“You need one of those pine-fresh deodorizers in here,” she told him. “Doesn't this atrocious smell give you a headache?”
“I kind of like it.”
“That's because it gets you high. So little oxygen getting to your brain. Death by sinus attack.”
Fifteen years old and seething with hip attitude. She hardly ever smiled but there was always a glint of superiority in her gray eyes. He knew she could verbally outmaneuver him with ease. It scared him a touch but also made him admire her.
She'd dressed down today, wearing an oversized black sweater and midnight-blue jeans, no makeup, her dark hair falling straight back over her ears, showing the slightest curl of bangs up front.
He heaved a sigh out like throwing a rock. “Angie, what're you doing?”
“What do you think I'm doing? I need a cab. You're a cab driver. You know simple economics, yes? The law of supply and demand?”
“Shouldn't you be in school?”
“Just drive.”
“I'm on break.”
“You're always on break, Johnny, you sit around here for hours. How do you make a buck?”
“I don't need much,” he admitted.
“That means you're gonna live with your grandmother forever? Don't you know what they say about you, a grown man living with his grandma? Even if she does make the best
It was the kind of conversation he was easily led into and had to consciously avoid. “Don't you have school?” he repeated. “How do you learn things like the law of supply and demand if you don't go to class?”
“It's almost four. Don't you own a watch?”
“Yeah. It's at home in a box with my tie clips and cuff links. Where are you headed?”
“I'll tell you when we get there, soldier boy.”
“I need to call it in to the dispatcher.”
“This one is off the books. Come on, what do you care? I can see how much you fret about following the rules and bringing in as much money to Olympic as you can. Besides, you don't need to worry, it's not like they'll fire you.” Saying it with an edge, like she had something to do with the boss not firing him, by way of her being part of the family. He checked the rearview and she fluttered her eyes at him.
One of those girls that, when she's little, she's cute, bright, and funny, and makes you wish she's your own younger sister. But then, when she hit thirteen or so, you grew acutely aware of her sex appeal. The angle of the jaw, the shape of those legs, and suddenly your whole cerebral cortex got rewired.
You found yourself vying for her time, grinning a lot, then smacking yourself in the forehead going, What the fuck are you thinking?
“Come on,” she said. “It's important and I'm running late. Cut through the plaza, make a left.”
“You don't want to give me the address?”
“I don't know it, but I've been there before.” Taking out a compact and checking herself in it, making kissy faces until she was sure her lipstick was okay.
He'd known her all her life but just started seeing her in that new light two years ago. As her transformation into adulthood continued he knew he had to watch himself, stop sweating so much around her. It wasn't totally his fault. It was chemical. She was becoming what he desired, just as her sister Maria had before her.
The shape of her nose, the pouty lips, and the brash knowledge in her gaze that made him want to ask her, Hey, what are you thinking? Angie had the right curves, and they were getting better every month.
Ignoring him just enough to get him irritated. He supposed that made it worse because he liked to be cut down. His own streak of masochism going pretty deep. The army psychiatrist used to ask him if Mom or Dad used to smack him around as a kid. If his mother would hit him upside the head and then yank him to her bosom. If she used to take bubble baths while he was sitting on the toilet. All kinds of shit, that shrink had a goddamn dirty mind. No matter how many times Dane told him no, the doc would just nod and ask the question again in a different way.
Knowing his flaws didn't help him most of the time. The indifference could lead him to do stupid things.
He wanted to ask Angie about her sister, see how Maria was doing. If she was still going out to the clubs every weekend, if she had anybody serious in her life.
Angelina reached forward and touched the back of his neck, fingering his scars. “These the ones you got when you and my brother went through the windshield?”
“Yeah.”
“Jesus Christ, there's metal!” She knocked twice on the plate. “I didn't know you could actually feel it, with it sticking right out like that. Man, that's freaky! I thought safety glass was supposed to keep people from getting cut this bad.”
“It wasn't so much that as rolling thirty feet down the street.”
It made her smile for a second, seeing the humor of two guys bouncing down the road after doing something as foolish as trying to ram a roadblock. But then the image must've cleared up for her, seeing the blood and their bodies skittering into the gutter, and she looked away.
“How'd it happen?” she asked. “I mean, I know some of it, but I never heard the whole thing.”
“Why would you want to hear about any of that? It happened while you were still in the crib.”
“I'm curious.”
Dane told her almost everything, leaving out the part about the girls in the sand, but without really knowing why. Like she'd think less of him because of that? And did he really care?
Sometimes it seemed like nothing mattered at all, then a minute later it was like everything did. Every moment of your past, every inch of your body.
“You going to tell me where we're going?”
She gave him a few more directions, leading him along Fulton Street through Bedford-Stuyvesant.
“Almost there, make the next left, pull over to the right, middle of the block.”
Playing with his hair, she traced the scars down the back of his neck, probing as far as she could go beneath his collar. It started to excite him, the way she did it, as if she had a perfect right.
“What is this?” he asked her.
“Don't you know?”
“You out of your mind? Quit it. I'm practically an older brother to you-”
“Is that what you tell yourself?” Flicking her nails now, digging in too hard, trying to make him howl. “Why is it you never break the rules, soldier boy?”
It took Dane back some. You could say a lot of shit about him, but he never got the impression that he followed anybody's rules. If he did, he wouldn't be a third-rate hack driver living with his grandma.
He found the place she wanted halfway up the block. A four-story apartment building with a red awning over the door and flower boxes filled with petunias hanging from the bars on the windows of the first floor. The front door, stairs, and railings had all been recently painted. A sign read
She hopped out and said, “I'll be back in a minute.”
“What are you doing?”
“Seeing a friend.”
“You want me to go with you?”
“No. Don't get all overprotective now, big brother. I wouldn't want you to strain yourself trying to climb out of the fuckin' cab. Since you don't have a watch, just count by Mississippis. If I'm not back by the time you get to five thousand, you might consider looking for me.”
“Which friend is it?”
“No one you know.”
“Let me come with you.”
“Hang tight, soldier boy.”
