The Ivory and the Horn

straight to the point. It's refreshing, really. You wouldn't have a cigarette, would you?'

'Sorry, I don't smoke.'

It's hard to believe that this is the same person who sat in silence across the fire from me for the better part of an hour before he even said hello. I wonder if archetypal spirits can be schizophrenic. Then I think, just being an archetype must make you schizophrenic. Imagine if your whole existence depended on how people remember you.

'I gave it up myself,' Coyote says. Then he proceeds to open up a rolling paper, sprinkle tobacco onto it and roll himself a cigarette. He lights it with a twig from the fire, then blows a contented wreath of smoke up into the air where it twists and spins before it joins the rising column of smoke from the burning mesquite.

I'm beginning to realize that my companion's not exactly the most truthful person I'm going to meet in my life. I just hope he's more reliable when it comes to getting a job done or I'm going to be stuck in this desert for a very long time.

'So where do we start?' I ask.

'With metaphor?'

'What?'

'The use of one thing to explain another,' Coyote says patiently.

'I know what it means. I just don't get your point.'

'I thought we were trying to find your secret need.'

I shake my head. 'I don't have any secret needs.'

'Are you sure?'

'I...'

'Are you sexually repressed?'

I can't believe I'm having this conversation.

'What's that got to do with anything?'

Coyote flicks the ash from the end of his cigarette. 'It's this whole flute-player business,' he says. 'It's riddled with sexual innuendo, don't you see? He's a fertility symbol, now, very mythopoetic and all, but it wasn't always that way. Used to be a trader, a travelling merchant, hup-two-three. That hunched back was actually his pack of trading goods, the flute his way of approaching a settlement, tootle-toot-toot, it's only me, no danger, except if you were some nubile young thing. Had a woman in every town, you know— they didn't call him Koke the Poke for nothing. The years go by and suddenly our randy little friend finds himself elevated to minor deity status, gets all serious, kachina material, don't you know? Becomes a kind of erotic muse, if you will.'

'But—'

'Ah, yes,' Coyote says. 'The metaphorical bit.' He grinds his cigarette out and tosses the butt into the fire. 'Your following the sound of his flute—his particular flute, if you get my meaning— and well, I won't say he's irresistible, but if one were to be suffering for a certain particular need, it might be quite difficult not to be drawn, willy-nilly, after him.'

'What are you saying? That all I have to do is have sex here, and I get to leave?'

'No, no, no, no. Nothing so crass. Nothing so obvious. At this point it's all conjecture. We're simply exploring possibilities, some more delightful than others.' He pauses and gives me a considering look. 'You're not a nun, are you? You haven't taken one of those absurd vows that cut you off from what might otherwise be a full and healthy human existence?'

'I don't know about nuns,' I tell him, 'but I'm outta here.'

I stand up, expecting him to make some sort of protest, but he just looks at me, curiously, and starts to roll another cigarette. I don't really want to go out into the desert night on my own, but I don't want to sit here and listen to his lunacy either.

'I thought you were going to help me,' I say finally.

'I am, little cousin. I will.'

He lights his cigarette and then pointedly, waits for me to sit down again.

'Well, you haven't been much help so far,' I say.

'Oh, right.' he says, laying a hand theatrically across his brow. 'Kill the messenger, why don't you.'

I lean closer to the fire and take a good long look at him. 'Is there any relevance to anything you have to say?' I ask.

'You brought up Kokopelli. You're the one who followed the music of his randy little flute. You can't blame me for any of that. If you've got a better idea, I'm all ears.'

He cups his hands around those big coyote ears of his and leans forward as well. I try to keep a straight face, but all I can do is fall back on the ground and laugh.

'I was beginning to think you didn't have any sort of a sense of humor at all,' he says when I finally catch my breath.

'It's not that. I just want to get away from here. When I dream, I want to go to Mabon— to where I want to go.'

'Mabon?' Coyote says. 'Mabon's yours? Oh, I love Mabon. The first time I ever heard the Sex Pistols was in Mabon. That was years ago now, but I couldn't believe how great they were.'

Whereupon he launches into a version of 'My Way' that's so off-key and out of time that it makes the version Sid Vicious did sound closer to Ol' Blue Eyes than I might ever have thought possible. From the hills around us, four-legged coyote voices take up the song, and soon the night is filled with this horrible caterwauling that's so loud it's making my teeth ache. All I want to do is bury my head or scream.

'Great place, Mabon,' he says when he finally breaks off and the noise from his accompanists fades away.

Wonderful, I think. Not only am l stuck with him here, but now I find out that if I ever do get out of this desert, I could run into him again in my own dreaming place.

9

'I've got to figure out a way to sleep without dreaming,' Sophie told Jilly.

They were taking a break from helping out at a bazaar for St. Vincent's Home for the Aged, drinking tea and sharing a bag of potato chips on the back steps of the old stone building. The sun was shining brightly, and it made Sophie's eyes ache. She hadn't slept at all last night in protest of how she felt Coyote was wasting her time.

'Still visiting the desert every night?' Jilly asked around a mouthful of chips.

Sophie gave her a mournful nod. 'Pretty much. Unless I don't go to sleep.'

'But I thought you liked the desert?' Jilly said. 'You came back from that vacation in New Mexico just raving about how great it was, how you were going to move down there, how we were all crazy not to think of doing the same.'

'This is different. All I want to do is give it up.'

Jilly shook her head. 'I'm envious of the way you get to go places when you dream. I would never want to give it up.'

'You haven't met Coyote.'

'Coyote was your favorite subject when you got back.'

Sophie sighed. It was true. She'd become enamored with the Trickster figure on her vacation and had even named her last studio after a painting she'd bought in Santa Fe: Five Coyotes Singing.

'This Coyote's not the same,' she said. 'He's not all noble and mystical and, oh I don't know, mischievous, I suppose, in a sweet sort or a way. He's more like the souvenirs in the airport gift shop— fun if you're in the right mood, but sort of tacky at the same time. And definitely not very helpful. The only agenda he pursues with any real enthusiasm is trying to convince me to have sex with him.'

Jilly raised her eyebrows. 'Isn't that getting kind of kinky? I mean, how would you even do it?'

'Oh please. He's not a coyote all of the time. Mostly he's a man.' Sophie frowned. 'Mind you, even then he'll have the odd bit of coyote about him: ears, mostly. Sometimes a muzzle. Sometimes a tail.'

Jilly reached for the chip bag, but it was empty. She shook out the last few crumbs and licked them from her palm, then crumpled the bag and stuck it in the pocket of her jacket.

'What am l going to do?' Sophie said.

'Beats me,' Jilly said. 'We should go back inside. Geordie's going to think we deserted him.'