'They lived,' he said, the tension in his face easing a little. 'I had left then, of course. Tom was only nine when I died, and Sarah was seven. She was towheaded, like her mother.' Bill smiled a little, a smile that I'd never seen on his face before. He looked quite human. It was like seeing a different being sitting here in my kitchen, not the same person I'd made love with so thoroughly not an hour earlier. I pulled a Kleenex out of the box on the baker's rack and dabbed at my face. Bill was crying, too, and I handed him one. He looked at it in surprise, as if he'd expected to see something different—maybe a monogrammed cotton handkerchief. He patted his own cheeks. The Kleenex turned pink.
'I hadn't ever looked to see what became of them,' he said wonderingly. 'I cut myself off so thoroughly. I never came back, of course, while there was any chance any one of them would be alive. That would be too cruel.' He read down the page.
'My descendant Jessie Compton, from whom I received my house, was the last of my direct line,' Bill told me. 'My mother's line, too, has thinned down, until the remaining Loudermilks are only distantly related to me. But Jessie did descend from my son Tom, and apparently, my daughter Sarah married in 1881. She had a baby in— Sarah had a baby! She had four babies! But one of them was born dead.'
I could not even look at Bill. Instead, I looked at the window. It had begun raining. My grandmother had loved her tin roof, so when it had had to be replaced, we'd gotten tin again, and the drumming of the rain was normally the most relaxing sound I knew. But not tonight.
'Look, Sookie,' Bill said, pointing. 'Look! My Sarah's daughter, named Caroline for her grandmother, married a cousin of hers, Matthew Phillips Holliday. And her second child was Caroline Holliday.' His face was glowing.
'So old Mrs. Bellefleur is your great-granddaughter.'
'Yes,' he said unbelievingly.
'So Andy,' I continued, before I could think twice about it, 'is your, ah, great-great-great-grandson. And Portia …'
'Yes,' he said, less happily.
I had no idea what to say, so for once, I said nothing. After a minute, I got the feeling it might be better if I made myself scarce, so I tried to slip by him to get out of the small kitchen.
'What do they need?' he asked me, seizing my wrist.
Okay. 'They need money,' I said instantly. 'You can't help them with their personality problems, but they are cash-poor in the worst possible way. Old Mrs. Bellefleur won't give up that house, and it's eating every dime.'
'Is she proud?'
'I think you could tell from her phone message. If I hadn't known her middle name was Holliday, I would have thought it was 'Proud.'' I eyed Bill. 'I guess she comes by it natural.'
Somehow, now that Bill knew he could do something for his descendants, he seemed to feel much better. I knew he would be reminiscing for a few days, and I would not grudge him that. But if he decided to take up Portia and Andy as permanent causes, that might be a problem.
'You didn't like the name Bellefleur before this,' I said, surprising myself. 'Why?'
'When I spoke to your grandmother's club, you remember, the Descendants of the Glorious Dead?'
'Yes, sure.'
'And I told the story, the story of the wounded soldier out in the field, the one who kept calling for help? And how my friend Tolliver Humphries tried to rescue him?'
I nodded.
'Tolliver died in the attempt,' Bill said bleakly. 'And the wounded soldier resumed calling for help after his death. We managed to retrieve him during the night. His name was Jebediah Bellefleur. He was seventeen years old.'
'Oh my gosh. So that was all you knew of the Bellefleurs until today.'
Bill nodded.
I tried to think of something of significance to say. Something about cosmic plans. Something about throwing your bread upon the waters. What goes around, comes around?
I tried to leave again. But Bill caught my arm, pulled me to him. 'Thank you, Sookie.'
That was the last thing I had expected him to say. 'Why?'
'You made me do the right thing with no idea of the eventual reward.'
'Bill, I can't make you do anything.'
'You made me think like a human, like I was still alive.'
'The good you do is in you, not in me.'
'I am a vampire, Sookie. I have been a vampire far longer than I was human. I have upset you many times. To tell the truth, sometimes I can't understand why you do what you do sometimes, because it's been so long since I was a person. It's not always comfortable to remember what it was like to be a man. Sometimes I don't want to be reminded.'
These were deep waters for me. 'I don't know if I'm right or wrong, but I don't know how to be different,' I said. 'I'd be miserable if it wasn't for you.'
'If anything happens to me,' Bill said, 'you should go to Eric.'
'You've said that before,' I told him. 'If anything happens to you, I don't have to go to anyone. I'm my own person. I get to make up my mind what I want to do. You've got to make sure nothing happens to you.'
'We'll be having more trouble from the Fellowship in the years to come,' Bill said. 'Actions will have to be taken that may be repugnant to you as a human. And there are the dangers attached to your job.' He didn't mean waiting tables.
'We'll cross that bridge when we get to it.' Sitting on Bill's lap was a real treat, especially since he was still naked. My life had not exactly been full of treats until I met Bill. Now every day held a treat, or two.
In the low-lit kitchen, with the coffee smelling as beautiful (in its own way) as the chocolate cake did, and the rain drumming on the roof, I was having a beautiful moment with my vampire, what you might call a warm human moment.
But maybe I shouldn't call it that, I reflected, rubbing my cheek against Bill's. This evening, Bill had looked quite human. And I—well, I had noticed while we made love on our clean sheets, that in the darkness Bill's skin had been glowing in its beautiful otherworldly way. And mine had, too.
