The sister looked in a register. 'That name isn't here.'
She paused. 'But we do have an unidentified patient. Male, white, medium build, middle-aged, with gunshot wounds to the head.'
Jacko said: 'That's him.'
Doreen said: 'Oh, my God!'
The sister picked up the phone. 'You'd better see him, to find out whether he is your husband.' She dialed a single number and waited for a moment. 'Oh, Doctor, this is Sister Rowe in Casualty. I have a woman here who may be the wife of the gunshot patient. Yes. I will… we'll meet you there.' She hung up and said: 'Please follow me.'
Doreen fought back despair as they trod the linoleum corridor floors through the hospital. She had dreaded this ever since the day, fifteen or more years ago, when she had discovered she had married a villain. She had always suspected it; Willie had told her he was in business, and she asked no more questions because in the days when they were courting a girl who wanted a husband learned not to come on strong. But it was never easy to keep secrets in marriage. There had been a knock at the door, when little Billy was still in nappies, and Willie had looked out the front window and seen a copper. Before answering the door he said to Doreen: 'Last night, there was a poker game here: me, and Scotch Harry, and Tom Webster, and old Gordon. It started at ten, and went on till four in the morning.' Doreen, who had been up half the night in an empty house, trying to get Billy to sleep, had nodded dumbly; and when the Old Bill asked her, she said what Willie had told her to say. Since then she had worried.
When it's only a suspicion, you can tell yourself not to worry; but when you know your husband is out there somewhere breaking into a factory or a shop or even a bank, you can't help wondering if he'll ever come home.
She was not sure why she was so full of rage and fear. She did not love Willie, not in any familiar sense of the word. He was a pretty lousy husband: always out at night, bad with money, and a poor lover. The marriage had varied from tolerable to miserable. Doreen had two miscarriages, then Billy; after that they stopped trying. They stuck together because of Billy, and she did not suppose they were the only couple to do that. Not that Willie shouldered much of the burden of bringing up a handicapped child, but it seemed to make him just guilty enough to stay married. The boy loved his father.
No, Willie, I don't love you, she thought. But I want you and I need you; I like to have you there in bed, and sitting next to me watching television, and doing your pools at the table; and if that was called love, I'd say I love you.
They had stopped walking, and the sister was speaking. 'I'll call you in when Doctor's ready,' she said. She disappeared into a ward, closing the door behind her.
Doreen stared hard at the blank, cream-painted wall, trying not to wonder what was behind it. She had done this once before, after the Componiparts payroll job. But then it had been different: they had come to the house saying, 'Willie's up the hospital, but he's all right-just stunned.' He had put too much gelignite on the safe door, and had lost all hearing in one ear. She had gone to the hospital-a different one-and waited; but she had known he was okay.
After that job she had tried, for the first and only time, to make him go straight. He had seemed willing, until he got out of the hospital and was faced with the prospect of actually doing something about it. He sat around the house for a few days; then when he ran out of money he did another job. Later he let it slip that Tony Cox had taken him on the firm. He was proud, and Doreen was furious.
She hated Tony Cox ever afterward. Tony knew it, too. He had been at their home, once, eating a plate of chips and talking to Willie about boxing, when suddenly he looked up at Doreen and said: 'What you got against me, girl?'
Willie looked worried and said: 'Go easy, Tone.'
Doreen tossed her head and said: 'You're a villain.'
Tony laughed at that, showing a mouthful of half-chewed chips. Then he said: 'So's your husband-didn't you know?' After that they went back to talking about boxing.
Doreen never had quick answers for clever people like Tony, so she said no more. Her opinion made no difference to anything, anyway. It would never occur to Willie that the fact that she disliked someone was a reason for not bringing him to the house. It was Willie's house, even if Doreen had to pay the rent out of her income from the mail-order catalog every other week.
It was a Tony Cox job that Willie had been on today. Doreen had got that from Jacko's wife-Willie wouldn't tell her. If Willie dies, she thought, I swear to God I'll swing for that Tony Cox. Oh, God let him be all rightThe door opened and the sister put her head out. 'Would you like to come in, please?'
Doreen went first. A short, dark-skinned doctor with thick black hair stood near the door. She ignored him and went straight to the bedside.
At first she was confused. The figure on the high, metal-framed bed was covered to the neck in a sheet, and from the chin to the top of the head in bandages. She had been expecting to see a face, and know instantly whether it was Willie. For a moment she did not know what to do. Then she knelt down and gently pulled back the sheet.
The doctor said: 'Mrs. Johnson, is this your husband?'
She said: 'Oh, God, Willie, what have they done?' Her head fell slowly forward until her brow rested on her husband's bare shoulder.
Distantly, she heard Jacko say: 'That's him. William Johnson.' He went on to give Willie's age and address. Doreen became aware that Billy was standing close to her. After a few moments the boy put his hand on her shoulder. His presence forced her to deny grief, or at least postpone it. She composed her features and stood up.
The doctor looked grave. 'Your husband will live,' he said.
She put her arm around her son. 'What have they done to him?'
'Shotgun pellets. Close range.'
She was gripping Billy's shoulder very hard. She was not going to cry. 'But he'll be all right?'
'I said he'll live, Mrs. Johnson. But we may not be able to save his eyesight.'
'What?'
'He's going to be blind.'
Doreen shut her eyes tight and screamed: 'No!'
They were all around her, very quickly; they had been expecting hysterics. She fought them off. She saw Jacko's face in front of her, and she shouted: 'Tony Cox done this, you bastard!' She hit Jacko. 'You bastard!'
She heard Billy sob, and she calmed down immediately. She turned to the boy and pulled him to her, hugging him. He was several inches taller than she. 'There, there, Billy,' she murmured. 'Your dad's alive, be glad of that.'
The doctor said: 'You should go home, now. We have a phone number where we can reach you…'
'I'll take her,' Jacko said. 'It's my phone, but I live close.'
Doreen detached herself from Billy and went to the door. The sister opened it. Two policemen stood outside.
Jacko said: 'What's this, then?' He sounded outraged.
The doctor said: 'We are obliged to inform the police in cases like this.'
Doreen saw that one of the police was a woman. She was seized with the urge to blurt out the fact that Willie had been shot on a Tony Cox job: that would screw Tony. But she had acquired the habit of deceiving the police during fifteen years of marriage to a thief. And she knew, as soon as the thought crossed her mind, that Willie would never forgive her for squealing.
She could not tell the police. But, suddenly, she knew who she could tell.
She said: 'I want to make a phone call.'
ONE P.M.
