The Shadow of Saganami

sadistic bitch Daumier, at the very least-himself. He would never have doubted for a moment that they'd had it coming; but the question of whether he'd done it for justice's sake or simply to slake the fires of his own vengeance in blood was one he never wanted to have to answer. And not just for himself. It would have been one he had to answer for Sinead, as well, even if she never, ever asked him.

'Still,' he said, thinking aloud, 'we were lucky.'

'Some people make their own luck, Skip,' FitzGerald said, regarding him through a tiny wisp of steam across his own coffee cup.

'Don't give me that, Ansten.' Terekhov smiled crookedly. 'Tell me you didn't think I'd gone off my nut when I opted to suck them in that close-if you can!'

'Well... ' FitzGerald began, startled that the Captain had brought that particular point up between them.

'Of course you did. For God's sake, Ansten! We've got Mark 16s in the tubes. I could've pounded either one of them-or both-into scrap, with no option but to surrender, without ever letting them into energy range at all. Couldn't I?'

'Yes, Sir, you could have,' FitzGerald said quietly. 'And I suppose, if I'm going to be honest, I did wonder if not doing that was the best tactical choice.'

Even now, the exec was more than a little surprised they could have this conversation. He remembered all his earlier doubts about Aivars Terekhov and the scars Hyacinth must have left behind. And, truth to tell, he wasn't convinced yet that he'd been wrong to harbor them. But the action against Anhur and Clignet's psychopaths had gone a long way toward resolving them. And, more importantly, in many ways, it seemed to have resolved a lingering constraint in his relationship with his Captain.

'I won't lie to you, Ansten,' Terekhov said, after a moment, looking down into his cup. 'When we found out they were Peeps-and especially that one of them was a Mars class-it did affect my judgment. It made me even more determined not just to defeat them, but to smash them. Ansten,' he looked up from the coffee's brown depths, and his blue eyes were dark, without the distancing reserve FitzGerald had become accustomed to, 'I wanted to do every single thing we did to them. I know what that ship looked like inside when we finished with her, and I wanted to see it. I wanted to smell it.'

FitzGerald gazed at him, his own eyes gray, calm mirrors. Perhaps they wouldn't have been so calm if he hadn't heard Terekhov's tone. If he hadn't recognized his Captain's own realization of the demons he carried around with him.

'But,' Terekhov continued, 'whatever I wanted, I'd already decided on exactly the sort of engagement I planned to fight if I could get whoever it was that close. I'd made that decision before I knew they were Peeps. Not because I wanted to punish the same people who massacred my people at Hyacinth, but because I wanted-needed — to take them out, whoever they were, so fast and so hard, from such a close range and at such a low relative velocity, that they wouldn't even dream of dumping their computer cores when I told them not to.'

'Well, Skip,' FitzGerald said with a slow smile, 'you certainly did that.'

'Yes, I did,' Terekhov agreed with a slight smile of his own. 'But now that it's over, I realize I need you to help me watch myself.' His smile disappeared, and he looked at FitzGerald very levelly. 'There's only one person aboard any warship with whom its captain can truly let down his guard, and that's his exec. You're the one person aboard the Kitty I can discuss this with-and the one person in a position to tell me if you think I'm stepping over the line without damaging discipline or undermining the chain of command. That's why I'm telling you this. Because I need you to know I want your input in a case like this.'

'I— ' FitzGerald paused and sipped coffee, deeply touched by his Captain's admission. The relationship he'd just described was the one which ought to exist between every successful captain and his executive officer, yet the degree and level of frankness he'd asked for-and offered-was attained only too rarely. And FitzGerald wondered if he would have had the moral strength and courage to admit to another officer, especially one of his subordinate officers, that he'd ever doubted his own judgment. Not because he was stupid enough to believe they wouldn't realize he had, but because admitting it simply wasn't the way the game was played.

'I'll bear that in mind, Skipper,' he said quietly, after a moment.

'Good.' Terekhov leaned back with a more comfortable smile, holding his coffee cup and its saucer in his lap. He gazed around the cabin for a moment, as if composing his thoughts, then grimaced.

'I'm starting work on my post-battle reports, and I'm looking forward to seeing yours and the rest of our officers. I'm especially curious as to whether or not the rest of you are going to identify the one weakness I've discovered about the new ship types.'

'Like the lack of manpower?' FitzGerald asked dryly, and Terekhov chuckled.

'Exactly like the lack of manpower,' he agreed. 'We were swamped trying to deal with Anhur's casualties and damages. Even with the Nuncians to take up so much of the slack, we didn't begin to have the warm bodies we would've needed if we'd had to board a couple of intact ships. And as for doing that and making critical repairs, especially if we'd already had to detach some of the Marines-!'

'I never thought I'd say reducing the Marine detachments was a mistake, Skipper,' FitzGerald said, shaking his head, 'but it really is going to be a problem for us on detached operations like this.'

'I know. I know.' Terekhov sighed. Then he shrugged. 'On the other hand, what we need right now more than anything else is a warfighting navy, not a peacekeeping one, and so far, these designs are one hell of a lot more efficient as pure fighting machines. We'll just have to learn to cope with the problems in other operational regimes. And let's be honest-if we'd been conducting regular anti-pirate operations instead of taking on semi- modern heavy cruisers, we wouldn't've felt the strain quite so badly.'

'Probably not,' FitzGerald conceded. 'But for the people who get stuck pulling this sort of assignment, it's going to be an ongoing pain in the ass, and no mistake about it.'

'Agreed. But speaking about the difference between our little soiree here and 'regular anti-pirate operations,' what do you think about our discoveries in Anhur's computers?'

'I think it's past time we settled accounts with Manpower once and for all,' FitzGerald said grimly, his expression hard. 'And probably with all the rest of those bloodsucking Mesan bastards.'

'My, my! You are upset,' Terekhov observed with a lightness which fooled neither of them.

'Skipper, Clignet's logs virtually admit Manpower's recruited every damned refugee StateSec ship they can get their hands on!'

'Unsavory of them, I admit,' Terekhov acknowledged, picking up his saucer and crossing his legs as he leaned back to sip coffee. 'Not, on the other hand, really a surprise, I think. Now is it?'

'Hiring StateSec scum? Damned right that's a surprise, Skipper! Or it sure as hell is one where I'm concerned!'

'Actually, 'hiring' isn't exactly the right verb. It's more like placing independent contractors on retainer. And the contractors are working on commission, not direct payment. All Manpower's doing, really, is providing some initial maintenance and resupply gratis , then pointing their new... associates at profitable hunting grounds. And, of course, helping dispose of their plunder. Let's face it, Ansten; some of the biggest Solly merchant lines have always been in bed with the more successful pirates. They use them against competitors, and supplying them with information and weapons buys them immunity for ships traveling under their own house transponder codes. Hell, Edward Saganami was killed in action against 'pirates' subsidized by Mesa and the contemporary Silesian government! Not a lot of change there.'

'All right,' FitzGerald muttered, just a bit rebelliously. 'I'll admit it-Mesa and its multistellars have always been outlaws, and they've always been perfectly comfortable working with the most murderous scum out there. But I still think recruiting State-Sec units and rogue People's Navy ships is a new departure for them. And, give the Devil his due, Skip-I always thought the Peeps were as serious as we were about enforcing the Cherwell Convention, at least.'

'I suppose it is a new departure for Manpower, in some ways,' Terekhov conceded. 'If nothing else, they're recruiting ships whose weapons, electronics, and crew quality come a hell of a lot closer to matching that of