If he did come here, why didn’t the brothers say so? Why should they be lying? They had no vested interests. They did not know the man in the least. And why was one hubcap missing from his car? Had it fallen off? Was it stolen outside the coach station? Was it stolen here?
If he was the man in the lake with a broken skull, how did he end up there? Where did the device tied to him come from? Was it relevant that he sold tractors and machinery from the Eastern bloc? Was there a connection?
Erlendur’s mobile rang in his pocket.
“Yes,” he answered curtly.
“You leave me alone,” said a voice he knew well. He knew the voice particularly well when it was in this state.
“I intend to,” he said.
“You do that, then,” the voice said. “You leave me alone from here on. Just stop interfering in my life for —”
He rang off. It was more difficult to switch off the voice. It echoed in his head: stoned, angry and repulsive. He knew that she must be in a den somewhere with someone whose name might be Eddi and was twice her age. He tried not to think about the life she led in too much detail. He had repeatedly done everything in his power to help her. He did not know what else to try. He was completely at a loss about his junkie daughter. Once he would have tried to locate her. Run off and found her. Once he would have persuaded himself that when she said “leave me alone” she actually meant “come and help me’. Not any more. He did not want to any more. He wanted to tell her: “It’s over. You can take care of yourself.”
She had moved in with him that Christmas. By then, after a short break when she’d had a miscarriage and been confined to hospital, she had begun taking drugs again. In the New Year he could sense her restlessness and she would disappear for varying lengths of time. He went after her and took her back home, but the next morning she would be gone. It went on like that until he stopped chasing her, stopped pretending that it made any difference what he did. It was her life. If she chose to live it in that way, that was up to her. He was incapable of doing more. He had not heard of her for more than two months when she hit Sigurdur Oli on the shoulder with the hammer.
He stood out in the yard looking over the ruins of a life that once had been. He thought about the man who owned the Falcon. About the woman who was still waiting for him. He thought about his own daughter and son. He looked into the evening sun and thought about his dead brother. What had he been thinking about in the blizzard?
How cold it was?
How nice it would be to get back home into the warm?
The next morning, Erlendur went back to the woman waiting for the man who drove the Falcon. It was a Saturday and she was not working. He rang in advance and she had coffee ready for him, even though he had specifically asked her not to go to any trouble for him. They sat down in her living room as before. Her name was Asta.
“Of course, you always work weekends,” she said, adding that she worked in the kitchen at the City Hospital in Fossvogur.
“Yes, things are often busy,” he said, taking care not to answer her in too much detail. He could have taken this weekend off. But the Falcon case had piqued his curiosity and he felt a strange, pressing need to get to the bottom of it. He did not know why. Perhaps for the sake of the woman sitting opposite him who had done menial work all her life, who still lived alone and whose weary expression reflected how life had passed her by. It was just as if she thought that the man she had once loved would come back to her, as he had before, kiss her, tell her about his day at work and ask how she had been doing.
“The last time we came you said you didn’t believe that another woman was involved,” he said cautiously.
On the way to see her, he had had second thoughts. He did not want to ruin her memories. He did not want to destroy anything she clung to. He had seen that happen so often before. When they arrived at the home of a criminal whose wife just stared at them, unable to believe her own eyes and ears. The children behind her. Her fortress crumbling all around her. My husband! Selling drugs? You must be mad!
“Why are you asking about that?” the woman said, sitting in her chair. “Do you know more than I do? Have you found out something? Have you uncovered something new?”
“No, nothing,” Erlendur said, flinching inwardly when he sensed the eagerness in her voice. He described his visit to Haraldur and how he had located the Falcon, still in good shape and stored away in a garage in Kopavogur. He also told her that he had visited an abandoned farm near Mosfellsbaer. Her partner’s disappearance, however, remained as much a mystery as ever.
“You said you had no photographs of him, or of you together,” he said.
“No, that’s right,” Asta said. “We’d known each other for such a short time.”
“So no photograph ever appeared in the papers or on television when he was declared missing?”
“No, but they gave a detailed description. They were going to use the photo from his driving licence. They said they always kept copies of licences, but then they couldn’t find it. Like he hadn’t handed it in, or they’d mislaid it.”
“Did you ever see his driving licence?”
“Driving licence? No, not that I remember. Why were you asking about another woman?”
The question was delivered in a harder tone, more insistent. Erlendur hesitated before he opened the door on what, to her mind, would surely be hell itself. Maybe he had proceeded too quickly. Certain points needed closer scrutiny. Maybe he should wait.
“There are instances of men who leave their women without saying goodbye and start a new life,” he said.
“A new life?” she said, as if the concept was beyond her comprehension.
“Yes,” he said. “Even here in Iceland. People think that everyone knows everyone else, but that’s a long way from the truth. There are plenty of towns and villages that few people ever visit, except perhaps at the height of summer, maybe not even then. In the old days they were even more isolated than today — some were even half cut-off. Transportation was much worse then.”
“I don’t follow,” she said. “What are you getting at?”
“I just wanted to know if you’d ever contemplated that possibility.”
“What possibility?”
“That he got on a coach and went home,” Erlendur said.
He watched her trying to fathom the unfathomable.
“What are you talking about?” she groaned. “Home? Home where? What do you mean?”
He could see that he had overstepped the mark. That despite all the years that had gone by since the man disappeared from her life, an unhealed wound still remained, fresh and open. He wished he had not gone so far. He should not have approached her at such an early stage. Without having anything more tangible than his own fantasies and an empty car outside the coach station.
“It’s just one of the hypotheses,” he said in an effort to cushion the impact of his words. “Of course, Iceland’s too small for anything like that,” he hurried to say. “It’s just an idea, with no real foundation.”
Erlendur had spent a long time wondering what could possibly have happened if the man had not committed suicide. When the notion of another woman began to take root in his mind he started losing sleep. At first the hypothesis could not have been simpler: on his travels around Iceland the salesman had met all sorts of people from different walks of life: farmers, hotel staff, residents of towns and fishing villages, women. Conceivably he had found a girlfriend on one of his trips and in time came to prefer her to the one in Reykjavik, but lacked the courage to tell her so.
The more Erlendur thought about the matter, the more he tended to believe that, if another woman was involved, the man must have had a stronger motive to make himself disappear; he had started to think about a word that entered his mind outside the abandoned farm in Mosfellsbaer that had reminded him of his own house in east Iceland.
Home.
