thing a man like my father would discuss with his teenage daughter. But I could see they were all over each other in the first two or three years. I remember being horrified at the thought that she might get pregnant. Her baby around the house! God, what a prospect! And I’m sure Daddy was dead keen to start a new family with her. But it never happened. I suspect that Kay made damn sure it never would happen!
Anyway, eventually I could see things had really cooled between them. I was at home for the spring half- term and Daddy definitely wasn’t himself. He was distracted, worried, angry, frustrated, all kinds of things. God knows what she was putting him through, but it was something he was finding it hard to deal with.
I went back to school. I talked with Pal on the phone. He said he’d try to get home and have a chat with Daddy, though he didn’t hold out much hope. Daddy wasn’t a man for heart-to-hearts. He rang me back a week or so later. He said he’d been home but it turned out Daddy was away for a couple of days. I think Kay might have come on to him again but he didn’t want to talk about it on the phone. But he said he was writing to Daddy, putting him straight about the bitch, and he wanted me to be ready to back him up in case Daddy looked to me for confirmation. Like I say, I was ready and willing. Then only a couple of days later I was called to the head’s study and given the news.
Kay had taken off to America with Helen and Daddy had blown his brains out.
Oh, I know that she claimed it was just a trip arranged with Daddy’s full co-operation and she’d have been back by Easter, but it fell very convenient. When I saw Pal, he confirmed what I’d guessed, that something had happened when he went home earlier in the month. She’d made another big play for him. Once again he’d threatened to tell Daddy, and this time he’d gone through with it. But he suspected that Kay for once had taken his threat seriously and got in first with some story that made him out a sex-crazed monster.
Well, it must have all blown Daddy’s mind. Generally he was a tightly controlled man, screwing down the hatches to keep everything inside. But sometimes you knew that all this containment meant was that the explosion was going to be nuclear when it came. I don’t know what was going on in his mind. Who can ever tell about anyone? But I do know he ended up alone in this house. Kay was gone. Perhaps he doubted if she’d ever come back. And with her she’d taken our kid sister.
Daddy loved Helen. More than he loved me and Pal, I’d say. That had always been Kay’s big hold over him, more even than the sex, I think. She’d made sure Helen worshipped her. The worst thing was when the dust settled, we found there was nothing we could do to get Helen out from under the cow. Daddy’s will appointed Kay as our guardian. That didn’t affect Pal-he was already in his majority, and I was in hailing distance of my eighteenth too. I even went and stayed with dotty old Vinnie just to make sure I kept myself completely out of the bitch-queen’s clutches. But Helen was only nine. Kay was legally entitled to hang on to her, and that’s where Helen wanted to be.
Pal wanted to bring everything out into the open in an effort to prove Kay wasn’t a fit person, but in the end he took advice which was that to make accusations without firm evidence could just be counterproductive. Better to go down the alternative route and argue the other undeniable strikes against her bringing up Helen, which were that, not being a British citizen, she might decide to go back to the States and live, and Daddy certainly wouldn’t have wanted Helen brought up over there. Also if Kay got re-married, and her new husband took against Helen, the fact that there was no blood relationship would make it a lot easier for Kay just to dump her. I’m not sure what the outcome might have been, but suddenly she got married to her boss, Tony Kafka, who turned out to be willing to legally adopt Helen. Also he said that he didn’t anticipate moving out of England in the foreseeable future and in addition they gave a firm undertaking that Helen’s education would be entirely in the UK.
This cut the ground from under Pal’s case. Pal always suspected she and Kafka had something going before she met Daddy, and that it didn’t stop after the marriage. But no proof, and anyway, it was water under the bridge. Naturally, Helen grew up thinking we were the villains of the piece, but, give Kay her due, she didn’t overdo it. She had nothing to gain by an open row with us. The closest we came to that was when she proposed that Moscow House be put on the market. She had no personal interest-Daddy’s will left it to the three of us-but as guardian she had Power of Attorney for Helen. Me, I’d have probably gone along with this-I found the place really creepy after Daddy’s death-but Pal was adamant. No sale. He reckoned he’d lost every other battle with her, but this one he wasn’t going to lose. It was the family house, he said, and should remain in the family till all three of us were in a position to make an adult decision with no outside interference, meaning of course Kay.
Once Helen got to eighteen and got herself married, she soon made it clear she still wanted to sell and Pal dropped his objections, so now it’s on the market. Not much interest so far, but eventually it will sell, and when you look at how property prices have shot up in recent years, maybe it wasn’t so silly from an investment pointof- view leaving it be all this time.
As for Kay, she’s still very thick with Helen, of course. Don’t know how she felt about the improved relations between us and Helen-the house sale going ahead, Pal and Jason playing squash-but she kept out of our hair. Mine anyway. I got the impression Pal might have run across her somewhere, he was still so full of anger whenever she was mentioned. And I knew how he felt when I saw her last night, which was the first time in ages we’d met. It all came flooding back. OK, I was full of booze and terrified of what we were going to find out about Pal. But that didn’t explain my reaction. I saw her and I knew what I’ve always known, that there’s a darkness in her that she can’t control or hide. She goes out in the daylight, but she belongs to the night.
You said you wanted to understand Pal’s frame of mind, why he imitated Daddy’s death. I can’t help you there, not with anything definite anyway. But one thing I will say. I’ve no idea how and I can’t really explain why, but I’m absolutely certain if you look deep enough you’ll find that that cunning, manipulative, American bitch is somewhere behind my darling brother’s death.
Two hundred miles to the south, Tony Kafka had fled from the dining room of the Mastaba Club as soon as his phone rang, knowing from previous experience how much the members (referred to disrespectfully in St James’s circles as Mastabators) disliked being reminded that the Old Queen was dead.
His host watched him go. His name, not unfittingly, was Victor Warlove. His job (how fittingly was a matter of debate) was Under-Secretary in the Department of Overseas Aid. He was a short man, very stout, even his head was stout, and also completely bald, a deficiency he balanced by wearing a Harris tweed suit so hairy, you could have sheared it and got yourself a matching rug.
As if chosen deliberately for contrast, the other man remaining at the table was very thin, very tall, and so smooth of person and suit that a housefly would have found it hard to land on him. This was Timothy Gedye, one of whose passports described him as a civil servant but whose actual job was as hard to get a purchase on as his person.
Warlove picked up a carafe and filled his companion’s glass with a wine bright as arterial blood, saying, as he poured, “I often wonder what the Vintners buy one half so precious as the goods they sell.”
Gedye said, “Perhaps you should change your trade, Victor.”
He had the kind of English face whose mouth only moves under the thin lower lip, spilling each perfectly enounced syllable to drift floorwards like a dried leaf and rustle into a corner.
“And deprive my country of my services? Wouldn’t dream of it, dear lad. So, what do you think of him so far?”
“Without prejudice, I’m getting the faintest butterfly-in-the-neighbouring-meadow feeling that our friend’s heart may no longer be in it.”
“Oh dear,” said Warlove. “I do hope you’re wrong. He has been a valuable colleague for many years. But I’ve noticed radical changes in so many of our transatlantic cousins since that sad business, what do they call it? Ten eleven?”
“Nine eleven,” said Gedye.
“That’s the one. Was a time when profit and patriotism went hand in hand, you couldn’t have one without the other. All changed, all changed. Back in the sixties it used to be commies in the cupboard, now it’s terrorists under the bed.”
“I think our friend has particular reason for wanting to swim in the mainstream,” said Gedye. “What do you know about his background?”
“Not a lot. No idea where he went to school. Not Eton, else I would have known. Winchester perhaps? They have a thing about foreigners.”
