and in Bigeard's grip once more was Hakeswill. Hakeswill clutched the greatcoat about his nakedness and jerked helplessly against the big Frenchman's hold.
Dubreton saluted Nairn, spoke softly with him, and then turned to Sharpe who had stepped protectively towards Teresa's body. 'Major Sharpe?
'Sir?
'He did it. We saw it. I give him to you. He spoke very simply.
'He did it?
'Yes.
Sharpe looked at the twitching, yellow-faced man who cringed in fear because Bigeard was holding him towards Sharpe. Sharpe felt the uselessness of the hatred he had for Hakeswill when measured against the pain of this loss. His sword was lying a few feet'away, dropped there when he had run to the body, but there was no desire to pick it up, to bury it in this lumpen man whose curse had killed the mother of Sharpe's child. Sharpe wanted this place of her death to be peaceful. 'Sergeant Harper?
'Sir?
'Take the prisoner. He's to live for a firing squad.
'Sir.
The wind stirred the snow in powdery ripples that banked against Teresa's boots. Sharpe hated this place.
Dubreton spoke again. 'Major?
‘Sir?
'It's all over now.
'Over, sir?
Dubreton shrugged. 'We're going. You won, Major. You won.
Sharpe looked uncomprehending at the French Colonel. 'Won, sir?
'You won.
Won so that a child's present could be strewn in the snow. Won so that he could feel this pain that was bigger than anything he had ever felt.
By the village Major Ducos watched through his telescope as Sharpe lifted the body from the snow and walked with it towards the Castle. He watched the big Sergeant pick the sword out of the snow and then Ducos snapped the glass shut. He had sworn his revenge on Sharpe, on the Rifleman who had thwarted this winter victory, but revenge, Ducos believed with the Spanish proverb, was a dish best eaten cold. He would wait.
Snow drifted over the broken doll in the Gateway of God.
Christmas was finished.
EPILOGUE
Sharpe was in the room where it had all started last year. Last year. That seemed strange, but 1813 was already ten days old, Teresa's death two weeks in the past, the spring would come and with it would come a new campaign.
The fire burned in the same hearth by which Sharpe had learned with such joy of his promotion. There was no joy now.
Wellington looked at Hogan as if for help, but the Major shrugged. The General put levity into his voice. 'I'll have to keep those damned rockets, Sharpe. You saw to that.
Sharpe looked up from the fire. 'Yes, my Lord. He supposed he had seen to that. After their success at Adrados they could hardly be sent back to England. 'I'm sorry, my Lord.
'We'll fit them in somewhere. Wellington paused. 'As we'll fit you in somewhere, Major. He gave one of his rare smiles. 'You took a lot on yourself, Sharpe. A whole Battalion under your command!
Sharpe nodded. 'Sir Augustus complained I took too much on myself, my Lord.
Wellington grunted. 'Good thing you did. What was the matter with the man? Lily-livered? His voice was suddenly harsh.
Sharpe shrugged, then decided the truth was better than politeness. 'Yes, sir.
'How did it feel to fight a Battalion? Good?
'At times, sir.
'Like being a General, eh? Perhaps you'll find that out, Sharpe.
'I doubt it, sir.
Wellington's piercing blue eyes watched him. The General stood in muddied boots in front of the fire, the skirts of his riding coat lifted by clasped hands. 'The glory gets tarnished, yes?’
’Yes, sir.
'Some people never learn that. They think I enjoy this, but its a job, Sharpe, that's all, a job. Like being a street-sweeper or a slaughterman. Someone has to do it or the filth will overwhelm us. He seemed embarrassed to have said so much.
'Yes, my Lord.
Wellington waved a hand towards the door. 'I'll send for you, Major Sharpe. We must find you employment. A Major who fights my battles must be given employment!
Sharpe moved to the door, Hogan with him, shepherding him protectively, but the General stopped them. 'Sharpe?’
’My Lord?
This time Wellington really did seem embarrassed. He glanced at the armchair, then back to Sharpe. 'Would it seem amiss, Sharpe, if I say that all things pass?’
’No, my Lord. Thank you.
Major Michael Hogan, as old a friend as almost any in the army, walked with Sharpe through Frenada's streets. 'You're sure of this, Richard?’Yes, I'm sure.
They walked in silence for a minute and Hogan hated the heaviness in his friend, the seemingly inconsolable and private grief that festered inside. ‘I’ll meet you afterwards.’
’Afterwards?
'Afterwards. Hogan spoke decisively. This evening he planned to make Sharpe drunk. He planned to force the grief out into the open and he would do it as the Irish knew how to do it, with a wake. It was overdue, but he and Harper had agreed to it, had forced agreement on Sharpe, and the Rifle Captain, Frederickson, would come too. Hogan had liked Frederickson instantly, had been amused at the man's complaint that no one would fight him, and had been pleased to see Frederickson's modest disclaimer when he had read the words of Sharpe's report. A wake, a decent, drunken, laughing wake, Hogan had ordered Harry Price to attend and he would force Sharpe to drink, to talk, to remember Teresa, and in the morning the grief would already be turning into healthy regret. 'Afterwards, Richard. Hogan stepped across a deep rut in a cross-roads. 'You heard that Sir Augustus has requested home leave?
'I heard.
'And ‘Lady Farthingdale’ is back in Lisbon?
'Yes. I heard.'Josefina had written Sharpe a bitter letter, a letter that complained he had broken his word by revealing his knowledge to Sir Augustus, a letter that reeked of her lost future fortune. It had ended by saying a friendship was over and Sharpe had torn the letter into shreds and put the shreds on the fire, and then remembered how Teresa had seen him flirting with Josefina and he had cried because of the hurt he might have given to his wife. His wife.
She was buried in Casatejada, in the stone crypt in the tiny chapel where her family was buried. Antonia would grow up speaking Spanish, knowing neither mother nor father, and Sharpe would ride to see her soon, to look at his daughter who would grow up not knowing him.
Sometimes he woke in the night and he was happy for a moment until he remembered Teresa was dead. Then the happiness went.
Sometimes he saw long black hair on a slim woman in the street and his heart leaped inside, joy welled up
