agency.
I had to get out of this room, away from the computer, and think this through.
I hurried down the hall to the kitchen to sneak a diet Coke before Kate came home—she knew nothing about my stash of diet Cokes. I walked circles around the kitchen island, sipping aspartame and caffeine, hoping to find clarity. When had curiosity turned into an obsession to find answers?
And then it dawned on me that there would be nothing illegal about learning how the adoption system in Texas worked firsthand. Nothing illegal about me, an adoptee, searching for my own records. The state of Texas told me I had the right to do so on their very own Web site. Even provided an application form on-line. This would be a perfectly legal way to see what information was kept in the registry database. Then maybe Jeff Kline could take over from there.
I went to Daddy’s study and printed out the brief two-page document. Thirty minutes later I drove to Mail Boxes Etc and FedExed my application, surprised at how my hand trembled when I handed the envelope over to the clerk. This seemed all too personal now. And sending off the application reminded me that, though Daddy had shown us our court papers many years ago, I hadn’t seen them during all my searching for the mysterious safe- deposit box. Willis probably had them, I decided on the way back home.
In Daddy’s study once again, I renewed my search through the remaining canceled checks for any clue to the safe-deposit box. I’d never realized how many pieces of paper a human being could accumulate in a lifetime. Daddy could have saved a hundred trees, maybe even a thousand, if he had used cash even occasionally. But he’d told me once checks always came back as proof you took care of your business, and I guess that made sense.
By the time Kate arrived home from her evening therapy session, I had one last stack to go through.
“Any luck?” she asked, carrying two glasses into the study. She placed one in front of me and sat down in the red leather wing chair.
“Not yet,” I answered, removing the mint sprig and silently praying this concoction wasn’t herbal. But alas, it tasted suspiciously like grass. “Mmm, yummy,” I lied. “I have to say this check hunt has produced some interesting moments.”
“Interesting? How?”
“Aunt Caroline profited from Daddy’s generosity more than I ever knew. Every other check seems to have her name on it. No matter which one of her husbands she was married to at the time, Charlie Rose kept her outfitted in green.”
“I didn’t think she needed Daddy’s money. I thought she only married rich men.” Kate took a hefty swig of her drink and I half expected her to bleat like a goat.
“I think the husbands ended up rich by marrying her,” I said. “By the way, I ran into her this morning. She told me a boyfriend blackmailed her over letters she wrote to him while she was still married to Number Two. The one with the odd first name. Remember him?” I pretended to sip my drink.
“Marion something. Hand me a bunch of those checks and I’ll help you.”
“Be my guest.” I handed her a stack.
“She told you about these letters willingly?” asked Kate, removing the rubber band. “Had she been sipping brandy at Willis’s office?”
“I confronted her about searching the attic and she confessed.”
“She actually admitted she made that mess?”
“She says she went up there, but emphatically denies disturbing anything, which has to be a lie, of course.” I continued scanning checks, pulling a few current ones that didn’t help with the safe-deposit box situation, but matched the two already in my shorts pocket.
“What about this one?” Kate said. “Community Savings and Loan. Thirty dollars. Dated last fall.” She passed me the check with a satisfied grin.
“I’ve spent endless hours searching; then you bop in and bingo! Does that tell you who inherited the strand of DNA with the luck genes? You should go out and buy a lottery ticket.”
I picked up the glass of herbal whatever, making her think I might be interested in actually consuming this iced horror. “We can visit the bank tomorrow, but now that you’ve released me from this thankless task, I can run an errand.”
“Pretty late for errands,” she said.
“I need to pay someone a visit.” I headed for the hallway, carrying the glass with me.
Kate called after me, “You don’t have to drink it, Abby. It won’t hurt my feelings.”
I smiled and poured the contents in the sink before leaving.
Nights on Houston’s freeways bear great resemblance to the days. Nothing keeps people out of their cars in this city. I joined the stream of traffic on the Southwest Freeway and followed a thousand taillights past the glossy office buildings populating this side of town. It could take as much as an hour to navigate the sprawl of Houston, depending on where you came from and where you were going, but I arrived at the Greenleaf Apartments in thirty minutes.
“This is a surprise,” said Steven when he opened his door.
“I had a surprise myself this afternoon.” I dropped my purse on the table by the door and walked past him into the living area.
“How’s that?”
He’d redecorated since the last time I’d visited—or someone had redecorated for him. Steven never had much sense of color. The expected grays and tans had been transformed into a salute to the Southwest, with pale green, blue, and mauve fabrics on the couch and love seat, and various desert scenes hanging on the walls.
“This is sure different,” I commented.
“A friend told me a change of everyday scenery might help me readjust to being single.”
“Did your friend help you with this or did you hire someone?” I asked, sitting on the sofa.
“She helped. Can I get you a drink?”
“If you swear on the Bible no herbs are involved.”
“Another reason you should take me back, if only to serve as a buffer between you and Kate the holistic. How about a Dr Pepper?”
“On second thought, I’ll pass. This won’t take long.” I took the canceled checks from my pocket and held them out. “Can you explain these?”
He looked at them briefly, then shoved them back. “Yeah. But I’m not sure I will.”
“I thought we were friends,” I said softly. “You borrowed money from Daddy behind my back, didn’t you?”
“I needed help, okay? And Charlie offered.” Steven’s face tightened with tension, and his green eyes darkened.
I was sorry then, sorry I’d come here without thinking through how to confront him more tactfully.
“Must have been hard asking him for money,” I said.
“I had debts after my rehab, and I didn’t think you’d help me out. Charlie agreed to tide me over.”
Oddly enough, I felt a certain relief at hearing this information. “Daddy
“You stopped hanging your wash on my line the day that paper made us officially divorced. I wasn’t about to ask you for anything.”
“No, especially since you left right after I stopped financing your self-destruction,” I said.
Though Steven’s expression indicated he didn’t like what I had to say, he didn’t shoot back with something sarcastic. Instead an uncomfortable silence followed, and when he finally spoke, his voice was calm. “That’s the fairy story you like to tell yourself about why I left. In truth, I had to get my head together. And yeah, it took me longer than I thought. And yeah, I’ve regretted losing you every day since I got sober.”
This was a new wrinkle in an old shirt. Might even pass for insight. “I’m sorry, Steven. I made a mistake. This is really none of my business.” I rose and circled around him to retrieve my purse.
But he reached out and grabbed my arm.
“Hold on.” He pulled me to him, his lean body fitting into mine the perfect way it always had. Though my brain screamed for me to break away, I couldn’t pile rejection onto distrust. His sobriety might be too
