other, was the host. The count. Adair.
I awoke with a start. I was in a large bed in a dark, quiet room. Just the act of waking sent bright sparks of pain shooting through my body. I felt as though I’d been turned inside out, stretched and raw and stiff, numb from the waist down. My stomach churned, a sea of bile. My face was puffy, my mouth, too, with lips dry and cracked. I knew what had happened to me last night, my pain all the evidence I needed. What I needed now was to survive it.
Then I saw him lying next to me on the bed. Adair. His face was almost beatific in sleep. From what I could see, he was naked though covered by sheets from the waist down. His back was exposed to me and mottled with old scars, hinting of a horrific beating once upon a time.
I leaned over the edge of the bed and, clutching the mattress, threw up on the floor.
My retching woke the host. He moaned at his hangover, or so I assumed, and raised a hand to his temple. His green-gold eyes blinked uncertainly.
“Good God, you’re still here,” he said to me.
I lunged at him in anger, raising a fist to strike him, but he knocked me aside with a lazy, powerful arm. “Don’t behave stupidly,” he warned me, “or I’ll break you in half like a stick.”
I thought of the other young men and women I’d seen last night. “Where are they? The others?” I demanded.
“Paid and gone, I hope,” Adair muttered, running a hand through tangled hair. He wrinkled his nose at the smell of my fresh vomit. “Get someone in here to clean that up,” he said as he lurched off the bed.
“I’m not your servant. And I’m not a-” I groped for a word I didn’t know existed.
“Not a whore?” He pulled a blanket off the bed and wrapped it around his body. “You were not a virgin, either.”
“That doesn’t mean I want to be drugged and savaged by a group of men.”
Adair said nothing. He held the blanket closed at his hip, walked to the door, and bellowed for a servant. Then he turned to face me. “So, you think I wronged you? What will you do about it? You could tell your story to the constable and he will lock you up for being a prostitute. So I suggest you take your pay and get a meal from the cook before you go.” Then he cocked his head as he looked me over a second time. “You’re the one Tilde found on the street, the one with no place to go. Well… let it never be said that I am not a generous man. You can stay a few days with us. Rest up and get your bearings, if you like.”
“And am I to sing for my supper the same as last night?” I asked tartly.
“You are impertinent, aren’t you, to speak to me like this? All alone in the world-no one knows you’re here, I could eat you up like a little rabbit, a little rabbit in a stew. Doesn’t that frighten you in the least?” He smirked at me but with a glimmer of approval. “We’ll see what comes to mind.” He sank onto a sofa, wrapping the blanket around him. For an aristocrat, he had the manners of a ruffian.
I tried to stand and search for my clothes, but my head went light and the room swirled. I fell back onto the bed as a servant came in with rags and a bucket. He paid no attention to me as he got down on his knees to attend to my puddle of sick. It wasn’t until then that I felt the throbbing pain at my gut, just one sensation lost amid an ocean of hurt. I was covered, head to toe, in scratches, welts, and bruises. The pain inside had undoubtedly come the same way as the pain outside: at the hands of a brute.
I intended to flee the mansion if I had to crawl on my hands and knees. But I didn’t make it beyond the foot of the bed; I collapsed dead away in a faint of exhaustion.
Months would pass before I’d leave the house.
SIXTEEN
The dawn this time of year has a characteristic hue, the dusty yellow-gray like the rime on the yolk of a boiled egg. Luke could swear it hangs over the land like a miasma or a ghost’s curse but knows it’s probably nothing more than a trick of light playing on the water molecules in the morning air. Whether it is light waves or an ancient curse, it gives the morning a peculiar appearance: the yellow sky a low ceiling of clouds in ominous shades against which nearly bare trees stand in grays and browns.
After seeing the police car in the rearview mirror, Luke decided that they can’t continue the trip to the Canadian border in his truck. It’s too recognizable, with its MD plates and bumper sticker from Jolene’s former school proclaiming the driver’s child to be an honor-roll student at Allagash River Elementary. (Since when, Luke had wondered when Tricia insisted they put the sticker on his old truck, were there honor rolls in elementary schools?) So they have spent the past half hour backtracking to St. Andrew, hurtling over single-lane roads to get to the house of someone he believes he can trust. He called on his cell phone first to see about borrowing a car, but mostly he wants to see if the police have been asking around about him.
He stops in front of a large reconditioned farmhouse outside the St. Andrew city limits. The house is a beauty, one of the biggest and best kept, with touches like pussywillow wreaths decorating the wraparound porch and solar lanterns lining the driveway. The house belongs to a new doctor at the hospital, an anesthesiologist named Peter, who moved up from the city so he could raise his children in the country, where he believes there is no crime or drugs. He is a pathologically nice guy, even to Luke, who, prickly and still grieving from all his recent trouble, had withdrawn from everyone in the past few months.
When Luke knocks at the front door, Peter answers it in bathrobe and slippers, a grave look on his face. He seems to have been rousted out of bed by Luke’s phone call, for which Luke is inwardly embarrassed.
Peter puts a hand on Luke’s arm as they stand in the doorway. “Is everything all right?”
“I’m sorry to ask, it’s a strange request, I know,” Luke says, shuffling from foot to foot, head down. He’s practiced this lie in his head for the last ten minutes. “It’s just… my cousin’s daughter has been staying with me for a few days and I promised her mother I’d get her home in time to make the bus for some school trip. Only my truck is acting up and I’m afraid it won’t make it up there and back…” Luke’s tone blends the right amounts of ineptitude and apology for inconveniencing a friend, projecting a sort of bumble-headed, well-intentioned haplessness that only an ogre would refuse.
Peter looks over Luke’s shoulder at the truck parked at the end of the long driveway, where-Luke knows-he will see Lanny standing beside the truck, her suitcase at her feet. She is too far away for Peter to get a good look at her, in case the police come by later with questions. She gives Peter a little wave.
“Didn’t you just get off shift?” Peter peers back at Luke, so closely that he might be inspecting him for fleas. “Aren’t you tired?”
“Yeah, but I’m okay. It was a quiet night. I got a little sleep,” he lies. “I’ll be careful.”
Peter pulls the keys from a pocket and drops them in Luke’s hand. When Luke tries to give him the keys to the truck in return, Peter balks.
“You don’t need to leave your keys with me… You’re not going to be gone long, are you?”
Luke shrugs, trying to appear nonchalant. “Just in case you have to move it or something. You never know.”
The door to the three-bay garage rises slowly and Luke checks the key fob to find that Peter is entrusting him with a new luxury SUV, gleaming steel gray. Heated leather seats and a DVD player for the second row to keep the children appeased on long road trips. He recalls how people at the hospital gave Peter a hard time the first day he drove up in it, as the vehicle was so uncharacteristic for the area, its shiny coat likely to be eaten up by road salt by the end of its third winter.
Luke backs the car out of the garage and waits at the mouth of the driveway for Lanny to scramble into the passenger seat. “Nice car,” she says as she reaches for the seat belt. “You know how to trade up, don’t you?”
She hums to herself as Luke guides the car down the road, once again headed for the Canadian border- crossing station-this time, half hidden behind darkly tinted windows. He feels guilty for what he’s done. He can’t
