feces, cordite, fear.
Neon flashed on the skin of the tall, pale man near the door.
He heard the drip of the tub’s faucet from the bathroom.
He heard something else as well, a scratching, a scrabbling, more drumlike sounds. Realized at length that it was his own arm jumping involuntarily, knuckles rapping at the floor, fingers scratching and thumping as the hand contracted.
The arm hung there, apart from him, unconnected, like an abandoned shoe. When Driver willed it to move, nothing happened.
Worry about that later.
He looked back at the open door. Maybe that’s it, Driver thought. Maybe no one else is coming, maybe it’s over. Maybe, for now, three bodies are enough.
Chapter Ten
After four months at Shannon’s he’d put away enough money to move out to his own place, an apartment complex in old east Hollywood. The check Driver wrote for deposit and rent was the first he’d written in his life and among the last. Soon enough he learned to operate on cash, stay off the radar, leave as few footprints as possible. “Good God, we’re in a Forties movie,” Shannon said when he saw the place. “Which apartment’s Marlowe live in?” Except that, these days, sitting out on the plank-like balcony, one heard far more Spanish than English.
He’d been coming up the stairs when the door next to his opened and a woman asked, in perfect English but with the unmistakable lilt of a native Spanish speaker, if he needed any help.
Seeing her, a Latina roughly his age, hair like a raven’s wing, eyes alight, he wished to hell he did need help. But what he had in his arms was about everything he owned.
“How about a beer, then?” she asked when he admitted to it. “Help you recover from all that heavy lifting.”
“That, I could do.”
“Good. I’m Irina. Come over whenever you’re ready. I’ll leave the door ajar.”
Minutes later, he stepped into her apartment, a mirror image, really, of his own. Soft music playing in three-quarter time, something with accordion fills and frequent appearances of the word corazon. Driver remembered once hearing a jazz musician claim that waltz time was the closest thing to the rhythm of the human heart. Sitting on a couch identical to his though considerably cleaner and more worn, Irina watched a soap opera on one of the Spanish-language TV channels. Novellas, they called them. They were huge.
“Beer on the table here, you want it.”
“Thanks.”
Settling onto the couch beside her, he smelled her perfume, smelled the morning’s soap and shampoo and the smell of her body beneath, subtler and solider at the same time.
“New in town?” she asked.
“Been here a few months. Staying with a friend till now.”
“Where are you from?”
“Tucson.”
Expecting the usual remarks about cowboys, he was surprised when she said, “I’ve got a couple of uncles and their families living out there. South Tucson, I think they call it? Haven’t seen them in years.”
“That’s a world apart, South Tucson.”
“Like L.A. isn’t?”
It was for him.
How much more for her?
Or for this child that came staggering sleepily out of the bedroom.
“Yours?” he said.
“These tend to come with the apartment. Place is overrun with roaches and children. Probably want to check your closets, look under kitchen counters.”
She stood, scooped the child up on one arm.
“This is Benicio.”
“I’m four,” the boy said.
“And very stubborn about going to bed.”
“How old are you?” Benicio asked.
“Good question. Okay if I call my mom, check in with her about this?”
“Meanwhile,” Irina said, “we’ll get you a cookie and a glass of milk out in the kitchen.”
Minutes later, they returned.
“Well?” Benicio said.
“Twenty, I’m afraid,” Driver told him. He wasn’t, but that’s what he was telling the world.
“Old.” Just as he’d suspected.
“Sorry. Maybe we can still be friends, though?”
“Maybe.”
“Your mother’s alive?” Irina asked once she’d tucked the boy back in.
Easier to say no than to explain it all.
She told him she was sorry, and moments later asked what he did for a living.
“You first.”
“Here in the promised land? A three-star career. Mondays through Fridays I waitress at a Salvadoran restaurant on Broadway for minimum wage plus tips-tips from people little better off than myself. Three nights a week I do maid service for homes and apartments in Brentwood. Weekends I sweep and vacuum office buildings. Your turn.”
“I’m in the movies.”
“Sure you are.”
“I’m a driver.”
“Like for limos, right?”
“A stunt driver.”
“You mean all those car chases and stuff?”
“That’s me.”
“Wow. You must get paid good for that.”
“Not really. But it’s steady work.”
Driver told her how Shannon had taken him under wing, taught him what he needed to know, got him his first jobs.
“You’re lucky to have someone like that in your life. I never did.”
“What about Benicio’s father?”
“We were married for about ten minutes. His name is Standard Guzman. First time I met him I asked, ‘Well, is there a deluxe Guzman somewhere around?’ and he just looked at me, didn’t get it at all.”
“What’s he do?”
“Lately he’s been into charity work, helping provide jobs for state workers.”
Driver was lost. Seeing his expression, she added: “He’s inside.”
“Prison, you mean?”
“That’s what I mean.”
“How long?”
“Be out next month.”
On TV, beneath the looming, half-exposed breasts of his blonde assistant, a stubby dark guy in a silver lame frock coat performed parlor magic. Balls between upturned cups appeared and vanished, cards leapt from the deck, doves flapped up from chafing pans.
