Dead Past

have this dream of rows and rows of new dolls. The dreams stopped for a long time, and now they’ve started back. I don’t know why. And I don’t know why I’m afraid of them.”

“What do you mean by new dolls?” asked Laura.

“Dolls still in the box,” said Juliet. “What does it mean?”

“I don’t know, yet,” said Laura. “But we’ll find out. Memory is funny. I have a friend who associates the name Louise with vinegar.”

Diane smiled. That was her. It was something she told Laura when they were kids. Talk about memory.

“Vinegar?” said Juliet.

“The word Louise sounded like vinegar to her-that’s the best she could explain it to me. It may be that when she was little she met someone named Louise who spilled vinegar, and the association stuck. But most probably, when she learned the words Louise and vinegar, they somehow got stored in the same place in the brain. Or there could be some other reason entirely.”

“My memories are so frustrating,” said Juliet. “They don’t make sense to me.”

“Early memories are not always accurate,” said Laura. “There was this book that I liked as a young child-it was one of the Golden books. In the book there was a red ball and red wallpaper. To this day when I see a certain kind of red wallpaper, it reminds me of that book. The same with a certain kind of ball. Not long ago I was sorting some stuff in the attic and came across that book. I looked through it for that ball and wallpaper and, to my surprise, the drawings were much cruder and the colors much less vivid than my memory of them. The drawings were childlike in the book, but in my memory they were more polished-finished.”

“How does that happen?” asked Juliet. “I thought memories were written in stone once they get stored.”

“No. Your memories change over time as the brain develops, or as people and events influence them. Some memories are only memories of something that was told to you, and your brain filled out the image. If all your life your parents and relatives tell you a story of how you fell in the creek and almost drowned, you will likely have a memory of it, especially if you’ve ever seen the creek where you were told the event occurred. That happened to my cousin. Years later, she found out it happened to another cousin, not her at all. Yet, by the time she got to be an adult she remembered the event-and it never even happened to her. Sometimes people confuse dreams with memory. That’s why we are going to talk about your dreams another time.”

“How will we ever figure this out?” said Juliet.

“Wading through early memories is tough,” said Laura. “But we’ll get though it. I have some ideas.”

That was all that was on the tape. Diane was glad it was over. Hearing Juliet talk about her memories was uncomfortable. She could hear the pain in Juliet’s voice. A person’s deepest fears are such a private thing. Diane took off the earphones and sat thinking.

“I don’t know how Laura expects me to solve a twenty-year-old crime with this scant evidence,” she whispered to herself. “I must have been nuts to agree.”

Diane looked at her watch. It was about time to go home. She locked Juliet’s information in her desk and went to tell Andie good-bye.

“We haven’t been getting any more harassing phone calls,” said Andie. “Whatever you did worked.” She smiled brightly.

Diane smiled back ruefully. Patrice Stanton thinks I’ll kill her, she thought. What a reputation I’m getting.

Before she left the building Diane stopped by the crime lab. David, Jin, and Neva were sitting at the large round table looking at reports.

“We don’t have anything, guys,” Jin was saying when Diane walked in.

“I don’t want to hear that,” said Diane. “We have to have something. What are you looking at?”

“We have some of the trace back from the GBI,” Jin answered. “They’ve accounted for all the fibers found on McNair. The only thing interesting is a blond hair about seven inches long. It could be his wife’s; they don’t know yet. So far, we can’t find any link between Joana Cipriano’s scene and the other two. In fact, there’s no common trace evidence between McNair and Stanton.”

“Everything we found in Stanton’s boathouse belonged to the family,” said Neva. “I don’t think the killer ever got inside the boathouse.”

“I agree,” said David. “I think he came by boat, shot him, and left.”

“What about the noise?” asked Diane.

“Electric trolling motor,” said David. “Just a little hum.”

“But aren’t they slow?” asked Diane.

“As fast as walking. Fast enough to get you to one of the little coves where you have a car waiting,” said David.

“That sounds awfully chancy,” said Diane.

“This is a lake where people do night fishing,” said David. “Nothing unusual about a small boat being out on the water.”

“In the middle of winter?” asked Diane. She shrugged. “It’s as good a theory as any we’ve had. But where does it get us?”

“Where you came in,” said Jin. “We don’t have anything.”

“What do the detectives have?” asked Diane.

“Less than we do,” said Jin. “We got hold of the GBI report first.”

“They must have more,” said Diane. “They’ve been investigating McNair’s life, his friends and enemies, his family. Same for Stanton. Surely, they’ve come up with something.”

“They say they have nothing,” said Neva. “It could be that my sources have been told not to talk.”

“I’ll talk to Garnett,” said Diane. “They have to have something.”

“You want my opinion?” said David. “It was the uncle-he’s got enough clout to dry up the investigation. And I’ll bet he’s behind the drug operation.”

“Go home and get some rest. A fresh idea may occur to you in the morning. I’m leaving.”

Diane left through the museum exit of the crime lab, crossed the dinosaur overlook, and took the elevator down to the first floor. She walked to the east-wing exit where yet another museum car was parked for her use. The museum store was closed and dark except for the floor lighting. She looked in at the row of Dora the Explorer dolls lined up on the shelf and was reminded of Juliet’s dream. What was it about dolls? Diane continued past the primate exhibits, feeling guilty for not putting enough time in the department for which she was curator. An idea of an exhibit had been forming in her mind for several days and she had done nothing about it. She walked through to the lobby and out the doors.

She was home in bed when an idea hit her. She looked at the clock. One o’clock, shit. She picked up the phone anyway and called Andie.

Andie answered, obviously wide awake.

“I’m sorry to call you so late,” said Diane.

“It’s not late,” said Andie. “What you need?”

“You know that basket you made for Juliet Price?”

“How could I forget it?” answered Andie.

“The mermaid doll, was it in a box? I seem to recall that it wasn’t.”

“No, it wasn’t. Is that why you called?”

“Yes. Thanks for the information.”

“Anytime,” said Andie.

Interesting, Diane said to herself. I’ll wait until morning to call Laura.

Chapter 31

It was the first good night’s sleep Diane had since the explosion. She woke up feeling good-no midnight calls,