Angel was about to say that her name was Angie, then realized that Zack Fletcher knew what people called her and might make fun of her.
She decided to say nothing at all, and after the first bell rang, Mrs. Brink introduced her to the rest of the class. A few people turned to look curiously at her, and a couple of people actually nodded to her, but within a couple of minutes the teacher had begun a lesson on diagramming sentences, and for the rest of the hour no one even looked at Angel.
Nor did anyone speak to her after class, but Angel told herself it was only because everyone was hurrying to their next classes and they only had ten minutes.
The morning raced by, and when the bell for lunch rang, Angel could barely believe the day was half over. And though no one had exactly gone out of their way to talk to her, no one had turned their back on her either.
Nor had she heard people whispering among themselves as she came down the hall, only to fall silent when she came close, turn away as if even looking at her would somehow be wrong, then start giggling as soon as she’d passed.
Stowing her books in her locker, she found her way to the cafeteria, picked up a tray, and got in line. Five minutes later, with her tray laden only with cottage cheese and a fruit salad that didn’t look very good, but at least didn’t look as fattening as the macaroni and cheese, she looked around for a place to sit.
And saw Zack Fletcher sitting at a table on the far side of the cafeteria with a still-empty chair right across from him. When he looked up and beckoned to her, a great wave of relief flooded over her — she wasn’t going to have to sit by herself, even on the first day of school. She started making her way toward his table, threading between tables and chairs set so close together that half a dozen people had to squeeze up against a table in order to let her by. And then, when she was only a yard from the empty chair at Zack’s table, a girl with exactly the kind of long, straight blond hair that Angel had always envied but knew she would never have — any more than she would have the blond girl’s small features and slim figure — came from the other direction, set her tray down, and slipped into the chair opposite Zack.
Angel stared at the girl, but she gave no sign that she’d even seen Angel moving toward the chair.
Angel waited for Zack to say something, to tell the blonde that he’d been saving the seat for his cousin.
But Zack wasn’t even looking at her — he was staring at the blonde with the kind of stupid grin on his face that boys in Eastbury always had when Nicole Adams was around.
Zack hadn’t been saving her the seat at all! In fact, he probably hadn’t even been waving to her — he’d probably been waving to someone behind her.
Someone like the blonde who was now smiling at Zack the way Nicole Adams had smiled at the boys who were always fawning over her. “I’m so late,” she said. “I couldn’t get my locker open, and then I got stuck talking to Seth Baker, and then—”
“Hey, chill, Heather,” Zack broke in. “Would I let anyone else sit there?”
By the time she got to the nearly empty table, she was certain that everyone in the cafeteria was watching her, and she didn’t even ask the one boy who was sitting at the table if she could join him. Instead, she simply set her tray down at the other end of the table, sat down with her back to the room, and started poking at her fruit salad.
The boy at the other end of the table was eating a heaping plate of macaroni and cheese.
Angel poked at the fruit salad again, and finally put a piece of grapefruit in her mouth.
“That stuff any better than it looks?”
For a moment, she didn’t realize the words were directed at her.
“I mean, I like fresh fruit, but when it’s out of a can, it always tastes tinny to me.”
Angel finally looked up to find the boy on the other side of the table looking at her, his head slightly cocked. “You should’ve gotten this,” he said, pointing at his heaping plate. “It’s really good.”
“It looks good,” Angel agreed. “But—”
“So I’ll get another plate, and you can have some of mine. I got way too much anyway.”
Before she could protest, the boy was gone, and a minute later he was back, an empty plate in one hand, and a knife and soup spoon in the other. Sliding his tray down the table until it was across from Angel’s, he used the soup spoon and knife to move half his macaroni and cheese onto the empty plate, then set the now half-full plate in front of Angel. “There — now you don’t have to eat that crappy fruit salad. Unless you want to, of course,” he added, flushing. “I mean, you can eat anything you want, but—” His flush deepened, and he started to get up again. “Look, if you want, I’ll go sit somewhere else.”
“No!” Angel said, and felt herself flushing as she realized how loudly she’d spoken. “It’s okay.” As the boy sank back into his chair, still looking uncertain, Angel smiled at him. “You’re right — the fruit salad sucks. But I shouldn’t eat the macaroni and cheese. I’m trying to…” Her words trailed off and she shrugged, certain she didn’t have to finish the sentence.
“So who cares if you don’t look like Heather Dunne?” the boy asked. “If you ask me, I think she’s bulimic — probably pukes her brains out right after lunch every day.” The boy leaned forward and dropped his voice. “S’pose your cousin can taste it when he kisses her?”
Angel’s eyes widened as she stared at the boy, and though she tried to suppress the giggle that rose in her throat, she couldn’t. “That is so gross!” she finally managed to get out between giggles.
“Not as gross as kissing someone who’s been hurling lunch,” the boy said.
“How do you know he does that?” Angel asked.
The boy rolled his eyes. “It’s hard not to know when they’re doing it right in front of you,” he said. “Right after fifth period. They’re both in my math class, and they practically get it on in the hall before the bell rings.”
“How do you know she barfs up her lunch?” Angel asked.
“You saw her, didn’t you? And did you see her plate? An elephant couldn’t eat that much. Believe me — she’s barfing.”
“So how’d you know Zack’s my cousin?”
“Everybody knows,” the boy said. “He’s been moaning about—”
The boy cut his words short as he realized what he’d been about to say, but it was too late. Angel felt her eyes stinging with tears, and she struggled not to let them overflow. Wishing she could sink through the floor and vanish forever, but knowing she couldn’t, she started to stand up, intent on getting far from the cafeteria as quickly as she could.
But before she was even out of her chair, the boy said, “Don’t do it.” He said it softly enough so no one but Angel could hear him. “Don’t give them the satisfaction.” As she hesitated, he explained: “Hey, I saw what happened over there. You think Zack didn’t make sure there wasn’t going to be enough room for you at his table before you even came in? I know he’s your cousin, but that doesn’t mean he’s not a jerk.”
He fell silent for a moment, his eyes scanning the room, then went on. “There’s a lot of jerks around here,” he said, then shrugged helplessly. “I guess maybe I’m a jerk sometimes too. My name’s Seth Baker.”
“I’m—” Angel began, but cut herself off before blurting out her true name. “—Angie,” she finished.
Seth frowned. “I thought it was ‘Angel,’ ” he said uncertainly.
Angel felt her face burn. “I hate it,” she blurted before she even thought about it.
“Well, you’re wrong,” Seth said. “It’s a beautiful name.”
“It is not,” Angel shot back.
“It is too. You just hate it because it’s yours. Everybody hates their own name.”
Angel stared at him. “How can you hate ‘Seth’? It’s a good name.”
“Even if it were, it’s not what they call me.”
Now it was Angel’s turn to frown. “What do they call you?” she asked. Seth said nothing, but his face reddened, and now it was Angel who cocked her head. “Come on, what do they call you?” Without thinking about it, she began blurting out the taunts she’d heard all her life. “They always used to call me ‘Daddy’s little Angel,’ and
