CHAPTER THREE
I woke up the next morning. I tried to lift my head. Bad idea. I winced, held my breath, regrouped, tried to push myself up to a sitting position. Another bad idea.
Good Almighty God in Heaven, I thought. I’ve really done it this time.
I tried to stand. I failed. There are certain muscles that get a real workout when you crouch down into the ready position, when you move your body from side to side. I know this because I used those muscles every day when I was playing ball. The hip flexors. The quadriceps. Now those same muscles were letting me know how unhappy they were. Twenty-four years of not using them and then last night.
I grabbed on to a chair and pulled myself up. Oh, and the back muscles, tight as piano wire. The hamstrings. The groin muscles. I am such an idiot. If I ever get my strength back I’m going to strangle Vinnie.
A shower. Hot water on my body. I pointed myself at the bathroom. Nice and easy, no sudden movements. Take a step. God that hurts. Another step. God that hurts. I made my way across the cabin, the wood floor cold and unforgiving under my feet. Through the window I could see that it was snowing softly.
I got to the shower somehow, turned it on and waited for it to get hot. I looked at myself in the mirror. Forty-eight years old is not supposed to feel like this. This is ridiculous.
I let out a scream as I stepped into the shower. There was a little rim on the bottom of the shower I had to step over, which meant actually lifting my leg into the air. I let the water pound on me for a good thirty minutes. When I was done I felt a little better. I cleared that rim like it was nothing.
I put some clothes on. Once I got the pants on, life got easier. I shaved, made some breakfast, sat at the table and looked out the window while I finished my coffee. It looked like about four inches of new snow. Around here, that qualifies as scattered flurries.
I went out and got the truck going, ran the snowplow down my road. I headed west first, deeper into the forest. I lived in the first cabin, the one I helped my father build in the summer of 1968. The second cabin was a little bigger. He built that one himself the next year. It was empty now. The man from downstate had called to cancel at the last minute.
The third cabin was a little bigger, and so on until the sixth and last cabin at the end of the road, each one marking another summer of my father’s life. At this time of year, the renters were all snowmobilers. You could hear them during the day, roaring up and down the trails on the state land. I have this thing about snowmobiles. The noise, that oily blue smoke. And the people who drive them, wrapped up in those snowmobile suits, looking like the Michelin man, most of them full of beer and schnapps. If the wind is right you can even hear them out there in the middle of the night, riding those stupid machines. That’s when the accidents happen. Every week, you’ll read about somebody driving into a tree or falling through the ice. The one I remember most was the man who went off the trail onto a farm, ran right under an old wire horse fence. Imagine the poor guy riding behind him who had to pick up that helmet with the head still in it.
“You really hate snowmobiles, don’t you?” Jackie once asked me.
“Yes, Jackie. I admit it. I hate snowmobiles.”
“Did you know that every motel in town is booked up two years in advance during the wintertime? It’s not the summer people who keep this place going, Alex. And it’s not the hunters anymore. It’s the snowmobilers. Who do you rent out your cabins to this time of year?”
“Birdwatchers,” I said. “Cross-country skiers. Guys with snowshoes.”
“The hell you do,” he said. “Where would you be without snowmobilers? What would you do between December and March?”
“I’d go to Florida,” I said.
“Yeah, I can see that. Alex McKnight sitting on a beach. Drinking a margarita.”
“Why not?”
“You’ve been up here too long,” he said. “It’s in your blood.” I remember Jackie leaning over the bar, grabbing me by the collar. “You’re a ‘yooper,’ Alex. You’re one of us now.”
The snow was as dry and light as talcum powder. I plowed it off the road without even feeling it or hearing it. Then I turned around and went east back toward the main road. I passed my cabin and plowed right past Vinnie’ place. His car wasn’t there. Probably spent the night at the reservation. Normally I plow his driveway on my way through, but today I felt like leaving him snowed in. Let him shovel for once.
I rumbled by, then I stopped. I backed up and did his driveway.
I went into town, picked up my mail. I stood next to my truck and filled it with gas, feeling the cold morning wind off Whitefish Bay. It was frozen as far as you could see, but somewhere out there, maybe two miles, the water was still open. That’s the water that fed the snow gods. I could remember one night a couple years before, we got over four feet of snow in twelve hours. That’s the kind of night where you play a kind of musical chairs- wherever you are when the snow hits-bar, restaurant, house-that’s where you’re going to stay for the next couple of days.
A big truck rolled into the gas station, pulling a trailer. On the back there were two snowmobiles, looked like they cost at least seven thousand dollars each. The driver got out of the truck. He had a new snowmobile suit on, another thousand dollars right there. He looked at me standing there in my jeans and hunting boots, my down coat that had seen twelve hard winters, standing next to a beat-up truck that was even older than my coat, with a sheet of plastic where the passenger side window should have been.
“Howdy,” he said.
“Howdy,” I said.
“Nice little town you got here.”
“Glad you like it.”
“We’ve been driving for seven hours,” the man said. “This place is hard to get to.”
“Not hard enough,” I said.
He smiled and nodded. I guess he wasn’t really listening. “Well, have a good one,” he said.
With those good wishes and a tank full of gasoline, I was all set for the day. I stopped in at the Glasgow Inn to have some lunch and to bother the owner. Jackie had the whole place done up like a Scottish pub, with the fireplace and the tables and the big overstuffed chairs. Jackie was born in Glasgow. He didn’t have the accent anymore, but he certainly looked like one of those old weather-beaten golf caddies. The place was almost empty at this time of day, just a few locals sitting with their newspapers. Jackie was sitting with his feet up by the fireplace.
“Where were ya last night?” he said.
“What, I’ve got to call in when I’m not going to be here now?”
“Forgive me for asking,” he said. “I was just wondering where you were.”
“If you must know, I was playing hockey.”
“Sure you were,” he said. “Right after the aliens abducted you and took you for a ride on their spaceship.”
“Vinnie’s got a team,” I said. “A thirty-and-over league.” I bent down very slowly and carefully. Finally, I made it into a chair. “I’m a little sore today.”
“Alex, when they say thirty and over, that usually means over thirty and under fifty.”
“I’m forty-eight, smartass. Now get up there and bring me a beer. And make me a sandwich while you’re at it.”
“Such manners,” he said. He went behind the bar and opened up the cooler. I put my feet up on his little hassock and closed my eyes. The heat felt good. I could have gone to sleep right there.
“Here,” he said. He put a plate down on the table next to me, along with a bottle.
“Jackie,” I said. “What is this?”
“It’s a sandwich, genius. Ham and provolone.” He went back to the bar, which was a good thing because I wasn’t going to give him his footstool back.
“No, the bottle,” I said, across the room. A man in the corner looked up from his newspaper, smiled and shook his head, looked down again.
