ripping through her back, her thighs. Both her sclerae had turned red, so had Kittredge's. His eyeballs looked like twin bags of blood. Glowing. Red. He was in pain too, she could see it in the way he moved, the slow and guarded turning of his head. They were both in agony, yet neither of them dared accept an injection of narcotics. Undocking and landing required peak alertness, and they could not risk losing even the slightest edge of performance.
Get us home. Get us home. That was the mantra that kept running through Jill's head as she struggled to stay on task, as sweat drenched her shirt and the pain ate into her concentration.
They were racing through the departure checklist. She had plugged the IBM Thinkpad's computer cable into the aft console data port, booted up, and opened the Rendezvous and Proximity Operations program.
'There's no data flow,' she said.
'What?'
'The port must be gunked up by the spill. I'll try the middeck PCMMU.' She unplugged the cable. Every bone in her face screamed with pain as she made her way through the interdeck access, carrying the Thinkpad.
Her eyes were throbbing so badly they felt as if they were about to pop out of their sockets. Down middeck, she saw Mercer was already dressed in his launch-and-entry suit and strapped in for reentry. He was unconscious -- probably from the dose of narcotics. O'Leary, also strapped in, was awake but looking dazed. Jill floated across to the middeck data port and plugged in the Thinkpad.
Still no data stream.
'Shit. Shit.' Now struggling to focus, she made her way back to the flight deck.
'No luck?' said Kittredge.
'I'll change out the source cable and try this port again.' Her head was pounding so badly now it brought tears to her eyes. Teeth gritted, she pulled out the cable, replaced it with a new one. Rebooted. From Windows, she opened RPOP. The Rendezvous and Proximity Operations logo appeared on the screen.
Sweat broke out on her upper lip as she began to type in the mission elapsed time. Days, hours, minutes, seconds. Her reflexes weren't obeying as they should. They were sluggish, clumsy. She had to back up to correct the numbers. At last she selected
'Prox Ops' and clicked on
'OK.'
'RPOP initialized,' she said with relief. 'Ready to process data.
Kittredge said, 'Capcom, are we go for sep?'
'Stand by, Discovery.' The wait was excruciating. Jill looked down at her hand and saw that her fingers had started to twitch, that the muscles of her forearm were contracting like a dozen writhing worms beneath the skin. As if something alive were tunneling through her flesh. She fought to keep her hand steady, but her fingers kept twitching in electric spasms. Get us home now. While we can still fly this bird.
'Discovery,' said Capcom. 'You are a go for undocking.'
'Roger that. Digital autopilot on low Z. Go for undocking.' Kittredge shot Jill a look of profound relief. 'Now let's get the hell home,' he muttered, and grasped the hand controls.
Flight Director Randy Carpenter stood like the statue of Colossus, his gaze fixed on the front screen, his engineer's brain coolly monitoring simultaneous streams of visual data and loop conversations.
As always, Carpenter was thinking several steps ahead. The docking base was now depressurized. The latches connecting the to ISS would unhook, and preloaded springs in the docking system would gently push the two vehicles apart, causing them to free away from each other. Only when they were two feet apart would Discovery's RCS jets be turned on to steer the orbiter away. At point in this delicate sequence of events, things could go wrong, but for every possible failure, Carpenter had a contingency plan. the docking latches failed to unhook, they'd fire pyrotechnic charges and shear off the latch retention bolts. If that failed, crew members from ISS could perform an EVA and manually remove the bolts. They had backup plans for backup plans, a contingency for every failure.
At least, every failure they could predict. What Carpenter dreaded was the glitch that no one had thought about. And now he asked himself the same question he always did at the beginning of a new mission phase, What have we failed to anticipate?
'ODS has successfully disengaged,' he heard Kittredge announce. 'Latches have released. We're now in free drift.' The flight controller beside Carpenter gave a little punch of triumph in the air.
Carpenter thought ahead, to the landing. The weather at White Sands was holding steady, head winds at fifteen knots. The TACAN would be up and operational in time for the shuttle's arrival.
Ground crews were at this moment converging on the runway.
There were no new glitches in sight, yet he knew one had to be waiting just around the corner.
All this was going through his mind, but not a flicker of expression crossed his face. Not a hint to any of the flight personnel in the room that he was feeling dread, as sour as bile, in his throat.
Aboard ISS, Emma and her crewmates also watched and waited.
All research activities were at a temporary standstill. They had gathered at the Node 1 cupola to look at the massive shuttle as it undocked. Griggs was also monitoring the operation on an IBM Thinkpad, which showed the same RPOP wireframe display that Houston's Mission Control was now looking at.
Through the cupola windows, Emma saw Discovery begin to inch away, and she gave a sigh of relief. The orbiter was now in drift, and on its way home.
Medical Officer O'Leary floated in a narcotic daze. He'd injected fifty milligrams of Demerol into his own arm, just enough to take the edge off his pain, to allow him to strap in Mercer, and to batten down the cabin for reentry. Even that small dose of narcotic was clouding his mental processes.
He sat strapped in his middeck seat, ready for deorbit. The cabin seemed to drift in and out of focus, as though he were seeing it underwater. The light hurt his eyes, and he closed them.
Moments ago, he thought he'd seen Jill Hewitt float past with the Thinkpad, now she was gone, but he could hear her strained voice over his headset, along with Kittredge's and Capcom's. They had undocked.
Even in his mental fog, he felt a sense of impotence, of shame, that he was strapped into his seat like an invalid while his crewmates up on flight deck were laboring to get them home. Pride made him fight his way back from the comfortable oblivion of sleep, and he surfaced into the hard glare of the middeck lights. He felt for the harness release, and as the straps came free, he floated out of his seat. The middeck began to shift around him, and he had to close his eyes to stem the sudden tide of nausea. Fight it, he thought.
Mind over matter. I'm the one who always had the iron stomach.
But he could not bring himself to open his eyes, to confront that disorienting drift of the room.
Until he heard the sound. It was a creaking, so close by that he thought it must be Mercer, stirring in his sleep. O'Leary turned toward the sound -- and found that he was not facing Mercer. He was staring at Kenichi Hirai's body bag.
It was bulging. Expanding.
My eyes, he thought. They're playing tricks on me.
He blinked and refocused. The shroud was still swollen, the plastic ballooning out over the corpse's abdomen. Hours ago, they had patched the leak, now the pressure inside must be building up again.
Moving through a dreamlike haze, he floated across to the sleeping pallet. He placed his hand on the bulging body bag.
And jerked away in horror. For in that brief moment of contact, he had felt it swell, retract, and swell again.
The corpse was pulsating.
Sweat beading her upper lip, Jill Hewitt watched through the overhead window as Discovery unlatched from ISS. Slowly the gap widened between them, and she glanced at the data streaming across her computer screen.
One foot separation. Two feet. Going home. Pain suddenly arced through her head, its stab so unbearable she felt herself beginning to black out. She fought back, holding on to consciousness with the stubbornness of a bulldog.
'ODS is clear,' she said through clenched teeth.
Kittredge responded with, 'Switching to RCS OP, low Z.' Using the reaction-control-system thrusters, Kittredge would now gently steer away from ISS, moving to a point three thousand feet below the station, where
