“I also haven’t forgotten your previous remarks,” said Ram. “If all the fields we created caused us to make the jump perfectly, why are there nineteen ships 11,191 years in the past?”
“Because of you,” said the expendable. • • • As breakfast ended, Rigg knew his real work was about to begin. He had to win Mother’s trust now-and forcing her into a public display of affection for him was hardly likely to have been the best first step. Since Param spent her days invisible, it was only Mother who could convey a message to her-only Mother who could earn Param’s trust in him, vicariously.
He rose to his feet. “Mother, I have a son’s curiosity, a desire to know about my father. May I come to your room, where you can tell me candidly who he was and the legacy he left to me?” Rigg turned to the rest of the people at the table. “I speak of no possessions except this body that I wear.”
“What mother could want anything more than time alone with her long-lost son?” said Mother, rising from the table. “No one will begrudge us that, I hope.”
Flacommo stood up as well. “The law declares that you have no right to be alone, but I can say to all within my hearing that anyone who interrupts this tender meeting between mother and son will be no friend of mine, or of my house.”
It was a fine speech, but Rigg knew that there was no such thing as privacy here.
As he and Mother walked side by side from the room-neatly sidestepping Param, who walked invisibly along the wall-he leaned his face close to hers and said, “I’m sure you know that your room is under constant observation.”
She stiffened but did not break stride. “It is not,” she said. They left the breakfast room and made their way across a gallery full of very large paintings of scenes that Rigg knew nothing about.
“There are secret passages in the walls,” said Rigg. “Someone is stationed there to watch you whenever you are in the room.”
Mother stopped now, since no one else was in the gallery with them… yet. “How could you know this unless you were a spy yourself?”
“I am as talented as Param, in my own way,” murmured Rigg. “When we get to your room, I will stand directly in front of the peephole the spy is using. That way, if he has another peephole, he’ll move to it and then I’ll go stand in front of that one.”
“You were never in this house even when you were a baby,” Mother whispered fiercely. Apparently she could not think past wondering about the source of his information, instead of assuming there might be more talents in the world than Param’s own.
Rigg put his arms around her in a tender embrace, which put his mouth right against her ear. “I sense the path of every human being back through time. For ten thousand years I see all paths. I see Param. The two of you have been watched every time you were alone together.”
When he pulled away from Mother, smiling his most genuine, affectionate smile, he said. “I know that privacy must be priceless to you, you have so little of it. Thank you for taking me to your safest place.”
She looked ashen. His revelation that she and Param were watched at all times seemed to be devastating-but had she really imagined that the Revolutionary Council would leave her unobserved? And when the royal daughter seemed to disappear, did Mother really think that the Council would accept her explanation and not search for the girl?
Am I better at this than she is, after having spent her whole life in this prison?
Not better, he decided. It is my gift to sense what she could not possibly see; knowing hidden information is not the same thing as being wiser.
As they approached Mother’s room, Rigg could see all her walks up and down the corridor leading to her door. Thousands of times she had taken this walk. Always watched, always mistrusted, hated by many, disdained by more. How had she borne it all these years?
Perhaps she could also feel the pull of the hopes and yearnings of the many others in this land who hated the Council and yearned for a restoration of the monarchy. Perhaps in her heart she was queen after all, bearing what must be borne for the sake of her people.
Perhaps in her heart, as she walked with Rigg toward the room he had just revealed to be no sanctuary at all for her, she was planning his death.
No, he told himself. I have determined to trust her, and to honestly earn her trust in return. No doubts, no second-guessing. Either I will love my mother or I will not, but no halfway measures.
He could hear Father’s voice: “For children love is a feeling; for adults, it is a decision. Children wait to learn if their love is true by seeing how long it lasts; adults make their love true by never wavering from their commitment.”
Yes, well, Rigg knew enough of the world by now to suspect that by that definition, adults were rare and children could be found at any age. Still, that did not change the fact that Rigg could not help but judge himself by that standard. I will love this woman as long as she allows me to.
Mother opened the door-in semi-obedience to law, it was not locked. Full obedience would have had no door at all, but Rigg imagined it was more useful to the Revolutionary Council for the royals to think they had privacy.
Rigg came inside and closed the door behind him. He made a show of looking at the walls, though he knew exactly where the spy on duty crouched, eye to peephole. “Did they find the very worst art to hang in here?”
“You were rich for how long, three weeks?”
“I got used to it very quickly.”
“And in that time you became an expert on the quality of art?” Mother was only slightly sarcastic.
“I’m an expert on what I like,” said Rigg. “No one paints accurately-it’s always flat and the colors are never quite right. They never catch the thickness of the air. So I learned-as a temporarily rich young man in O-that the paintings that pleased me most were those that did not pretend to be depicting reality. My favorites were the very old ones from the age when O was capital of its own little empire, though it was nothing compared to… the lands ruled by the Revolutionary Council.” He had almost said “Stashiland,” but that was the name before the Sessamoto came, and he did not yet know how Mother would feel about that.
“There can’t possibly be any paintings left from the golden age of O,” said Mother. “Those are only copies.”
“Copies of copies of copies,” said Rigg. “But each copy was pronounced a faithful reproduction of the one before.”
“But by the time some artist copied it, the copy he copied from was already deteriorated. For all you know, the original was every bit as pseudo-realistic as the ones you say that you disdain, and it’s only the copying through generations that resulted in the lack of reality that you admire.”
“And yet I admire it no less for being unintentional,” said Rigg. He was now standing directly in front of the peephole where the spy had bent to see. “Now,” he said, “is where the vision is clearest.”
Mother nodded and frowned. No doubt she was remembering what activities had taken place within plain view of that spot.
Meanwhile, the spy was moving, and soon Rigg could see that new path had stopped forming. The spy must be standing on something, for now the peephole was higher than Rigg could block with his body. Instead, he pressed himself against the wall directly under the second peephole, and said, “You could never look at it my way, I know, for some people see from a much loftier position.” Meanwhile, he pointed upward.
Mother was alert enough to heed his warning-“you could never look”-and not stare right at the second peephole. She knew now where the blind spot in the room was-at least as far as these two peepholes were concerned-because Rigg was standing in it.
He could see from the paths Param had walked in this room that she was almost never in the blind spot. Meaning that whenever she became visible-to eat, to sleep, to wash, to change clothes, to use the chamber pot- she was under observation. So much for privacy. So much for the secret of her ability to become invisible.
To Mother’s great credit, she showed no emotion except what would be appropriate in response to her son’s words. Of course she understood the importance of giving the spies no indication that she knew they were there, watching. Still, it would be perfectly understandable if from now on, the chamber pot was located in the blind spot. Also the washstand.
“I’m still deciding whether I like you,” Mother was saying. “You seem very full of yourself. It’s humility that has kept us alive. That and perfect loyalty. We have given the Council no reason to think we’re a threat to the
