pulled her life together, I’d give her the chance to prove it to me too.”
Davy’s face flushed red. The thin scar that still hadn’t healed over his left eyebrow and down his temple turned white.
“Leave Tomi out of this.”
“Listen-” I stopped. Took the volume out of my voice. “What I’m saying is, Hounds make bad decisions. It comes with the territory. I think you have to be willing to do stupid things if you’re going to Hound. We’re hardwired that way. Pike understood that. I think if he were still alive, he’d probably give Anthony the ass-kicking of his life, and then take him in, and teach him so he never made that kind of mistake again. It’s up to Anthony to pull his life together. There’s a good chance he’ll find something better than Hounding, safer than Hounding, before I let him in the pack.”
“You think that’s how Pike would want you to run this place?”
“I think that’s how I’m going to run it. When someone wants to take over, they can run it their way. Until then, I make the rules. If you don’t want to follow those rules, no one’s saying you have to stay.”
I leaned back. “I hope you won’t leave. Not over Anthony. He’s not worth it.”
Davy gritted his teeth again and looked out the window. Not much to see out there, just the roofline of Get Mugged and a few lights shining through the rain.
I waited. Gave him some space to think, some time to breathe.
Zayvion, who had been silent this whole time, stayed where he was, sitting in one of the couches behind Davy, in my line of vision, watching Davy, me, and the door, without looking like he was doing any of those things.
The rain pounded harder, wind kicking it across the window. It felt suddenly much colder in here, as if night had crept unnoticed through the seams of the walls and sunk down into all the shadows of the room.
“Things aren’t. . aren’t what I want,” Davy said quietly.
“Hounding?”
“Everything.”
“You want some time off?”
He shook his head. “More time only messes with my head. I can’t even sleep, well, not enough. Not really. Not since. .” He stared out the window, and I watched his eyes shift, as if he could see someone there.
“Sometimes I think I can feel her.”
I didn’t let my surprise show. “Who? Tomi?”
He nodded. “When she’s hurt. I think when she’s cutting. . ”
“That seems a little strange, doesn’t it?” I asked gently.
He laughed, a short huff. “You think?” He looked back over at me, gave me the half grin that I hadn’t seen in weeks. “Just a little strange?”
I had no idea what to say to that. Davy didn’t know about the Authority. He just thought Zayvion was my boyfriend, who sometimes hired out as a bodyguard. Since Davy didn’t know about the Authority, he also didn’t know about the kinds of magic the Authority kept hidden. And other things, like the magically half-man, half-beast Greyson, who had been using Tomi to try to trap me, and dig my dad out of my brain. Zay was careful not to use much magic around Davy, and I was trying my best to keep who knew what straight.
Blood magic had been used to hurt Davy. And Blood magic was. . intimate. It dug into your body and senses, deep and hard, and offered you pleasure-so long as you did everything the caster wanted you to do. It tied you to the caster in ways other magic disciplines did not.
There was a reason people mixed it with drugs and sex.
And there was a reason it was illegal.
Davy might know some of that, but I couldn’t tell him that Blood magic could be mixed with dark magic to do very bad things. Things that were done to him. Things that stained your soul.
I glanced over at Zayvion. He was frowning, staring at the back of Davy’s head. I was pretty sure he couldn’t actually see inside Davy’s brain, but for a minute I kind of wished he could.
“You gonna call the psych ward?” Davy asked.
“What? Why would I do that? You’re no crazier than the rest of us.”
Davy relaxed a little.
I couldn’t believe he’d really been worried I’d do that.
“Blood magic is pretty rough stuff,” I said. “And Tomi was using it. That. . man she was working for made her use it. I know she doesn’t remember that.” I didn’t tell him I knew she couldn’t remember what she had done to Davy-what Greyson had made her do to him-because someone in the Authority had taken away her memory of it. “But I’m the one who found you in the park, and there was definitely Blood magic involved. It can take a while for the effects of that to fade.”
This is where living three different lives is tricky.
Spreadsheet. Still needed one. Because a woman with as many holes in her memory as I have should not be allowed to try to juggle all these secrets.
“You think that’s it?” he asked.
“Yes. I mean, it’s possible you’re just the sensitive sort, lonely and all that.”
He grinned. “Right.”
“It’s more possible magic messed you up a little. Tomi hit you pretty hard. Magic hasn’t been in use long enough for us to know everything it can do to a person. You might be sensitive to Tomi, to her pain for a while.
“If you want, I could find a doctor who might have some experience with this,” I said. “There’s no end to what my father’s fortune can buy.”
“Maybe. I’m not ready to mess with it. . yet.”
He meant he wasn’t ready to give up feeling Tomi yet. Poor kid had it so bad for her that even if all he could feel was her pain, he was going to keep it.
I guess Anthony wasn’t the only one who needed counseling.
I wondered if anyone in the Authority would know why he was able to feel Tomi’s pain. I made a note to ask. I knew there were doctors in the Authority who specialized in magical wounds.
“Sleep might be a good idea,” I said.
He ran his hand back over his hair, leaving it stuck up on one side. “Yeah. That’s not working so good right now.”
“How about sleeping pills?”
“I hate pills.”
Funny, for a Hound who used booze to cut the pain from magic, it was a little high-handed for him not to want to take a drug that might actually be good for him.
“Then try some warm milk. Eight hours. Sleep.”
“Warm milk? What are you, my mother?” He smiled again, looking for a moment like the Davy I knew.
“I’ll know if you lie about it,” I said.
“Would I lie to you?”
“If you thought you could get away with it.”
I stood and so did he. “You staying?” I asked.
“No. I’ve had enough of this place for one night. I’m going home. I have sleep to catch up on, apparently.”
Zay stood too, and we all walked out the door and were down on the street in the rain in no time. We didn’t say anything else, even though a hundred things were going through my head. All one hundred were things I couldn’t tell Davy.
“Night,” Davy said.
“See you,” I said.
Davy hunched his shoulders, and crossed the street to his car. Zay and I made it to the parking lot, and managed to get under cover before we were soaked.
“Home?” Zay asked, after starting the car.
“How much time do we have before the meeting?”
“It’s only seven o’clock.”
