that it is Charles and Miss Moore?'

'Charles?' she said, her eyes blank. 'And Miss Moore?'

He nodded. 'Is there any chance for me, my dear?' he asked.

She swallowed quite visibly. 'I am two and thirty,' she said.

'Are you?' he said. 'I am relieved to say that I can still say the same. In two weeks' time I will have to add one number to the total.'

'It may be too late for me to give you heirs,' she said, her cheeks reddening to a deeper color than could be attributed to the cold.

'If I had to choose between a girl who would give me ten children and you with none, there would be no choice at all,' he said. 'It is you I love, my dear.

Besides, I see no reason for its being too late. And I believe that motherhood is an experience you really should have if you possibly can. You are wonderful with children.'

'Everyone will laugh,' she said, 'at a woman of my age marrying and talking of having children.'

'I believe everyone in your family will laugh with great delight,' he said. 'At least, I hope they will be delighted at your choice of me. I hope they will think me worthy. And we can keep secret our plan to have children, if you so choose.'

'Aunt Hope. Aunt Hope.' They were both suddenly distracted by the row of children standing at the bottom of the distant hill, all chanting in unison.

Lady Hope beamed at them and waved her hand vigorously. 'Coming, children,' she called.

But Sir Godfrey caught at her hands again before she could move. 'Is the answer yes?' he asked. 'Or is there at least a chance that if I wait longer…?'

Her hands suddenly squeezed his with quite unladylike force. 'I am so glad we are going sledding,' she said. 'I would not know else how to contain my emotions, sir. Of course, I will marry you if you are quite, quite sure that you really wish to marry me. I have always envied the young lady who would eventually capture your heart. And you need not fear that I will still harbor a love for Bevin. I did love him dearly, and of course I shall always treasure his memory. But a dead love cannot sustain one through life, sir. It has been a full year or perhaps more since my heart has felt empty again. And I have been afraid to put you there in his place, for really I never did dream that you would ever wish to be there.'

'For the rest of my life, if you please, Hope, my dear,' he said, 'as you will surely be in mine.' He brushed the backs of his fingers lightly across her cheek and smiled down at her.

'Aunt Hope. Aunt Hope. Aunt Hope.' The chanting became unrelenting.

'Coming!' she called back, beaming ahead of her and reaching for Sir Godfrey's arm. 'They will not be content for us to merely push them from the top, you know. We will have to ride. And we must fall off at least once, preferably in the part where the snow is thickest. They will be most disappointed if we fail to do so.'

Sir Godfrey smiled fondly down at her beaming face. 'What a very kind lady I am going to have as a wife,' he said. And then into her ear as they drew closer to the children, who were dragging the sleds uphill, having seen that she was coming at last, 'I love you.'

'Oh,' she said, looking up at him with sparkling, excited eyes before gathering her fur-lined cape in her hands and hastening up the hill in the wake of the children.

Jessica had hoped that she would not have to venture downstairs at all during the morning. Her grandfather was tired after all the traveling he had done before Christmas and after the excitement of the day before. She had persuaded him to keep to his rooms until luncheon. What was more natural in the world than for her to stay with him?

For the rest of the day she hoped to be able to stay very near him or the dowager duchess or Lady Hope or anyone safe. She must not, whatever she did, put herself in the position where Lord Rutherford could have a private word with her. She found it difficult to believe that he really did intend renewing his offer for her. Yet her grandfather said it was true. But she was not going to give the earl a chance to do any such thing, she had decided.

Yet even before luncheon it was impossible for Jessica to put her resolve into effect. Her grandfather wished to know if a certain book was kept in the duke's library. Nothing else would do. Jessica suggested the titles of several books she had in her room, but quite in vain. She must go downstairs and see if that one volume was there.

How could she say no? she thought in some despair as she crept stealthily down the staircase, first past the floor on which most of the living apartments were situated and on down to the hall and the library. Even though she was convinced that Grandpapa would be asleep again before she returned to his room, she could not have denied his request.

She drew a sigh of relief as a footman opened the door into the library for her and she discovered that it was empty. And although the door to the morning room had been open and a hum of voices coming from inside, she did not believe that she had been spotted. If she could just find the book quickly and be as fortunate on her way back upstairs!

Jessica knew, even as she descended the library ladder, the book she wanted clasped in her hand, that she was not to be that fortunate. Her back was to the door when it opened. The person entering could have been any one of a dozen or more people. But she knew without turning just who it was. And she knew by the way the door closed quietly but firmly behind him that he had seen her come in and had come deliberately to talk to her. She drew a deep breath and returned both feet to the floor.

'Good morning, Jess,' the Earl of Rutherford said.

'Good morning, my lord,' she said, turning and smiling brightly-too brightly, she thought immediately with some annoyance. She held up the book. 'I am on an errand for Grandpapa.' She moved purposefully toward him and the door.

'Let him wait for it a while,' he said, smiling at her and taking the book from her suddenly nerveless fingers when she was close enough. 'May I talk to you, Jess?'

'Grandpapa is waiting,' she said. 'He has nothing else with which to occupy his time.'

'Stay and talk with me, Jess,' he said.

If he just would not smile! she thought. A smile did wonders for his face. It did not make it exactly more handsome, but it made him look kindly and far more human. She preferred his arrogant look. It was easier to withstand. She said nothing.

'I made a mess of things rather the last time I talked to you about marriage,' he said. 'I am hoping I can do somewhat better this time.'

'Oh, no!' Jessica put both hands up defensively before her. 'Please say no more, my lord. I told you on that occasion that I have no wish to marry you. Nothing has changed since then.'

'But why not?' he asked. 'What is the problem, Jess?'

She was shaking her head. 'We would not suit,' she said. 'You are not the sort of man with whom I would feel comfortable. I… I cannot accept, my lord.'

He frowned. 'What have I done that is so dreadful in your sight?' he asked. 'From the first I have shown a preference for you. I have never forced you into anything against your will. I offered you marriage even before I knew who you were, so you cannot accuse me of snobbery. I know you are not averse to my person.'

'That is unimportant,' she said. 'There are many qualities one looks for in a husband beyond that.'

'And you can find nothing else in me to esteem, Jess?' he asked.

She shook her head but said nothing. She was gazing at him almost imploringly.

'Am I so lacking in all admirable qualities?' he said harshly. 'I had not thought myself quite so depraved. Perhaps your standards are just too high, madam.'

'Perhaps they are,' she said very quietly.

He looked at her in exasperation for a few silent moments. 'You realize that it makes no difference whatsoever, don't you?' he asked. 'You must marry me whether you admire me or not. Perhaps it is fortunate that at least my caresses please you, Jess.'

'I will not marry you,' she said calmly.

He laughed unpleasantly. 'You did not hear me,' he said. 'You have no choice, my dear, any more than I have. Do you think I enjoy the thought of marrying a woman who despises me, who cannot see one trace of

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