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CHAPTER EIGHT
Saturday, 2 October
BERNARD CROWTHER'S WIFE, Margaret, disliked the weekends, and effected her household management in such a way that neither her husband nor her twelve-year-old daughter nor her ten-year-old son enjoyed them very much either. Margaret had a part-time job in the School of Oriental Studies, and suspected that throughout the week she put in more hours of solid work than her gentle, bookish husband and her idle, selfish offspring put together. The weekend,
At 5.30 on the afternoon of Saturday, 2 October, she stood at the sink with bitter thoughts. She had cooked poached eggs for tea ('What, again?') and was now washing up the sticky yellow plates. The children were glued to the television and wouldn't be bored again for an hour or so yet. Bernard (she ought to be thankful for small mercies) was cutting the privet hedge at the back of the house. She knew how he hated gardening, but that was one thing she was
It was already getting dusk after another glorious day. She wondered, like the bees, if these warm days would never cease. . Bernard had managed to advance the neatly clipped and rounded hedge by half a foot in the last five minutes. She wondered what he was thinking about, but she knew that she couldn't ask him.
The truth was, and Margaret had descried it dimly for several years now, that they were drifting apart. Was that her fault, too? Did Bernard realize it? She thought he did. She wished she could leave him, leave everything and go off somewhere and start a new life. But of course she couldn't. She would have to stick it out. Unless something tragic happened — or was it until something tragic happened? And then she knew she would stand by him — in spite of everything.
Margaret wiped the formica tops around the sink, lit a cigarette and went to sit in the dining-room. She just could not face the petty arguments and the noise in the lounge. She picked up the book Bernard had been reading that afternoon,
She read them again and for the first time seemed to catch the rhythm of their magical sound. But what did they mean Forbidden fruits, a sort of languorous, illicit, painful delight. Of course, Bernard could tell her all about it. He spent his life exploring and expounding the beautiful world of poetry. But he wouldn't tell her because she couldn't ask.
It must have been an awful strain for Bernard meeting another woman once a week. How long had she known? Well, for certain, no more than a month or so. But in a strangely intuitive way, much longer than that. Six months? A year? Perhaps more. Not with that particular girl, but there may have been others. Her head was aching. But she'd taken so many codeine recently. Oh, let it ache! What a mess! Her mind was going round and round. Privet hedge, poached eggs, Ernest Dowson, Bernard, the tension and deceit of the past four days. My God! What was she going to do? It couldn't go on like this.
Bernard came in. 'My poor arms don't half ache!'
'Finished the hedge?'
'I'll finish it off in the morning. It's those abhorred shears. I shouldn't think they've been sharpened since we moved here.'
'You could always take them in.'
'And get 'em back in about six months.'
'You exaggerate.'
'I'll get it finished in the morning.'
'It'll probably be raining.'
'Well, we could do with a drop of rain. Have you seen the lawn? It's like the plains of Abyssinia.'
'You've never been to Abyssinia.'
The conversation dropped. Bernard went to his desk and took out some papers. 'I thought you'd be watching the telly.'
'I can't stick being with the children.'
Bernard looked at her sharply. She was near to tears. 'No,' he said. 'I know what you mean.' He looked soberly and almost tenderly at Margaret. Margaret, his wife! Sometimes he treated her so thoughtlessly, so very