Maisie had decided already that the day in Kent should become a two or three day excursion. Lady Rowan had given her permission to keep the car for as long as it was needed, and Maisie had packed a small bag in case she chose to stay. The hedgerows, small villages and apple orchards still full of blossom, were working their magic upon her. She stopped briefly at the post office in Sevenoaks.
'I'm looking for a farm, I think it's called The Retreat. I wonder if you might be able to direct me?'
'Certainly, Miss.'
The postmaster took a sheet of paper and began to write down an address with some directions.
'You might want to be careful, Miss.'
Maisie put her head to one side to indicate that she was listening to any forthcoming advice. 'Yes, Miss. Our postman who does the route says it's run like a cross between a monastery and a barracks. You'd've thought that the blokes in there had seen enough of barracks, wouldn't you? There's a gate and a man on duty--you'll have to tell him your business before he'll let you in. They're nice enough, by all accounts, but I've heard that they don't want just anyone wandering about because of the residents.'
'Yes, yes indeed,' said Maisie, taking the sheet of paper. 'Thank you for your advice.'
The sun was high in the sky by the time Maisie came out of the post office, and as she touched the door handle of the MG it was warm enough to cause her to flinch. Pay attention, Maurice had always cautioned her. Pay attention to the reactions of your body. It is the wisdom of the self speaking to you. Be aware of concern, of anticipation, of all the feelings that come from the self. They manifest in the body. What is their counsel?
If those from the outside were questioned, albeit in a nonthreatening manner, when they entered, how might it be for the residents, the men who had been ravaged by war, in their coming and going? Maisie decided to drive on toward Chelstone. The Retreat could wait until she had seen Maurice.
Frankie Dobbs put the MG away in the garage and helped Maisie with her bags. She would stay in the small box room at the groom's cottage, which had once been her bedroom and was now always made up ready for her to visit, even though such visits were few and far between.
'We don't see enough of you, Love.'
'I know, Dad. But I've been occupied with the business. It's been hard work since Maurice retired.'
'It was 'ard work before 'e retired, wasn't it? Mind you, the old boy looks as if 'e's enjoyin' 'avin' a bit of time to 'imself. He comes in 'ere to 'ave a cup of tea with me now'n again, or I'll go over to see 'is roses. It surprised me, what 'e knows about roses. Clever man, that Maurice.'
Maisie laughed.
'I have to go over to see him, Dad. It's important.'
'Now then, I'm not stupid. I know that I'm not the only reason for you comin' all this way. Mind you, I 'ope I'm the main reason.'
''Course you are, Dad.'
Frankie Dobbs finished brewing tea and placed an old enamel mug in front of Maisie, then winked and went to the cupboard for his own large china cup and saucer. As he brought some apple pie out of the larder, Maisie poured tea for them both.
'Maisie. You are lookin' after yourself, aren't you?'
'Yes, Dad. I can take care of myself.'
'Well, I know that this work you do is sometimes, well, tricky like. And you're on your own now. Just as long as you're careful.'
'Yes, Dad.'
Frankie Dobbs sat down at the table with Maisie, reached into his pocket and pulled out a small package wrapped in brown paper and secured with string. 'Anyway, I was in the 'ardware shop last week, talking to old Joe Cooke--you know 'ow that man can jaw--and, well, I saw this little thing. Thought it might come in 'andy, like, for you. Natty, innit?'
Maisie raised an eyebrow at her father, wondering if he was teasing her. With nimble fingers, she pulled away the string and opened the paper to reveal a shining new stainless-steel Victorinox pocket knife.
'Old Joe said it was a bit odd, buying a thing like this for me daughter, like, but I said, 'Joe, let me tell you, a daughter on 'er own can make more use of a thing like this, with them little tools, than any of them lads of yours.' In any case, y'never know when it might be just the thing you need, 'specially if you're runnin' all over in that motor.'
'Oh, Dad, you shouldn't go spending money on me.' Maisie pulled out each tool in turn, then looked at the closed knife in the palm of her hand. 'I'll keep it with me all the time, just in case.' Maisie slipped the knife into her bag, leaned across the table to kiss her father on the cheek, then reached for her tea.
Father and daughter laughed together, then sat in companionable silence drinking tea and eating apple pie, comfortable with only the heavy tick-tock of the grandfather clock for company. Maisie was thinking about The Retreat, and how she would present the story to Maurice.
Years of working with Maurice had helped Maisie prepare her answers to some of his questions, like a chess player anticipating the moves in a game. But she knew that the ones likely to be most difficult were those that pertained to her own past.
Frankie Dobbs interrupted Maisie's thoughts.
'So, that MG. Nice little motor, is it? What's she like on the corners?'
After tea Maisie walked though the gardens and down to the dower house. Maurice had been invited to use the house after the dowager's death, in 1916, and he had purchased the black-and-white beamed home in 1919. After the war, like many landowners of the day, the Comptons decided to sell parts of the estate, and were delighted when the much-loved house became the property of a friend. The gardens had suffered during the war as groundsmen left to enlist in the army, and land that had lain fallow was requisitioned to grow more produce. At
