strong enough to influence her own son alone.
“There’s no need to say anything,” Roaric said. “I know the answers to my mother’s questions already.”
“You could arrange for the men who did the killing to disappear from Kolkyre,” Anyara suggested. “Let them escape to Il Anaron, or into the Vare Wastes. They might not be found for months, once they’re out of the city. Or never.”
Roaric acknowledged the idea with a half-nod, though he did not look very enamoured of it.
“And we can spare some silver, if the Steward wants to insist on it,” said Ilessa. “The Haig Blood has always been easily distracted by glittering things, and Lagair is more bluster than anything. He doesn’t care about the men who died, he’s just fearful that Aewult will blame him for their deaths. He has to show that he did something about it.”
She was leaning heavily on the table now, tired. She lacked the strength for all of this, Anyara thought. Too much had happened too quickly for an ageing body and heart to bear.
“We’ll have nothing left with which to buy food for our own table soon,” Roaric muttered. “But yes. Perhaps. We can throw some more silver at them, if we must. What is all this obeisance, this submission, meant to achieve, though? For us, I mean? Our Blood? There’s no purpose to it, if it doesn’t even buy us peace, or safety within our own borders. Cannoch let Haig raise itself up as highest amongst the Bloods to spare our people unending strife. My father suffered Gryvan’s arrogance for the same reason. But if all we’ve gained is the right to have Haig armies marching back and forth across our lands at will… the honour of paying so that they can plot and scheme in their palaces…”
He thrust himself up out of the chair, full of renewed exasperation and anger. He pointed at Anyara.
“What has the Lannis Blood gained by making obeisance to Gryvan oc Haig? All its lands are gone. That’s how much Haig cares about us, about the unity of the Bloods. That’s Orisian’s inheritance. We’ve got the Black Road bearing down on our borders, and we’re forbidden — forbidden! — to gather our own armies. All the men I brought back from the south, the ones who haven’t already died for Gryvan oc Haig, have scattered: gone back to their postings, or their homes, by Aewult’s command.”
The Thane paced back and forth, his arms swinging. Ilessa was hanging her head. Anyara wondered whether Roaric truly could not see how drained, how much in need of gentleness, his mother was. Perhaps not. She understood a little of how he felt. Blind rage was not a wholly unreasonable response to much of what had happened.
“All right,” Roaric said. He gave every appearance of talking to himself now, of voicing the struggle between his warring instincts. “All right. We’ll find an accommodation with them in this. We’ll show enough obedience to keep the Steward happy. I’ll not have one man punished for those deaths, though. Not one. And I will have my army back. I don’t care what Aewult nan Haig thinks, he can’t tell me, in my own lands, what to do with my own warriors. I’ll send messengers tonight. The Steward won’t be so sure of himself if we’ve five thousand swords gathered within the city walls.”
The Thane stalked out with only the most cursory of glances at his mother.
“You will have to forgive him,” Ilessa said. “This is hard for him.”
She went slowly, hunchbacked, fragile, to the chair that her son had vacated. As she sank down into it, she closed her eyes. Anyara watched her exhaustion and grief take hold of her.
“It is hard for all of us,” Anyara said. “You need rest, I should think.”
“Oh, yes. I do need rest. I need to sleep. But when I do, I dream of grief. I miss my husband very much.”
“Yes,” Anyara murmured. She had no idea what she could, or should, say. Ilessa deserved comfort, she deserved kind words and more. Nobody, Anyara was beginning to think, received what they truly deserved. “I didn’t know him well, but… he was a kind man, I thought. Good.”
“He was good,” Ilessa said. She nodded, her eyes still closed, a weary frown still across her brow. “He often said that there were too few good men left in the world. One less, now. And the world much darker to my eyes.”
Anyara began to back away, edging towards the door. She felt guilty at her inability to offer this woman any succour, though such profound, private sorrow was, in her experience, not often salved by the sympathy of others anyway. Ilessa summoned up a rueful smile from somewhere.
“We’re all to suffer loss this winter, it seems. All to take on our own burdens. You carry yours well, Anyara. Your father, your uncle, would be proud of you, and of your brother. I am sorry to draw you into the sorrows of my family as well. You deserve better, but.. I do need help. My son does.”
“I’ll give you whatever help I can,” Anyara said sincerely. “I don’t know what it is you think I can do, though.”
Ilessa rose to her feet. She had recovered some of her poise.
“Roaric is young. He has been Bloodheir for only a few weeks; Thane for just days. It will take time for him to… he makes everything a personal matter. Always has done. Any blows against our Blood, against our honour or pride, he feels landing on his own back. Every failure or shortcoming that he perceives in himself, he makes into a crisis fit to convulse nations. Your presence alone will help. Anything will, that reminds him there are others — your Blood, not least — with much to lose if he mis-steps.
“His father… Lheanor spent half his life restraining himself, submitting himself and our Blood to slights and petty humiliations. He did it to preserve the peace. It cost him a great deal of his pride, and of his strength. He missed the young, fearless man he had once been. Oh, you should have seen him when he was young. He thought himself reduced by time, but I loved him just the same, and never thought the less of him. He served his people better than they know.”
Ilessa sighed. She regarded the worn surface of the table thoughtfully, brushing it with her fingertips as if it was spread with some fine, soft material.
“Is it true that you saw the Haig men killed?” she asked Anyara quietly.
Anyara nodded. “It was not… pleasant.”
“I am sure. Times like these bring savagery closer to the surface. I think perhaps men like Aewult, like my son, do not fear it, or hate it, quite enough. Perhaps, if they are given the time to do so, people will remember the value of the peace that our forefathers built. Perhaps they will understand the sacrifices that are needed to sustain it.”
II
The pervasive tension of Kolkyre wore Anyara down. Like a ramifying spider’s web, it seemed to have infiltrated every alleyway and courtyard. She tired of it, and when she woke to find a rare morning of vast, cloudless skies and still, clean air, she took Coinach and half a dozen other Lannis men and rode out into the low hills east of the city. She wanted some open ground beneath her, some movement.
The land here was rich and fertile. The gentle dips and slopes of the rolling hills were swathed in grass that even at this time of year had a lushness to it. Her horse stretched its legs, as if it too had tired of the narrow horizons of stables and city streets. She let it run, and the rush of cold air across her face filled her with a fierce exuberance. The speed was almost enough to make her think that she could outpace all the woes of the world, that peace lay only just beyond the next rise.
Her horse pounded across a slope. The thudding of its hoofs in the soft earth was a drumbeat to match her exhilarated heart. A flock of little birds burst up from the grass ahead, and horse and rider chased them, almost as if one more bound might bear them up into the great sky. Anyara heard herself laughing, the sound tumbling away in her wake, spilling back over her shoulders. Freedom and forgetfulness were just there, just ahead: a few more strides, one more surge of effort from the great animal beneath her, and she would be free.
The shouts of her escort drew her back. That sense of weightlessness was gone and she was pressed into her saddle, hauling at the reins to slow her mount. Coinach drew level with her. He was flushed, his cheeks red.
“You must be careful, lady,” he said a little more loudly than Anyara thought was necessary. “There could be holes for the horse to trip in, a hidden ditch.”
