and smugglers. In other words, people like us.' He smiled at his own little joke. 'We'll be crossing at Checkpoint Alpha. At Helm- stedt. It's the largest and busiest crossing point because it offers the shortest land route between West Germany and West Berlin. It's one hundred and eighty-five kilometres through East Germany to Berlin. The road runs through a fenced corridor that's heavily guarded. A bit like No Man's Land if you remember that, and almost as dangerous, so if we have a breakdown, on no account get out of the car. We wait for assistance, no matter how long that takes. If you get out you risk being shot, and people do get shot. The border police – the Grepos – are particularly trigger-happy. Do I make myself clear?'
'Abundantly clear, Herr Grottsch. Thank you.'
'Good.' Grottsch cocked an ear at the air and nodded his appreciation. 'What a pleasure to listen to Mendelssohn again. And not to be worried that one was being unpatriotic.'
'He was German, wasn't he?' I said. 'From Hamburg.'
'No, no,' said Grottsch. 'Mendelssohn was a Jew.'
Wenger nodded and lit a cigarette. 'That's right,' he said. 'He was. A Jew from Leipzig.'
'Of course,' Grottsch went on, 'going in is one thing. Getting out is quite another. Inspection pits, mirrors, there's even a mortuary where they can look inside coffins to check if an occupant who wanted to be buried in West Germany is really dead. Even Mendelssohn couldn't leave these days without the proper paperwork. And he's been dead for a hundred years.'
'Your lady friend,' said Wenger. 'Fraulein Dehler. You'll be pleased to know she's still at the same address. But she's no longer a dressmaker. She now runs a nightclub called The Queen on Auguste-Viktoria Strasse.'
'A straight kind of place?'
'As straight as they go.'
Helmstedt was an attractive little medieval town of brightly coloured towers and unusual churches. The town hall looked like an enormous organ from a cathedral that, typically, no longer existed. The red-brick university building resembled a military barracks. I might have seen more of it but my two companions were keen to get through Checkpoint Alpha so that we might reach Berlin before dark. And I could hardly fault them for that. From Marienborn, Berlin was a three- hour drive through an inhospitable landscape of barbed wire and, on the other side of the fence, men with dogs, and mines. But nothing compared with the inhospitable faces of the Grepos at Checkpoint Alpha. In their jackboots, cross- belts, and long leather coats the Border Police reminded me strongly of the SS, and the long wooden huts they emerged from were like something from a concentration camp. The swastikas were gone, replaced by the red stars and the hammer and sickle, but everything else felt the same. Except for one thing. Nazism had never looked quite so permanent as this. Or so thorough.
Grottsch and Wenger shared the driving, which was straightforward enough; if you drive east on the A2 for long enough you arrive in Berlin. But they remained wary of asking questions, as if the French had warned them against the answers. So when we spoke at all it was concerning nothing of any real consequence: the weather, the scenery, the Citroen versus the Mercedes, life in the DDR and, as we got nearer our destination, the Four Powers and their continuing occupation of the former German capital, which we all agreed none of us liked. It went without question that we thought the Russians the worst of all, but we spent at least an hour arguing which of the other three was going to take the silver medal. It seemed my two colleagues were of the opinion that the British had the same faults as the Americans – arrogance and ignorance – without any of the virtues – money – that made their arrogance and ignorance easier to ignore. The French, we decided, were simply the French: not to be taken seriously, and therefore beneath any real contempt. Personally I had my doubts about the British, and if I had any lingering doubts about my silver-plated dislike of the Americans they were soon to be dispelled. Just south-west of Berlin, at the Dreilinden border crossing into the city in Zehlendorf, we were obliged to stop to present our papers again; and entering the American zone we parked our car and went into a shop to buy some cigarettes. I was used to seeing, and smoking, mostly American brands. It was all the other American brands in the shop that brought me up short: Chex breakfast cereal, Rexall toothpaste, Sanka caffeine-free coffee, Ballantine beer, Old Sunnybrook Kentucky whiskey, Dash dog food, Jujyfruits, Appian Way pizza-mix, Pream, Nescafe and 7UP. I might have been back in Berlin, but not so as you would have noticed.
We drove into the French sector, to a safe-house on Bernauer Strasse that overlooked the Russian sector, which is to say the French controlled the north pavement and the Russians controlled the south. It hardly mattered. Even if it didn't look like the Berlin I remembered – on the Soviet side of the street the bombed-out buildings remained in total disrepair – it still felt and smelt much the same: cynical, mongrel – perhaps more mongrel than ever. In my head and heart an orchestra the size of a division was playing 'Berliner Luft' and I was clapping and whistling in all the right places for a true citizen. In Berlin it was never about being German – Hitler and Goebbels never understood that – it was being a Berliner first and telling anyone who wanted to change that to go to Hell. One day we would surely be rid of the rest of them, too. The Ivans, the Tommies, the Franzis and yes, even the Amis. Friends are always harder to get rid of than enemies; especially when they believe they're good friends.
The following day the two Germans drove me to Motzstrasse in the American sector.
We drew up outside number twenty-eight. The building was in a much better state of repair than the last time I'd been there. For one thing it had been painted canary yellow; there were several window boxes filled with geraniums; and in front of the heavy oak door someone had planted a thriving lime tree. The whole area looked like it was doing well. Across the street was an expensive porcelain shop and below Elisabeth's first-floor apartment was an equally pricey restaurant called Kottler's, where my two escorts elected to wait for me.
The street door was open. I went upstairs and rang the bell and listened. Inside Elisabeth's apartment I could hear music, and then it stopped. A moment later the door opened and she was standing in front of me. Seven years older and at least five kilos heavier. Before she'd been a brunette. Now she was a blonde. The weight suited her more than the hair colour, which didn't really match her widening brown eyes, but I hardly minded that as it was six months since I'd even spoken to a woman, let alone one in her dressing gown. Just seeing Elisabeth like that reminded me of a more innocent time before the war, when sex still seemed like a practical proposition.
Her jaw dropped and she blinked, deliberately, as if she really didn't believe her own eyes.
'Oh my God, it's you,' she said. 'I was afraid you were dead.'
'I was. Eternal life has its advantages but it's amazing how quickly you get bored. So, here I am again. Back in the city of mahogany and marijuana.'
'Come in, come in.' She vacuumed me inside, closed the door and hugged me fondly. 'I don't have any marijuana,' she said, 'but I have good coffee. Or something stronger.'
'Coffee will be fine.' I followed her along a corridor and into the kitchen. 'I like what you've done with the place. You've put furniture in it. The last time I was here I think you'd sold everything. To the Amis.'
'Not everything.' Elisabeth smiled. 'I never sold that. Lots did, mind. But not me.' She set about making the coffee and then said, 'How long has it been?'
'Since I was last here? Six or seven years.'
'It seems longer. Where have you been? What were you doing?'
'None of that matters now. The past. Right now the only thing that matters is right now. Everything else is irrelevant. Or at least that's how it seems to me.'
'You really were dead, weren't you?'
'Mmm hmm.'
She made coffee and led the way into a small but comfortable sitting room. The furniture was solid but unremarkable. Outside, the copper-coloured leaves of the linden tree helped to shade the window from the bright autumn sun. I felt quite at home. As much at home as I was likely to feel anywhere.
'No sewing machine,' I observed.
'There's not much call for expensive tailoring any more,' she said. 'Not in Berlin, anyway. Not since the war. Who can afford such things? These days I run a club called The Queen. On Auguste-Viktoria Strasse. Number seventy-six. Drop by some time. Not today of course. We're closed on Sundays. Which is why I'm here.'
'Is it a Sunday? I don't know.'
'Dead and just coming back to life. That's hardly respectable. But the club is. Probably too respectable for a man like you, but that's what the customers want nowadays. No one wants the old Berlin any more. With the sex
