moment and something too hideous to look at the next?'
'We know,' she said dismally, 'that nothing is how we imagined it. That if something like that can exist, anything is possible. What are the rules now, Church? What's going on?'
Church paused; he had no idea how to answer her question. He drained the remainder of his wine, then played with the glass thoughtfully. 'At least we've got each other,' he said finally.
Ruth looked round suddenly, a faint smile sweeping away the darkness in her face. 'That's right. You and me against the world, kid.'
Church mused for a moment. 'Kraicow must know more. He'd seen something, the same as Gibbons.'
'Then,' Ruth said pointedly, 'we should pay him another visit.'
Unable to sleep, they arrived at Kraicow's house at first light and sat outside in Church's old Nissan Bluebird until a reasonable hour, dozing fitfully. His niece answered the door, her recognition giving way instantly to anger.
'Did you two have something to do with it?' she barked. Church and Ruth were taken aback by her fury, their speechlessness answering the woman's question. 'He's gone,' she snapped.
Church's puzzlement showed on his face; Kraicow had seemed too weak to move. 'Where-'
'I don't know where, that's the problem!' Anxiously, she looked past them into the empty street. 'They came for him in the night. I had the fright of my life when I opened the door.'
'Who was it?' Church asked.
'I don't know! They didn't tell me!' She back-pedalled, suddenly aware they might judge her for not questioning the men further. 'They were coppers,' she said unconvincingly. 'Looked like a bloody funeral party, all dressed in smart suits and ties. I don't know what the old man's done. He never tells me anything.'
Church and Ruth looked at each other uneasily. 'Do you know where they took him?' Ruth said.
The woman shook her head. 'They said they'd let me know. They told me it was in his best interests!' she protested pathetically before slamming the door.
'What was that all about?' Ruth asked once they were comfortably in heavy traffic heading back into town.
'Could be the murder squad. They might have linked Kraicow to Maurice Gibbons.'
'Could be.' Her voice suggested she didn't believe it. 'Seems more like the kind of thing Special Branch would do. Or the security services.'
'What would they want with Kraicow?' The question hung uncomfortably in the air for a moment until Church added, 'Let's not get paranoid about this.'
'If this whole episode isn't a case for paranoia, I don't know what is. We haven't got any more leads now. Where do we go from here?'
They crawled forward through the traffic for another fifteen minutes before Church found an answer. 'There's a lot of weird stuff going on around the country just like this. I mean, not people turning into devils, but things that shouldn't be happening.' Church explained to her at length about the massive upsurge in supposed paranormal events he had read about on the net. 'I don't know …' He shrugged. 'It may be nothing. All the nuts coming out of the woodwork at once. But it seems to me too much of a coincidence.'
Ruth sighed heavily and stared out of the passenger window at the dismal street scene; no one seemed happy, their shoulders bowed beneath an invisible weight as they headed to the tube for another dreary day at work. It depressed her even more. 'I can't get my head round this at all.'
'Let's just pretend it's not happening,' Church snapped, then instantly regretted it; he was tired and sick of nothing in his life making sense.
Ruth glared at him, then looked back out of the window.
'Sorry.'
She ignored his apology frostily; Church could see she was tired herself. 'Gibbons was killed to prevent him telling what he'd seen,' she mused almost to herself. 'But what did he see?'
'I've had some emails from a woman who says she saw something which could throw some light on what's going on,' Church ventured. He considered telling her about Laura's mention of Marianne, but thought better of it; he could barely handle the implications himself.
'You really think all that stuff's linked to what we're dealing with?'
'Who knows?' he said wearily. 'These days, everything's a leap in the dark.'
'So is she going to tell you what she knows?'
'She wants to do it face to face. I was going to see her anyway, you know, just out of curiosity.' He winced inwardly at the lie about his motivations. Ruth didn't deserve it, but how could he tell her he wanted to find out how this woman knew about his dead girlfriend? It sounded a little pathetic, worse, like an obsession.
'Why the hell not. Where is she?'
'Bristol.'
Ruth moaned. 'Oh well, I've got no job to keep me here. Just give me a couple of hours to pack. Looks like we've got us a road trip.'
Although it had been two years since he had last felt the warmth of her skin, Marianne's presence still reverberated throughout the flat. On the wall of the hall hung the grainy black and white photo of the two of them staggering out of the sea at Bournemouth, fully clothed, laughing; Marianne had had it framed to remind them both how carefree life could be if they ever faced any hardship. In the kitchen, in the glass-fronted cabinet, stood her blue-and-white-hooped mug with the chip out of the side. Church couldn't bear to throw it away. He saw it every day when he made his first cup of tea, and his last. The dog-eared copy of Foucault's Pendulum which they had both read and argued about intensely sat on the shelf in the lounge, next to the pristine edition of Walking on Glass which Marianne had given him and which he had promised her he would read and had never got round to. The paperweight of a plastic heart frozen in glass which they had bought together in Portobello. The indelible stain of Marianne's coffee on the carpet next to her seat. A hundred tiny lies ready to deceive him in every corner of his home. Sometimes he even thought he could smell her perfume.
With the TV droning in the background and the holdall still half-packed on the bed, Church suddenly found himself taking stock of it all in a way he had not done since the immediate aftermath of her death. For months the reminders had simply been there, like the drip of a distant tap, but as he trailed around the flat, they seemed acute and painfully lucid once more. Perhaps it was the bizarre, disturbing mention of her name in the email, or what he thought he had seen in the street, but he had to visit each one in turn with an imperative which he found disturbing.
But he was sure he could give it all up, turn back to the future, if he could somehow understand what had driven her to suicide and how he had been so blind to the deep undercurrents that must have been in place months before. He had played over every aspect of their relationship in minute detail until he was sick of it, but the mystery held as strong as ever, trapping him in the misery of notknowing, a limbo where he could not put the past and all its withered, desperate emotions to rest. No wonder he was seeing her ghost; he was surprised it hadn't come sooner, lurching out of his subconscious to drive him completely insane.
In the lounge, the TV news had made an incongruous link from an account of a bizarre multiple slasher murder in Liverpool to details of a religious fervour which seemed to be sweeping the country; the Blessed Virgin Mary had allegedly appeared to three young children on wasteland in Huddersfield; a statue of the Hindu god Ganesh had given forth milk in Wolverhampton, and there were numerous reports of the name of Allah spelled out in the seeds of tomatoes and aubergines when they were cut open in Bradford, Bristol and West London. Church watched the item to the end, then switched off the TV and put on a CD. The jaunty sound of Johnny Mercer singing Ac-cent-tchu-ate the Positive filled the flat as he returned to his packing.
He picked up Laura's email confirming the details of their meeting and then checked the road atlas. Church hoped his car would make the trip to Bristol. It had seen better days and very few long journeys, but he had bought it with Marianne and hadn't been able to give it up.
A haze of chill drizzle had descended on the city just after he had dropped Ruth off and by the time he began to load up the car, it seemed to have settled in for the day. The world appeared different somehow; there was a smell in the air which he didn't recognise and the quality of light seemed weird as if it was filtering through glass. Even the people passing by looked subtly changed, in their expressions or the strange, furtive glances which he occasionally glimpsed. He felt oddly out of sorts and apprehensive about what lay ahead.
When he stepped out of the front gate, a group of children splashing in the gutter across the road stopped
