The Shadow of Saganami

given me, there were times I wanted to strike out at the universe. Wanted to take it by the throat and strangle it for stealing my mother from me. And unlike you, I knew precisely how she died, knew it was her choice, as well as her duty.

'So don't blame yourself for their deaths. And don't blame yourself for being bitter because they died. That's called being a human being.

'As for Westman and Chief Marshal Bannister and their attitudes towards the Trade Union and even the annexation, all you can do is all you can do. Maybe you weren't exactly the nicest person in the world while you were trying to build up the RTU, but that doesn't mean it's tainted or poisoned somehow. And if the annexation goes through, I can't think of a better possible memorial for your wife and daughters.'

'I've tried to tell myself that,' he half-whispered.

'Good,' Helen said more briskly. 'Because it's true. And now that I know about Suzanne, and your daughters, and all the rest of your deep, dark secrets, be warned! The next time I see you sinking into a slough of despond or starting to feel overly sorry for yourself, I'm going to kick you-with infinite respect, of course!-right in the ass.'

He blinked, both eyebrows flying up. And then, to her relief, he began to laugh. He laughed for quite a long time, with a deep, full-throated amusement she'd never really expected to see from him. But finally, the laughter eased into chuckles, and he shook his head at her.

'You're even more like Suzanne than I thought. That's exactly what she would've told me under the same circumstances.'

'I thought she sounded like a smart lady,' Helen said in a satisfied tone.

'Oh, yes. Very like Suzanne... and that,' he added in a softer voice, 'is probably the greatest compliment I could ever pay anyone.'

Chapter Thirty-Nine

The dispatch boat from Spindle began uploading its message queue well before it reached Montana planetary orbit. Lieutenant Hansen McGraw, the com officer of the watch, watched the message headers scroll up on his display. Most were protected by multilevel encryption, and he waited patiently while the computers sorted through the traffic. Half a dozen of the larger message files, he noted, were personal-only for Captain Terekhov and Bernardus Van Dort. One of them, however, carried a lower security classification and a higher priority rating. He downloaded that one to a message board, and handed it to Senior Chief Harris.

'Deliver this to the Exec, please, Senior Chief.'

'Aye, aye, Sir,' Harris said, and tucked the message board under his arm. He carried it across the bridge to the lift, down one deck, and along a passage to the wardroom, where he stepped through the open hatch and cleared his throat politely.

'Yes, Senior Chief?' Lieutenant Frances Olivetti, Hexapuma's third astrogator, happened to be sitting closest to the hatch.

'Message for the XO, Ma'am.'

'Bring it on over, please, Senior Chief,' Ansten FitzGerald said from where he sat in the midst of a pinochle game with Ginger Lewis, Lieutenant Commander Nagchaudhuri, and Lieutenant Jefferson Kobe.

'Yes, Sir.' Harris crossed to the executive officer. He handed over the message board, then stood waiting, hands clasped behind him, while FitzGerald opened the message file and scanned it. His eyes narrowed and he frowned slightly, obviously thinking hard. Then he looked back up at Harris.

'Who has the standby pinnace?'

'Ms. Pavletic, Sir,' the senior chief replied.

'In that case, please inform her that I anticipate she'll be leaving the ship to collect the Captain and his party within the next few minutes, Senior Chief.'

'Aye, aye, Sir.' Harris came briefly to attention, then headed back out through the hatch while FitzGerald plugged his personal com into the shipboard system and punched in a combination.

'Bridge, Officer of the Watch speaking,' Tobias Wright's voice replied.

'Toby, it's the Exec. I need to speak to Hansen, please.'

'Yes, Sir. Wait one, please.'

There was a very brief pause; then Lieutenant McGraw answered.

'You wanted me, Sir?'

'Yes, I did, Hansen. Please make a general signal to all work and shore parties to return on board.'

'Yes, Sir. Should I indicate immediate priority?'

'No,' FitzGerald said after a brief consideration. 'Instruct them to return directly, but to expedite any extended tasks.'

'Aye, aye, Sir.'

'Thank you. FitzGerald, clear,' the executive officer said.

He switched off his com and returned his attention to his cards. Several people looked as if they'd have liked to ask him questions, but none of them did. Aikawa Kagiyama, who was in the process of suffering abject annihilation across a chessboard at Abigail Hearns's hands, found it even more difficult to concentrate on his game. There was only one logical reason for the instructions the XO had issued: Hexapuma had just received new orders which required her to go someplace else.

He frowned, part of his mind trying to decide whether to sacrifice a knight or his single remaining bishop in an effort to briefly stave off the lieutenant's merciless attack, while the rest of his mind considered the implications of new orders. Hexapuma had been in Montana for just under eleven T-days, and it had been nine days since the Captain and Van Dort's first meeting with Westman. Aikawa didn't know how well that effort had been going. He knew Van Dort had met with Westman a second time, but he couldn't pick up a single hint about what they might have discussed. It was deeply frustrating for someone who prided himself on always knowing what was going on. And the fact that Helen really did know but refused to tell him was even more frustrating. He respected her refusal to gossip about the details to which she might be privy, but all the respect in the galaxy wasn't going to make him feel any less curious.

'Are you planning to move sometime soon?' Lieutenant Hearns asked pleasantly, and he gave himself a shake.

'Sorry, Ma'am. I guess I was woolgathering.'

He looked back down at the board and interposed his king's knight. Lieutenant Hearns' castle swooped down and took it instantly.

'Mate in four moves,' she informed him with a smile.

Aikawa grunted in exasperation as he realized she was right. He started to tip over his king, then stopped himself. It might just be possible, he thought, studying the board carefully, that he could at least make her take an additional two or three moves to finish him off. Which was about the best any of the midshipmen, with the sole exception of Ragnhild Pavletic, had so far managed.

He shelved consideration of what their new orders might be and gave himself over to the intense examination of the board.

* * *

'Flight Ops, this is Hawk-Papa-One, requesting clearance for a direct transit to Hexapuma Alpha's current location,' Ragnhild Pavletic said into her boom mike.

'Hawk— Papa-One, Flight Ops,' Lieutenant Sheets' voice replied in her earbug. 'Hold while we clear your flight plan.'

'Flight Ops, Hawk-Papa-One copies.'

Ragnhild sat back in the pilot's seat and considered her projected trip. As always, the exact location of Captain -Terekhov-' Hexapuma Alpha'-was monitored whenever he was off the ship. As such, she knew that he, Bernardus Van Dort, and Helen Zilwicki were currently in a restaurant rejoicing in the name of The Rare Sirloin. It was supposed to be one of the better restaurants in Brewster, the Montana capital. Ragnhild didn't know about that personally, of course. Unlike some midshipwomen, she thought,