glance at the sky, white with clouds.
Poe, says Miller. How goes?
I light a cigarette. Is there any coffee?
He shrugs. French press by the sink. But I think it’s gone cold.
That’s fine. I ramble around the kitchen as if I live here, opening and closing cabinets until I find what I want. I pour lukewarm but very black coffee into a tall glass, then add ice and milk and sugar. I take a long drink and feel better right away.
How’s Molly? says Miller.
What do you mean?
He smiles at me over the stock page. How did she fare last night? he says. How did you fare. How do you like her. How does she like you? That kind of thing.
Molly is fine, I say.
Miller squints at me, amused. That’s your answer?
Yeah. Molly is fine.
Do you have another cigarette? he says.
I give him one and we stare at each other.
How is Jude? I say.
Ahh, he says, blowing smoke. Here it comes.
I shake my head. Never mind.
He grins. Molly is sweet, isn’t she?
Yeah, I say. She is. What the hell is wrong with you?
Listen, he says. You ignorant Philistine. There is nothing wrong with me. I am simply trying to expand my horizons, and yours.
By letting me fuck your girlfriend.
Did you? he says.
What?
Did you fuck her?
No, I didn’t.
He laughs. Jude was right. You’re soft around the edges.
Fuck you.
Have you ever been married? he says.
Yeah.
How did you like it?
My wife is dead, I say. I wouldn’t insult her.
Miller leans forward and his robe falls open. He scratches his chest lazily and smiles at me, shaking his head and rolling his eyes as if he feels sorry for me and I remember practicing my crippled smile in the bathroom mirror, my deathly grimace. He picks up his spoon and wipes it down with his tongue, then tosses it into the sink with a clatter. Molly said that he doesn’t love her, that he never loved her and I wonder if he has ever hurt her. I wonder what his head would look like in a box.
Your sense of loyalty is fascinating, man.
Fuck you, Miller. Where is Jude?
She took one of the cars and went into the city.
Why?
He shrugs. To get some equipment.
What kind of equipment?
Lights, cameras. Nothing special.
Be warned, man. If you put her in danger, you will be crawling around on prosthetic limbs.
Miller shrugs and concentrates on his cereal.
What are you doing today? I say.
I thought I’d get started on the storyboards.
Yeah, I say. Regarding the script…I wonder if I could get a look at it.
Miller slurps his milk and grins. Had your chance the other night, he says.
Then what the fuck, right?
Why do you want to see it? he says.
Because I’d like to know what I’m getting into.
Oh, says Miller. You’re in well over your head.
Long humming silence.
Speaking of fuck-ups, I say. Have you given any thought to my case?
The murder charges?
Yeah. Those.
Pretty cut and dried. They have you by the short hairs and all. But I think with a little slick lawyering, I can get you down to manslaughter.
Thanks for that.
Enter Molly, agitated.
I’m late, she says. I’m so fucking late.
Her hair is still wet. She wears a white cotton sundress and the destroyed brown cowboy boots she was wearing when I met her. She touches the back of my head as she passes, a soft cool touch.
The whispering breath of fairies.
A voice in my head says she smells like sunflowers but upon reflection I have no idea what sunflowers smell like. Molly acknowledges Miller with a smile, a cool shrug. Then goes to the refrigerator and takes out a container of strawberry yogurt. She rips it open and uses her finger as a spoon.
Miller sighs, opens a drawer. He removes a bright silver spoon and hands it to her.
What are you late for? he says.
Rehearsal, she says. Fool for Love.
He snorts rudely.
Molly smiles at me. John doesn’t much care for Sam Shepard.
Why not?
He’s a minor playwright, says Miller. And a redneck, besides.
Ignore him, says Molly. She touches my arm. Do you want to come?
I follow Molly to the garage, glad to get away from Miller. The garage is cavernous, cold, and smells of chemicals. I see several red plastic gas cans. Miller strikes me as the sort of cat who’s prepared for the end times, and as I look around I see he’s laid in a six-month supply of water, batteries, first aid gear, canned goods, emergency flares, camping equipment, and more. He’s got all manner of fishing and deep sea gear: wet suits, surfboards, spear guns, oxygen tanks. Mounted on one wall are two small sharks he presumably murdered himself. As for vehicles he’s got jet-skis and a speedboat named Jezebel and several cars. An old white Jaguar XJ6, the silver Mustang, a dusty green Jeep, an ancient but gleaming convertible Mercedes coupe. I wonder what sort of ride Jude is tooling around in. A black Range Rover, probably, with black windows and a cloaking device and hidden gun turrets. Two motorcycles, Ducati Monsters, skeletal street bikes silver and black. They look like birds of prey on two wheels, and now I remember that Jude was riding a black Ducati the day I watched her scalp Shane Finch.
Let’s take the silver one, I say.
Molly tosses me the keys and a black helmet. She grins at me and pulls her own helmet on. This is trust, baby. I haven’t been on a motorcycle in years and anyone who knows me would say that’s a good thing. I tend to fly too close to the sun, when given half the chance. I tend to get distracted. I have smashed up more than my share of vehicles while daydreaming, and lately I have the headaches and blackbird visions to worry about. But my skull feels clean and clear and sometimes you have to say fuck it. The bike purrs to life and Molly climbs on behind me. Her arms slip around my waist like they belong there. I take it easy up the long driveway and I’m about to glance around and ask her which way am I going when she tells me that she’s not really so late and maybe we should just ride a while.
