yourself. You asked for the interpretation, now hear it out. Odoacer took his wolf warriors to the temples of Rome and made the emperor bow down before him. Perhaps you can hear your ancestors calling to you. They worshipped the wolf. They were wolves, some of them, if you listen to the myths. Perhaps it’s you as you were who you see.’
‘Well, if I’m getting messages from ghosts, that shows that men can hold magic. I should be able to go with you.’
‘You have an echo of magic, and you are as near to it as those lights of the town are to the stars.’
‘Please let me come with you.’
The woman pushed her toe into a space between the rocks, almost like a bather testing the water for temperature.
‘It does feel right you should come. You might be of use,’ she said.
‘Come on then, let’s go!’ The enthusiasm of his childish self filled the chamberlain with dread.
‘Listen first. When we reach the appointed place, your sister and I will work a magic to allow us to speak to the goddess. There is normally very little danger but, for a while, we will not be as ourselves and — being in the world of the gods — will not be aware of what happens in this world. You watch over us and make sure neither of us falls into the waters.’
The boy smiled. ‘Right. Shall I go first?’
‘You’ll go last and not yet.’
His mother took some rolled cloth from her pack, along with some twine.
‘Tie this around your knees, both of you, and wrap some around your hands. The way is long and you won’t make it unless you protect yourself.’
The children followed their mother’s example with the cloth. Then they were ready.
The woman peered into the gap between the rocks. Nothing marked it as special or worthy of exploration, but she lowered her pack into it and wriggled in afterwards, careful with the lamp.
‘Follow.’ She looked out at them, her face a pale mask in the moonlight. She disappeared inside, and the boy and the girl clambered down after her.
‘Is there a wasps’ nest?’ said Elai.
‘No,’ her mother called back to her, ‘so the dangerous part is done. Come on.’
The chamberlain watched in his vision as they crawled down a low tunnel that opened into a little cavern, just tall enough for the woman to stand in if she stooped. It stretched out twenty paces and led into a deeper darkness at its far end. They went towards it, the light of the lamp wobbling on the walls. The rocks were not even and it wasn’t easy to make their way on them, so progress was slow.
The passage dropped quite steeply at first but quickly became a long gently sloping tunnel. The children had to bend double and their mother went on her hands and knees. Karas was at the rear. He glanced behind him. The lamp-light cast shadows that seemed to stretch away at one instant and rush back towards him the next, like grasping hands snatching at him. The chamberlain was the boy again, no longer an observer but lost to the story, back there, Karas once more.
All separation dissolved. He was ten years old, imagining himself already a magician, the shadows an enchanted cloak he could pull about him to disappear in a breath. He remembered a story his mother had told him, ‘The cloak that was cut from the night.’ Perhaps, he thought, he would gain magical insight and take his own shears made of moonbeams to the heavens to bring his mother a fold of darkness to stitch into a cloak of shadows with her needles of starlight. He wasn’t scared; he was excited, but his sister was silent and pale. He couldn’t understand it. If his mother was correct, then Elai was going to be offered a great gift. Why did she seem so nervous?
They bent and crawled, walked and slithered through the passages for hours. The wall bore marks at points along the way — the moon and a star, the symbol of Hecate, goddess of Byzantium, the old name for Constantinople. The city was now under Christ’s sway, but plenty of people still found time for the old gods, particularly in hardship or when in need of insight into the future. These marks, though, had not been made by the common people. Even if they found the entrance to the caves, they would never go within. The marks, in a rough ochre, had been daubed by generations of priestesses who had kept the secrets of the caves and visited them only to find their insight.
‘What are these?’
They had stopped to rest and to eat and Karas had found some more marks on the wall — no more than a few rough scratches but clearly made by humans.
‘Old symbols of our kin,’ said the woman, ‘from years before.’
‘Made by the wolf warriors?’
‘Or people like them.’
‘Did they worship the goddess?’
‘I don’t know, Karas. The goddess has many forms and appears in different ways to different people.’
‘How different?’
‘She is called Isis, and she is called Hecate. In the north they say she is not a woman at all and call her Odin or Wodanaz or Mercury.’
‘How can she be male and female at the same time?’
‘A person looks different when you approach them from the back to the way they look when you see them face on. How many more ways of being seen do gods possess?’
‘She is a god. She can do what she chooses. That is what makes someone a god,’ said Elai. ‘They form the world according to their wishes.’
‘Then the emperor in Constantinople is a god,’ said Karas.
‘Of a sort,’ said his mother.
Karas wanted to talk more on this subject. His mother and sister would never discuss this sort of thing with him normally. Here, he was gaining the knowledge that he so craved. But his mother just put the remains of the bread and olives into her pack and said it was time to go on.
First Karas smelled the damp in the air, then he felt it on the walls. Now the rocks took on a different character. They were more like the roots of trees, or the melted bodies of candles, than anything he had seen before. He imagined himself crawling inside the root of a great tree, seeking the water from which it drank.
They seemed to be in there for days, though he had no real sense of time. His mother had brought little food — she said it was better to starve to prepare for the ritual. Now rest was not pleasant. Their bodies cooled quickly and their wet clothes stuck to them.
‘You have never told me your dreams,’ said Karas to Elai when they stopped again. ‘What are they?’
The girl shook her head.
‘Tell me,’ he said.
‘I cannot tell you.’
‘Tell me.’
‘Mother?’
‘He won’t know what to make of them, so why not?’
Karas had never seen his mother in a mood like this before. She wasn’t exactly scared but there was a resignation to her, as if the things she normally cared about no longer mattered in the face of their task in that place under the ground.
The boy glanced around at the dripping walls. The rocks fell in layers like gigantic mushrooms and twisted faces seemed to leer from the walls through the candlelight.
Elai spoke: ‘Something is looking for me. It has always been looking for me. It hunted me down in lives before because of what I have inside me.’
‘What do you have inside you?’
‘Things that whisper. Signs and symbols that unlock things. I can see them, I can hear them, but I can’t touch them.’
‘So what use are they to you?’
She waved her hand in irritation. Karas caught the implication. He wouldn’t understand.
‘What use are they?’
‘They are part of something.’
