'I didn't expect to see you here,' he said.
'I went to her as soon as I heard what had happened,' Danat said. 'I swore it was nothing that we'd done. We hadn't been trying to recapture the andat. She didn't believe me. When I decided to go, I asked her to come. As a witness. We've left word for Farrer-cha. Even if he disapproves, it doesn't seem he'd be able to do much about it before we returned.'
'You know this is madness,' Otah said softly.
Ana Dasin frowned, hard lines marking her face. But then she nodded.
'It makes very little difference whether I die in the city or on the road,' she said. 'If this isn't treachery on the part of the Khaiem, then I don't see that I have anything to fear.'
'We are on an improvised campaign against powers we cannot match. I can name half-a-dozen things to fear without stopping to think,' Otah said. He sighed, and the Galtic girl's expression hardened. Otah went on, letting a hint of bleak amusement into his voice. 'But I suppose if you've come, you've come. Welcome to our hunt, Ana- cha.'
He nodded to his son and stepped back. Her voice recalled him.
'Most High,' she said. 'I want to believe Danat. I want to think that he had nothing to do with this.'
'He didn't,' Otah said. The girl weighed his words, and then seemed to accept them.
'And you?' she said. 'Was any of this yours?'
Otah smiled. The girl couldn't see him, but Danat did.
'Only my inattention,' Otah said. 'It's a failure I've come to correct.'
'So the andat can blind you as easily as he has us,' Ana said, stepping out of the shed and onto the steamcart. 'You aren't protected any more than I am.'
'That's true,' Otah said.
Ana went silent, then smiled. In the dim light of the fire, he could see her mother in the shape of her cheek.
'And yet you take our side rather than ally with the poets,' she said. 'So which of us is mad?'
18
The snow fell and stayed, as deep as Maati's three fingers together. The winds of autumn whistled through the high, narrow windows that had never known glass. The women-Eiah, Irit, and the two Kaeswere in a small room, clustered around a brazier and talking with hushed fervor about grammar and form, the distinctions between age and wounds and madness. Vanjit, wrapped in thick woolen robes and a cloak of waxed silk, was sitting on a high wall, her gaze to the east. She sang lullabies to Clarity-of-Sight, and her voice would have been beautiful if she'd been cradling a real babe. Maati considered interrupting her or else returning to the work with the others, but both options were worse than remaining alone. He turned away from the great bronze door and retreated into the darkness.
It would be only weeks until winter was upon them. Not the killing storms of the north, but enough that even the short journey to Pathai would become difficult. He tried to imagine the long nights and cold that waited for him, for all of them, and he wondered how they would manage it.
A darkness had taken Eiah since her return. He saw it in her eyes and heard the rasp of it in her voice, but there was no lethargy about it. She was awake before him every morning and took to her bed long after sunset. Her attention was bent to the work of her binding, and her ferocity seemed to pull the others in her wake. Only Vanjit held herself apart, attending only some of Eiah's discussions. It was as if there were a set amount of attention, and as Eiah bore down, Vanjit floated up like a kite. Maati, caught between the pair, only felt tired and sick and old.
It had been years since he had lived in one place, and then it had been as the permanent guest of the Khai Machi. He had had a library, servants who brought him wine and food. Eiah had been no more than a girl, then. Bright, engaged, curious. But more than that, she had been joyful. And he remembered himself as being a part of that joy, that comfort.
He lumbered into one of the wide, bare rooms where rows and columns of cots had once held boys no older than ten summers, wrapped in all the robes they owned to keep off the cold. He leaned against the wall, feeling the rough stone against his back.
Another winter in this place. There was a time when he'd thought it wise.
Footsteps came from behind him. Vanjit's. He knew them from the sound. He didn't turn to greet her. When she stepped into the room, waxed silk shining like leather, she didn't at first look at him. She had grown beautiful in an odd way. The andat held against her hip clung to her, and there was a peace in her expression that lent her an air of serenity. He wanted to trust her, to take her success as the first of a thousand ways in which he would be able to set the world right, to unmake his mistakes.
'Maati-kvo,' Vanjit said. Her voice was low and soft as a woman newly woken.
'Vanjit,' he said, taking a pose of greeting.
She and the andat came to sit at his side. The tiny thing balled its hands in the folds of Maati's robe, tugging as if to draw his attention. Vanjit appeared not to notice.
'Eiah-cha is doing well, isn't she?' Vanjit asked.
'I think so,' Maati said. 'She's taken a wide concept, and that's always difficult. She's very serious, though. There are a few flaws. Structures that work against each other instead of in concert.'
'How long?' Vanjit asked. Maati rubbed his eyes with the palms of his hands.
'Until she's ready? If she finds a form that resolves the conflict, I suppose she could start the last phase tomorrow. Two weeks. Three at the earliest. Or months more. I don't know.'
Vanjit nodded to herself, not looking up at him. The andat tugged at his robe again. Maati looked down into the black, eager eyes. The andat gave its wide, toothless grin.
'We've been talking,' Vanjit said. 'Clarity-of-Sight and I have been talking about Eiah and what she's doing. He pointed something out that I hadn't considered.'
That was possible, but only in a fashion. The andat was a part of her, as all of them reflected the poets who had bound them. Whatever thought it had presented in the deep, intimate battle it waged with Vanjit, it had to have originated with her. Still, she was as capable of surprising herself as any of them. Maati took a pose that invited her to continue.
'We can't know how Eiah-cha's binding will go,' Vanjit said. 'I know that we were first as a test of the grammar. That Clarity-of-Sight exists is proof that the bindings can work. It isn't proof that Eiah-cha… Don't misunderstand, Maati-kvo. I know as well as anyone that Eiah-cha is brilliant. Without her, I would never have managed my binding. But until she makes the attempt, we can't be sure that she's the right sort of mind to be a poet. Even with all our work, she might still fail.'
'That's true,' Maati said, trying to turn away from the thought even as he spoke.
'It would all end, wouldn't it? What I can do, what we can do. It wouldn't mean anything without Eiah-cha. She's the one who can undo what Sterile did, and unless she can do that…'
'She's our best hope,' Maati said.
'Yes,' Vanjit said, and turned to look up at Maati. Her face was bright. 'Yes, our best hope. But not the only one.'
The andat at her hip clucked and giggled to itself, clapping tiny hands. Maati took a pose of query.
'We know for certain that we have one person who could bind an andat, because I already have. I want Eiah-cha to win through as badly as anyone, but if her binding does fail, I could take it up.'
Maati smiled because he could think of nothing else to do. Dread knotted in his chest. His breath had grown suddenly short, and the warehouse-wide walls of the sleeping quarters had narrowed. Vanjit stood, her hand on his sleeve. Maati took a moment, shook his head.
'Are you well, Maati-kvo?' Vanjit asked.
'I'm old,' he said. 'It's nothing. Vanjit-kya, you can't hold another andat. You of all of us know how much of your attention Clarity-of-Sight requires.
'I would have to release him for a time,' Vanjit said. 'I understand that. But what makes him him comes from
