eat the back of her own hand, all pressed up against her mouth like that, and from the way she was looking at me, I — knew! I knew what she wanted and I knew how she wanted it. And I knew I wanted it too.' One hand was back in George's pocket. 'Now I'll tell you, that ain't something you know all that often. But when you do, you can either say 'Shit man,' and walk away. Or, 'I know what I know!' Now, you an' me, we wouldn't get along.' The chuckle ran out into a sound too low to hear. George breathed. 'But her and me, we got along!' He suddenly turned, took a step, and halted as though his great body had been — struck. 'Shit, we got along!' He turned back. 'I ain't got along with nobody that well since I was twenty-eight years old and that's been more than ten years! We was in this alley, and there was this light flashing on and off, on and off; and people would run in, run out, and we just didn't care! Or maybe that made it better, that there wasn't nothing they could do, or that they wanted to do.' Suddenly he looked down, laughed: 'I remember one old woman with a shopping bag full of empty old tin cans come running in and seen us and started shouting bloody murder and running in and out, and screaming 'Get off that poor little white girl, nigger! You do that, they gonna kill us, they gonna kill us for sure!'' George shook his head. 'The light, I guess, was this guy taking his pictures; I don't know if I really seen him or not. He wasn't there when I finished. I stood up, see, and she was lying there, still reachin' for it, you know?' Once more he shook his head, laughed once more: both meant something different from when he'd done them moments before. 'Like I say, she weren't no more than seventeen. And she got hit and she got punched and she got thrown around and she was yelling and screaming, 'No, no, oh, don't, oh please don't.' So I guess it was rape. Right? But when we finished—' George nodded ' — she was reaching for it. She wanted some more, awful bad.' He tapped the air with a concluding forefinger. 'Now that's a very interesting kind of rape. It's the kind they always have in the movies. It's the kind your lawyer friend was trying to make this other thing into. And when it gets to the law courts, it's a pretty rare kind. But it's the one they all afraid of — especially between little-bitty white girls and big, black niggers.'
'Well,' Lanya said, 'it still sounds a little strange. Okay, it's not my thing. But what do you think, say, about the guy I was telling you about, who did that to my friend?'
'I think,' George said, 'I know a little bit more about him than you do. And I think if he'd maybe come talked to somebody like me first, we could have maybe worked somethin' out where he didn't have to go and get himself and some little girl in trouble. About him or the girl, I don't think nothing; I don't know them. But I think what you told me about is very,' and George dropped his chin, 'very, very sad.'
Lanya took a breath. 'I'm just still wondering about the girl. I mean the one you were with… Do you even know her name?'
'Well, after I was finished, we did not exactly introduce ourselves.' Suddenly George scowled. 'Look, you try and understand this. I don't give a shit about the bitch! I really don't. And suppose I did? Suppose, afterward, I'd done said, 'Oh, hey baby, that was so fine, let's you and me get married and live all happily ever after so we can just take care of one another every night!' What she gonna say? 'You crazy, nigger!' I mean a couple of times I tried that, and it don't work. That ain't her thing. That ain't mine. She ain't interested in me neither. She interested in what she thinks about me. And that's fine by me. She know my name — it was in the paper. I gave it to them for free, too. I told them I ain't ashamed of nothing I done, I like it like that, and I'm gonna do it again, any time, any place. And believe me, that's all she wants to know!' George's scowl relaxed. 'Afterward, people was gossiping around and saying her name was June or something like that. You say your old man know her? What he say about her?'
'About,' Lanya said, 'what you just did.' She pressed her lips, considering. Then she said, 'She's looking for you, George. I saw her once, come up to ask my old man after you. She wants to find you again.'
George's laugh launched high as Madame Brown's and, with his rocking head, tumbled down into its easy bass. 'Yeah…! Yeah, she looking for me! She just circling and circling around me, getting in closer and closer—' George's forefinger circled on the air, spiraled in—'just circling and circling, closer and closer, like the moon around the sun!'
Something (though Kidd was not sure what it was) struck Lanya as funny and she laughed too. 'George, you've got your images mixed up! You're supposed to be the moon; not her. Besides, the moon doesn't circle around the sun!'
'Well,' George said, 'maybe it usually don't, but this is Bellona, and you ain't got no way to tell what's gonna happen here!' His laugh grew, fell away; he came out of it with a serious expression. 'You see, I been around, I know some things. How old are you? Twenty-three?'
'On the head,' Lanya said. 'You should be guessing in a fair.'
'Well I'm old enough to be your daddy—'
'You're old enough to be June's daddy too.' Lanya said. 'Do you have any children?'
'I got five of them I know about,' George said, 'and one of them off a white woman, too, young lady. Green- eyed, mustard-headed—' George screwed his face—'ugly little motherfucker! Well, maybe he ain't so ugly. And I got one of them as old now as her momma was when I first stuck it to her, too.' George cocked his head the other way. 'And that ain't nowhere near old as the little girl we was talking about. None of the five of them is here in Bellona. But I tell you, if I was to see that oldest girl of mine, standing on the corner, looking at me like that little white girl was looking — I don't care if she my kin or not, I'd do the same fuckin' thing. Now you believe it!'
'George,' Lanya said, 'you are incorrigible!'
'Well, sometimes you look pretty funny yourself, Miss Anne! Look—' George got back his explanatory tone —'what it is, is that women wants it just exactly like men do. Only nobody wants to think about that, you know? At least not in the movies. They pretends it don't exist, or they pretends it's something so horrible, making all sorts of death and destruction and needless tragedy and everybody getting killed, that it might just as well not exist — which is the same thing, you see?'
'Yes,' Lanya said, 'I'd noticed. George, people are scared of women doing anything to get what they want, sex or anything else. Christ, you men are presumptuous bastards. If I was telling you how blacks really are the way you're telling me about women, you'd organize a sit-in!'
'Well,' George said, 'I just didn't know if you went to the movies that much so's you'd know.'
After a moment, Lanya asked: 'What do you think's gonna happen when you two finally do meet again, George?'
George's eyebrows, darker crescents on an iron-black face (the tarnished light erased all browns and reds), rose. 'Well, she gonna get closer, and closer, just circling—' one hand traced its spiral while the other waited for it at the spiral's center—'and circling, and closer and closer, till—' George's cupped palms smashed; Kidd blinked; his back muscles cramped—'Blam! And the sky gonna go dark and the lightning gonna go roll over the night, wide as a river and slow as the sea, and buildings gonna come toppling and fire and water both gonna shoot in the air, and people gonna be running and screaming in the streets!' George winked, nodded. 'Gonna be just like last time.'
'I think,' Lanya said, 'you've got your images mixed again.' She came away from the wall and ambled a few steps across the stone. 'You're doing just what the movies are doing — making it into something terrible and frightening.'
'That's the problem — like I say: You see I like it like the movies. But when we get together again, we just gonna be doing our thing. You all is the ones who gonna be so frightened the city gonna start to fall down around your head.' George's head went to the side. He grinned. 'See?'
'Not quite.' Lanya grinned back. 'But let it ride. Okay, what are you gonna do afterward?'
'Same as before, I guess. Blam! and excuse me, ma'am, and then be on my way. And then it starts all over…' Once more that oblique expression came to George's face. 'You say your old man … is she all right? I mean is she okay and all?'
'Yeah,' Lanya said. 'I guess so.'
George nodded. 'Yeah… somebody told me back in the bar you done got yourself a new boy friend. That's nice.'
Where, Kidd wondered, was Milly?
'Things get around.' Lanya smiled, and Kidd had an image of her suddenly snatching her harmonica to fling up some fusillade of notes to hide her embarrassment. Only she didn't look embarrassed. (He remembered wanting
