sun's on the way down, and I'd like to get there before dark.'
The captain nodded, and climbed up to the high cockpit. A few seconds later the cruiser's big twin engines roared into life.
The journey back to the dock took almost an hour; they let it pass without conversation, content to watch the ocean, and then, as it came into view, the island chain that formed the southernmost tip of the state of Florida.
On the quayside, as Bob gave the skipper a fifty-dollar tip, Sarah headed for their rental car. She was behind the wheel when he joined her, and the convertible's roof was packed away. 'Straight back to the hotel?' she asked.
'Might as well. We've done the Dry Tortugas National Park, we've taken the Sunset Cruise, we've swum with dolphins, and we've ridden the Old Town Trolley. I reckon we've seen all the sights.'
'There's one more I'd like to see,' said Sarah, casually.
'What's that?'
'I'd like to see you smile as if you meant it. I'd like you to look happy that you came out here to join me.'
'Didn't I look happy last night?'
She shrugged her shoulders. 'I couldn't tell in the dark. But I doubt if you looked ecstatic'
'You seemed pleased with yourself.'
'I like fucking,' she retorted. 'But that's all it was, and you know it. I enjoy making love a lot more, and you haven't made love to me in a while.'
He shot her a sudden piercing glance. 'Not like he did, you mean?'
Sarah started the Sebring convertible, slammed the lever into drive and roared out of the car park.
'Sorry!' Bob exclaimed, his voice raised over the engine.
'If I believed you really were…' she broke off, easing down her speed '… I'd ignore your question. But I don't, so I'll answer it. You're right: not like Ron did. There's been no real tenderness between us for longer than I can remember and, Bob, that's something I need. I have to feel that you care for me when we're vertical as well as horizontal, and I haven't, not for a while.'
'So you went looking for that tenderness somewhere else.'
'No!' she protested. 'It found me.'
'And if I really believed that…'
Four
Neil McIlhenney sat bolt upright. The room was cool, yet he was perspiring, and breathing hard. He felt his heart thumping, seeming to play a rapid, but thankfully steady tattoo against his ribcage.
Louise stirred beside him, but did not waken. He slipped out of bed and went into their bathroom, feeling his way in the darkness and not switching on the light until the door had closed behind him. He stared at his naked self in the mirror, then rubbed the stubble on his chin, as if he was reassuring himself that he was still in the world, that he could still experience ordinary sensations.
As he looked, he saw that his arms and shoulders were glistening, and that the hair on his chest and belly had spun itself into damp curls, black but heavily grey-flecked. He picked up a towel and dried himself off, then brushed his teeth and rinsed his mouth with cold water. When he felt sufficiently composed, he yanked the cord to turn off the mirror's illumination and opened the door once more.
His wife was sitting up in bed as he stepped back into the room. Her reading light was switched on and she was looking at him anxiously, her arms wrapped round his pillow, pressing it to her breasts. 'What's up, love?' she asked, quietly. 'This is damp. Are you feeling ill?'
He shook his head. 'I'm fine: bad dream, that was all. I shouldn't have had that cheese.'
She grinned, reassured. 'When I was a kid, my poor old dad used to warn me, 'Eat cheese for supper and you'll see your granny', meaning you'll have dreams. My granny died when I was five and I missed her like hell, so I used to sneak into the kitchen before I went to bed and pinch a big lump of Cheddar, or whatever else was in the fridge. It didn't work, though: I never did see her.' She paused as he slipped back under the duvet. 'Did you?'
'Did I what?'
'See your granny?'
He reached out and ruffled her hair, then took the pillow from her. 'Both my grannies are still alive,' he reminded her. 'I don't need to use dairy products to conjure up visions of them.'
'What did you see, then?'
A corner of his mouth twisted in a slight grimace. 'I don't think I want to talk about it'
'Scary?'
'Weird.' He gave a shiver, remembering the coldness.
She dug him gently in the ribs with an elbow. 'Go on, tell me. You'll feel better. I used to go to this shrink who made me tell him all my dreams.'
As he looked at her, a broad, incredulous smile spread across his face. 'Why the hell did you need to go to a shrink?'
Lou McIlhenney gave a small frown. 'For the same reason most people go: my head was messed up. It was after my first marriage went down the toilet. I was depressed, lonely, and drinking a bit. My work suffered in the process. For a while I tried to rebuild my confidence with casual affairs, but I found I couldn't do casual.' She shrugged her shoulders. 'So I did what any self-respecting actress would do in the circs: I got the name of a Harley Street psychiatrist from my doctor, and I went into therapy.'
Neil smiled again. 'It worked, that's for sure.'
She snorted. 'Two years and God knows how many thousand quid later it worked. The gremlins were gone and I started to do my best work.' And then she smiled. 'I still suffered from occasional self-doubt, though. Do you know when I realised for sure that I was cured?'
'Tell me.'
'The day I met you: when I went to dinner at Bob and Sarah's and you were there in the fourth chair, I said to myself, 'Louise Bankier, this is your moment. You're going to have him.' And I did.'
He laughed at her honesty. 'You were that sure of yourself?'
'He really was a very good shrink.'
'And he made you tell him your dreams?'
She nodded.
'All of them?'
'Every one, in all the detail I could remember.'
'Pervert.'
'That thought did cross my mind, but after a while I could tell him the most intimate things without bothering about it.'
'Did you ever worry about your dreams winding up in the Sunday scandal sheets?'
'No. He taped all our sessions but he only worked from notes. He gave me all the tapes; it was his way of making me sure he'd have nothing to gain and everything to lose by leaking to the press.'
'I can see that,' Neil conceded.
'So tell me your dream. I promise I won't sell it to the
'They wouldn't buy it. Just your common or garden nightmare, that was all.' The vision was still vivid in his mind; he recounted it for her, step by step, until the moment when he snapped awake.
'I see,' she murmured, thoughtfully, when he was finished.
'So what's your verdict, Dr Lou?'
'Did you ever have any experiences as a child that related to the dream?'
His forehead wrinkled for a second or two, and then his eyebrows rose. 'Now you mention it, yes,' he conceded. 'When I was a kid, like six or seven, we had a very big snowfall and it lay for a while. My pals and I decided we'd build an igloo in my back garden, as you do. It was a real pro job, just like the Eskimos have, only it wasn't quite as good as we thought. I was inside it on my own when it collapsed. I was buried in snow and ice and
