Fear Not

‘Leave it out,’ said Johanne, surprised that she felt slightly insulted. ‘I’m actually a specialist in lies!’

‘Other people’s lies, yes. Not your own. If you’d bought spare ribs at Rimi and told your mother they were from Strom-Larsen, your nose would have grown from here to Sognsvann. Just as well you went for cod instead.’

‘My mother didn’t think so,’ Johanne mumbled into her wine glass.

‘Give over,’ said Lina. ‘Your mum’s lovely. Good with the kids and really kind. She’s just a little… emotionally incontinent, that’s all. It’s as if whatever’s on her mind has to come out of her mouth right away, kind of. Forget it. Cheers!’

Johanne raised her glass and tucked her feet underneath her. Her best and oldest friend had turned up just an hour ago, with two bottles of wine and three DVDs. Johanne had felt slightly irritated for a few minutes; she had actually been looking forward to an evening on her own with the computer. But now they were sitting at either end of the big sofa, and Johanne couldn’t remember when she had last felt so relaxed.

‘God, I’m so tired.’ She smiled and gave an enormous yawn. ‘I don’t notice it until I relax.’

‘You have to stay awake. We’re going to watch…’ Lina shuffled through the pile of films on the coffee table. ‘… What Happens in Vegas first. Ashton Kutcher is just gorgeous. And no critical comments. We’re just going to have a nice time.’

She kicked out at Johanne, who shook her head, her expression resigned.

‘How much time do you actually waste on stuff like this?’ she asked.

‘Don’t be so bloody tight-arsed. You like it, too.’

‘Well, can I at least watch the news first? Just so that we have some kind of basis in reality before we dive into a vat of syrup?’

Lina laughed and raised her glass in agreement.

Johanne switched on the TV and just caught the last few seconds of the opening headlines. The top story was as she expected: Bishop Eva Karin Lysgaard murdered in the street – the police have no leads so far.

‘What?’ said Lina, her mouth falling open as she sat up straight on the sofa. ‘Murdered? But how the hell…?’

She put her feet on the floor, put down her glass and leaned forward, her elbows resting on her knees.

‘It’s been all over the net and on the radio all day,’ Johanne said, turning up the sound. ‘Where have you been?’

Christian Borch was wearing a dark suit and a serious expression.

‘The police have today confirmed that the bishop of Bjorgvin, Eva Karin Lysgaard, was murdered on the evening of the twenty-fourth of December. Yesterday it was announced that Bishop Lysgaard had died, but the circumstances surrounding her death were not made public until this morning.’

The picture changed from the studio to a rain-soaked Bergen, where a reporter gave a summary of the case, which was basically two minutes about nothing.

‘Is that why Adam’s away?’ Lina asked, turning to Johanne.

She nodded.

‘As far as we are aware, the police have no leads regarding the identity of the killer at this stage.’

‘Which means they have lots of leads,’ said Johanne. ‘But they have no idea what to do with them.’

Lina shushed her. They sat in silence and watched the entire item, which lasted almost twelve minutes. This was not only because the Christmas period was somewhat short on news as usual; this was something very special. You could see it in everyone who was interviewed – the police, church officials, politicians and ordinary people on the street, everyone was moved in a way that Norwegians didn’t normally show in public. Many had difficulty speaking. Some burst into tears while being interviewed.

‘It’s almost like when King Olav died,’ said Lina, switching off the TV.

‘Hmm. He died of old age, in his own bed.’

‘I know, but the atmosphere is kind of the same. Who in the world would want to kill a woman like that? I mean, she was so… kind, somehow. So good!’

Johanne recalled that she had reacted in exactly the same way almost two days ago. Not only had Eva Karin Lysgaard seemed to be a good person, she was also clearly blessed with a talent for diplomacy. In theological terms she was right in the middle of the fragmented landscape that comprised the Church of Norway. She was neither radical nor conservative. On the question of homosexuality, which had raged within the church for many years – constantly moving Norway closer to a non-denominational constitution – she had been the principal architect of the fragile peace agreement. There would be room for both points of view. Bishop Lysgaard had nothing against marrying homosexuals. At the same time, she had defended the right of her opponents to refuse to do so. Bishop Lysgaard stood out as an open, tolerant person, a typical representative of a broad and popular state church. Which, in fact, she was not. On the contrary, she had strong, fundamental misgivings when it came to the unsatisfactory self-regulation within the church, and never missed an opportunity to put forward her opinion.

Always pleasant. Always calm, with a subtle smile that smoothed the edges of the odd sharp word that might slip out on those rare occasions when Eva Karin Lysgaard became too involved.

As a rule, this concerned the issue of abortion.

Eva Karin Lysgaard held extreme views in only one area: she was against abortion. Totally and completely and in all circumstances. Not even after a rape or when the mother’s life might be in danger could she countenance interference to put an end to a life that had been created. For Bishop Lysgaard, God’s creation was sacrosanct. His ways were unfathomable, and a fertilized egg had the right to life, because God willed it so.

Strangely enough she was respected for her views, in a country where the debate on abortion had actually ended in 1978. The small minority that had continued to oppose the law legalizing abortion were largely regarded as ridiculously conservative and – at least in the eyes of the general public – fairly extreme. Even the feminists toned things down when they were in a debate with Eva Karin Lysgaard. By sticking so firmly to her principles, she distanced herself from the idea that the issue of abortion was anything to do with women’s liberation.

For her, abortion was a question of the sanctity of life, and nothing to do with gender.

‘I wonder what happened to her out there in the forest?’ Johanne said suddenly.

‘The forest? I thought she was murdered on the street?’

‘I don’t mean the murder, I meant that time… there was a profile of her in the Saturday supplement last week, did you see it?’

Lina shook her head and topped up her glass.

‘We were up at the cottage over the weekend. We did lots of skiing, but didn’t read a single newspaper.’

You never do anyway, wherever you are, thought Johanne, smiling as she went on.

‘She said she met God in the forest when she was sixteen. Something special happened, but she didn’t say what it was.’

‘Isn’t it Jesus they usually meet?’

‘What?’

‘I thought when somebody was saved they said they “met Jesus”.’

‘God or Jesus,’ Johanne muttered. ‘Same thing.’

She got up quickly and went into the bedroom. She came back with the supplement, and turned to the interview as she sat down again.

‘Here,’ she said, taking a deep breath.

‘I was in a very difficult situation. We human beings often find ourselves in this position when we are teenagers. Things become too big for us. And that’s what happened to me. Then I met Jesus.’

‘Ha!’ Lina exclaimed. ‘I was right!’

‘Shut up. What actually happened? That’s the journalist asking.’

Johanne glanced quickly at Lina over the top of her glasses and went on:

‘That’s a matter between me and God, the Bishop says with a smile, revealing dimples deep enough to hide in. We all have our secret rooms. That’s the way it should be. That’s the way it will always be.’