’s home. The coachman will wait all night. The coachman may have to. Javier sways, wine surging through his blood and making him dizzy. He reaches for the door to keep himself steady, and to his shock, it opens beneath his hand.
Marius, tousle-headed and bleary-eyed, stands before him with an expression that Javier can’t decipher. He is not surprised, the dark-haired merchant’s son, not at all surprised for a man who’s appeared at his own front door for no obvious reason, somewhere after the small bells of the morning have begun to toll. He stands there, looking up at his prince-Marius is well-built, broad enough of shoulder and slim enough of hip, but has nothing of Javier’s height, or Sacha’s bulk, for that matter. He looks up at his prince, and his prince looks down at him, and finally Marius steps out of the door and says, “I expect you should come in, whatever it is.” There’s little doubt in his voice: he knows as clearly as Javier does that “whatever” is Beatrice. It’s merely a matter of discovering what particular hell being the prince’s friend will now cost.
Javier does, because his other choice is to spill-or spew, given how much he’s drunk-his guts on the threshold. He asks, “What are you doing up?” as he steps in, and regards it as a stupid question. So, it seems, does Marius, who chuffs something like laughter and closes the door behind Javier. Darkness overwhelms them; Marius in his sleeping shirt and bare feet isn’t so much as carrying a candle to light his way, and the flickering streetlights outside are too distant to penetrate the curtained windows of the entrance gallery.
“I heard the carriage, and then felt you pacing.” Marius says this as if it’s natural, and Javier wonders if it is. Suddenly the answer is important, and he grasps Marius’s shoulder.
“Felt me?”
“You’re a lead weight to be around when you’ve got something on your mind, Jav. You always have been. It brings the rest of us down, like you’re a drowning man clinging to our ankles. You know that. No one comes out unscathed when you’re in a mood.”
“I didn’t. I didn’t know.” Javier’s not precisely sure that’s true; he’s been careful for so many years not to influence his friends consciously with the witchpower, it’s never occurred to him that he might be doing so accidentally. “I’m sorry.”
“You’re soused,” Marius says, not unkindly. “Come on to the kitchen. Some bread will sop up some of that drink.” He guides Javier, who hasn’t released his shoulder, down the dark hall and down a short set of wooden stairs into a kitchen lit by the banked embers of a fire. Only when Javier is seated in front of the hearth does it come to him to demand, childishly, “How do you know I’m drunk?”
“Two things.” Marius tears off a chunk of bread from a new loaf; the cook will be outraged come morning. “First, you smell like a brewery.” He hands Javier the bread and roots around for a knife, unwrapping cheese as he speaks. “And second, you never apologize for anything unless you’re too drunk to remember your position.” Now he brings his prince the cheese and pulls a stool closer to the fire, studying Javier in the red-tinted light. “Is she pregnant, then?”
“Fuck,” Javier says, and for long moments can think of nothing else to say. “Fuck, Mar, you’re not even supposed to know I’m swivving her.”
“My lord prince,” Marius says so diplomatically Javier knows the next words will be insulting. Nor does Marius disappoint. “Just how fucking stupid do you think I am?”
“I don’t think you’re stupid,” Javier protests, and it’s true. “It’s only-”
“Only that when our royal friend sees fit to pursue one of our women that we’re supposed to politely glance aside and notice nothing. Sometimes I envy Eliza, Jav. At least you don’t look to her paramours.”
Javier, distracted, demands, “Liz has lovers?” and then, offense managing to work its way through wine, adds, “You’re cruel tonight, Marius. It’s not like you.”
“I think I may have earned it, Jav,” Marius says, so softly that guilt burns hot through Javier’s blood. It’s an unfamiliar and unwelcome sensation, and it’s the one that drove him first to an excess of drink, and ultimately to Marius’s doorstep.
“I’m going to ask her to marry me.” There has to be a better way to couch it, but the words blurt themselves out, not out of viciousness but desperation. And Marius pales in the ruddy light, shock widening his pupils until there’s nothing but darkness in his eyes.
“Oh, my lord prince.” The whisper has edges. “Do I not deserve better than that?”
Javier closes his eyes against the pain in Marius’s question. “You deserve far better than I,” he replies, and can’t bring himself to look on his friend again. “So does she, and for being friend to a prince neither of you will get it. I won’t marry her. I can’t. But she’s Lanyarchan, and even the threat of a fresh alliance between my mother and that country-” It’s too much to tell the merchant’s son, but Javier can find it in himself to say no less. Marius does deserve better, and the only offering he can make is the hard truth. And Marius is silent in the face of Javier’s faltering, so quiet the prince is forced to open his eyes and gauge his friend’s expression.
There is pain there. More than Javier ever wanted to cause the few people in his life whom he trusts implicitly. Pain and weariness and worst of all, acceptance. Wouldn’t it be better for Marius to rail and shout, to hit him and stand his ground against Javier’s desire?
No. The answer comes too fast. For all the friendship shared, Javier is still a prince and Marius still a merchant’s son. He can’t throw himself on Javier in outrage even when Javier most richly deserves it. Worse still, the witchpower would never allow it to happen, even if Javier should steel himself to cower and brace against the blows he so richly deserves. His power would work to protect him instinctively, either through the shielding that he and Beatrice have discovered or through the part of Javier that is, and will always be, royalty. No one may lay a
