violence, was killing him, in ways that werent obvious to him. But shed been wrong about reaching him: the violence was essential to him, she now believed.
The shooting in the hallway, which Lucas had set up, had all the earmarks of that immutable trait. Hed risked his own life, hed risked hers, and hed absolutely condemned Dick LaChaise to death, all on his own hook, without consulting anyone, without even much thinking about it. Hed justdoneit. When the Lucas Davenport machine was in gear, nobody had a way outand when LaChaise had agreed to walk down the hall with Weather, he was dead no matter what else happened.
Weather could never quite put her finger on exactly how she objected to the killing of Dick LaChaise. Intellectually, she knew that she might easily have been killed by La-Chaise if Lucas hadnt done what hed done. Further, LaChaise was an undoubted killer, who deserved anything he got. She could say to herselfintellectuallyAll right. It worked.
Which had nothing to do with her emotional state.
Something had turned in her, the instant the bullet tore through LaChaises skull. She couldnt talk to Lucas without experiencing the flash of terror when the gun went off, followed by the horror of the death. There, in the hallway, with LaChaise slumping to the floor, with the pistol spinning down the hallway… she was actuallywearingLa-Chaise, the dead and dying remnants of the part of LaChaise that actually made him human…
SHED GOTTEN PAST THE PILLS NOW. SHE WAS STILL talking to her shrink, Andi Manette, and Manette was pushing her to consider and reconsider Lucas.
But Weather wasnt doing that anymore. Shed realized that however deeply she loved him before the shooting, that feeling was dead. And the psychological flashes that carried her back to the killing were no longer tolerable. Lucas brought them on. The sight of his face, the sound of his voice.
Shed learned that she could live without him. She was going to do that. And she was beginning to suspect that sooner or later, shed even start enjoying herself again. If she could keep him away…
She hadnt yet told this to Manette, much less to Lucas. She dreaded the idea: but the time was coming. Time to get on with her life.
WEATHER WENT TO BED EARLY, AS MOST SURGEONS did: she was on staff at three separate hospitals now, and the workload was increasing. She was operating five or six times a week, starting at seven in the morning. Shed be in bed by ten-thirty, up by six in the morning, walking into the womens locker room by six forty-five.
Went to bed every night feeling cool and lonely. But sleeping again.
She was in the very pit of the night when her subconscious picked up the sound of a car rolling to a stop outside the house, a subtle change from those few cars that simply tolled on by. In her dreams she thought, Lucas? though when awake shed never remember the thought. But she was there, just rising to the cusp of consciousness, when the front window blew out.
SKEEEEEEEEEEEE.
The explosion shook her out of bed: she was up in an instant, not quite awake, but on her feet and moving; and as she moved, the smoke alarm in the living room went SKEEEEEEE.
She lurched into the hallway toward the living room; she was first aware of the light, then the heat, then the realization that she was staring into a fireball.
No! No!
And all the time: SKEEEEEEEEEE.
Weather moaned, registered her own moan as though she were standing out-of-body, then ran back down the hall to the bedroom, snatched up the bedside telephone and punched in 911. She got an immediate answer, and said, My house just blew up. Its burning, Im at
… And she dictated the address and said, Ive got to get out.
Get outside immediately, the cool voice said. Just drop the phone and
And the kitchen smoke alarm triggered, a slightly lower, less energetic note than the first, but just as loud: SKAAAAAAAAAAA.
Shed dropped the phone, almost stumbled over a pair of loafers on the dark floor, slipped them on, hit a light switch, was rewarded with lights. She padded back down the hall. The fireball seemed to have receded, or to have pulled back within itself: the flames were confined to the front room, to an area not much longer than her couch. There wasnt yet much smoke, although the fire was roaring ferociously.
Weather moved in three quick steps to the kitchen, pulleda fat semiprofessional fire extinguisher from under the sink, pulled the pin as she walked back to the living room, aimed the nozzle at the flames, and squeezed the trigger. Whatever kinds of chemical were in the extinguisher blew out in a fog, and the fire seemed to cave in, but just for a second, and then it was back: no matter how much of the chemical estinguisher she poured on, the fire would only retreat and spring up on another perimeter.
SKEEEEEEE, SKAAAAAAAA…
She stepped closer, working the chemical, felt it slackening in force. To her right, she felt the photo of her parents and grandparents staring down from the walls, black-andwhite and hand-tinted photos shed grown up with, memories shed imported from her former home in the North Woods. With the extinguisher chemical almost gone, she tossed the container behind her, turned to the wall, and started pulling down the photos. Behind her, the fire burned with new authority, and she could feel the heat on her back and legs. She ran with the photos to the kitchen, fought her way back into the living room, tore open the low buffet, and took out a half-dozen photo albums and a box of photos shed always meant to put in more albums.
And that was all she could do. The fire was growing quickly now, and she ran through the kitchen, well out onto the back lawn, dropped the albums, ran back insidethe smoke was heavy now, and she coughed, staggeredfound the framed photos, and carried them through the smoke out back.
SKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, AAAAAAAAA.
She could hear sirens: the nearest fire station was no more than three quarters of a mile away. She started back inside one last time, unaware that she was panting, that her hair was frizzing and uncurling with the heat, that shed taken spark burns on her hands and arms, that shed walked on broken glass and cut her feet. She felt it all as discomfort, but she wanted to save the last things, some dishes her mother gave her…
She couldnt reach them. The rug in the living room hadignited, and thick gray smoke was rolling through the house. She staggered back through the door just as the first of the fire engines arrived. She ran around the house as the firemen hopped off the truck, and yelled, The front room…
Weather sat on the curb and watched the fireman knock down the front door.
And after a minute, she began to cry.
TEN O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING WAS AN EARLY HOUR for a man to be recalcitrant, Lucas thought, especially if he wasnt a cop, but Stephen Jones was recalcitrant.
Of course Id like to help, but I have the damnedest feeling that if I talk to you, its going to find its way into a
