The Cure of Souls

with my stomach the way it is these days, I don’t even eat. No, I don’t read the sodding papers.’

‘Evidently not,’ Lol agreed.

He moved through the silent studio, where the Boswell guitar, in all her quiet beauty, sat on the stand, where the preliminary – and possibly final – tape of ‘The Cure of Souls’ still occupied the deck.

After a lot of noise, it was very quiet now.

A thousand questions still echoing; just a few answers.

Gomer Parry had brought Jane and Eirion across to Prof’s, and Eirion’s dad’s secretary had arrived in the BMW – she’d come up to Hereford by train with a spare set of keys to pick up the car from the police station where it had been accommodated overnight. And to collect Eirion. Jane had considered her options for a while before getting in the car with them. ‘Can’t let the poor dab face this alone.’

This was after the police had been and gone: Frannie Bliss, with DS Mumford. DCI Howe had left, it was presumed, with her father. ‘She’ll deny any of it happened,’ Merrily had said to Lol afterwards, as they waved the kids away to Pembrokshire. ‘Especially to herself. She’ll have had someone tell the press she was called away on another case, and she’ll never talk about it, not even to her dad. And she’ll hate me worse than ever. But that’s the price you pay.’

Lol said, ‘What would have happened to her, if you hadn’t—’

Merrily had just shrugged, and Lol had conjured, then dismissed, nebulous images of a hungry, promiscuous Annie Howe darkening into corruption.

Like her old man?

‘You think?’ Merrily had asked him.

‘I don’t really know. He went out of his way to tell you about Allan Henry and the corruption he wasn’t involved in. I just… don’t know.’

‘He told me you were going to blackmail him,’ Merrily said, ‘to keep Annie off my back.’

‘You see? He told you that. It doesn’t fit with him having something to hide, does it? I bet he does, though.’

‘Oh yeah,’ Merrily said. ‘No doubt at all. Would you have?’

‘Blackmailed him? I never even thought of it that way. I’ve never done anything like that before.’ He’d blushed. ‘Maybe.’

‘I don’t deserve it,’ Merrily said. ‘I don’t deserve any of you… Sophie… Jane – don’t ever tell her I said that! I just… flounder about from one irrational scenario to another, making a balls of things, coming to false conclusions – appealing to God, apologizing to God… being terrified of coming one day to reject God. I mean, before all this began I was supposed to recruit a back-up team. I don’t know where to start. Simon—’

‘Forget Simon,’ Lol said. ‘Like you don’t have enough problems.’

‘He came through today, though.’

‘You don’t know what he’s like tonight.’

‘I do have a situation he could help with. If he’d be willing to talk to someone with the same kind of… sensitivity problem.’

‘Amy Shelbone?’

‘Either she represses it and it goes on causing trouble. Or she gets advice from the wrong kind of people and becomes something monstrous. She won’t get sent to a detention centre, but she might get put into the psychiatric system – and who’s that going to help? Not Amy, and certainly not any other patients she comes into contact with.’

‘Psychiatric medicine doesn’t allow for people like that,’ Lol said. ‘No use talking to Simon, though. He’ll only say he’d screw her up even more. How about I talk to Isabel and she talks to Simon?’

‘Would he talk to the Shelbones, too, do you think? As a psychic and a clergyman?’

‘But not in those jeans,’ Lol had said.

Merrily had yawned and asked if it was OK to go up to her cell in Prof’s cottage and lie down for a while.

There was no need to show her to the room; she knew the way. And, anyway, Prof had rung then.

It was evening now, with a premature darkening of the sky. Probably the coming of the long-forecast storm. Lol sat down in the booth with the Boswell, fingered the opening chords of the River Frome song. He needed to sleep; didn’t think he’d be able to.

He thought about the Boswell Romany philosophy: live lightly. And love lightly? He couldn’t love lightly, didn’t think Al Boswell could either. He found himself wondering, not for the first time, what would have happened if Al and Sally hadn’t found them in the hop-yard last night. Decided he wasn’t going to think about that ever again.

Or about Gerard Stock hanging in his cell.

‘Why did he have to kill himself?’ Merrily had said. ‘So many things nobody will ever know. Everyone said he wasn’t the suicide type.’

‘Circumstances can change the kind of person you are,’ Lol said.

‘Wolverhampton?’

‘Experience. I…’ He’d hesitated. ‘Suppose he had a… prison visitor…?’

Merrily had said, ‘Huw Owen uses the term “visitor” to describe the appearance of a relative or close friend – a comfort thing, usually.’

‘Maybe I mean burglar. Maybe that’s not logical. Where would it find female energy in the remand centre?’

‘If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past year,’ Merrily said, ‘it’s that human logic doesn’t often come into it. But… there might be absolutely no paranormal context to Stock’s death. I mean, I might have to operate on the basis that the Unseen permeates everything, but society functions well enough – if a little colourlessly – without it.’

Lol padded up the steps, along the minstrel’s gallery and into his loft, as the first thunder sounded from the west. He took off his round, brass-rimmed glasses and popped them into their case on the plywood onion box serving as his bedside table.

A vivid mauve light filled the skylight above him. It was open a little, and the loft was filled with the rich caramel smell of ripened hay from the meadow.

Lol felt inexplicably upset.

Well, perhaps not that inexplicably.

He let himself fall back on to the camp bed. But it wasn’t there. He came down on hay. He looked up at the blurred purple square of the skylight. Huh? Was he so overtired he’d climbed up to the wrong loft?

He reached for his glasses on the onion box.

A hand closed around his wrist.

With so little sleep in two days, they’d both been beyond exhaustion, but this had somehow made it both more intense and more nebulous. Maybe the fatigue was responsible, also, for that sense of been-here-before, if only in dreams, and Lol had been afraid to sleep in case this should turn out to be another one.

It was the storm that awoke him, creamy lightning in the skylight, and he jumped up to close it against the inevitable rain, climbing on the camp bed, which she’d folded up before spreading the hay and straw and the duvet on top of it.

She said she’d dreamed of Stock. The carcass turning slowly, from side to side.

‘You see what you get sleeping with me,’ Merrily said.

They made love again, under the thunder, and then she lay on her back, and the rain began to hit the skylight in long, slow drops, as if each one had been calculated.

– TWO – Strung Up

MID-MORNING, MERRILY went back to the vicarage, and then she planned to go and visit the Shelbones – or try to. Lol wanted to go with her, and then thought no: love lightly. Don’t seek to possess.