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'Dorothy,' said the little girl. She held up her white dress to make it sparkle.

'What's that stuff on your dress?'

'It's a theater dress,' said the little girl. Her eyes stared and her mouth was puffy. 'The theater people in Kansas City give it to me.' She had stayed with them last night, and she liked them. 'Are you going to stay with me?' she asked Johnson.

'For a little while, maybe.'

'I'm hungry,' she said.

'Well I ate up all my pie, or I surely would have let you have some.'

The place was silent. The station had a porch and a platform and a wooden waiting room. The tracks ran beside a river. Dorothy could see no town. She recognized nothing. She pushed the hair out of her eyes. Nothing was right.

'Where is everybody?' she asked. She was scared, as if there were ghosts in the low orange light.

'Oh, next train won't be here till past six. Come on, I'll show you where you can set.'

He walked on ahead of her. He didn't hold her hand. Mama would have held her hand, or Papa. She followed him.

Her ticket was pinned to her dress, along with a set of instructions. 'Will this ticket get me back to St. Lou?' she asked. If there was nobody coming to meet her?

'I don't know,' said Johnson, and held open the door of the waiting room. It had bare floors of fine walnut, wainscoting, a stove, benches. There were golden squares of light on the floor.

'You must be tired. You just rest here a bit, and I'll see if I can't find somebody to go fetch your aunty.'

Don't go! Dorothy thought. She was afraid and she couldn't speak. Stay!

'You'll be okay. We'll get you sorted out.' He smiled and closed the door. Dorothy was alone.

This was the time when Mama would lay the table. Mama would sing to herself, lightly, quietly. Sometimes Dorothy would help her, putting out the knives and forks. Sometimes Dorothy would have a bath, with basins of warm water poured over both her and her little brother, Bobo. Papa would come home and shout, 'How're my little angels?' Dorothy would come running and giggling toward him. Don't tickle me, she would demand, so he would. And they would all eat together, sunlight swirling in the dust as shadows lengthened.

No dinner now.

And later people would come around, and they'd all talk and sometimes ask Dorothy to stand up on a chair and sing. The chairs would scrape on the floor as they were pulled back in a hurry, for cards or for a dance. Papa would play the fiddle. They would let Dorothy sit up and drink a little wine. People would hold Bobo up by his arms so that he could dance too, grinning.

So what happened to little girls with nobody to take care of them? How did they eat? Would it all be like that trip on the train? The train trip had seemed to go on forever, but this was even worse.

She was afraid now, deep down scared, and she knew she would stay horribly, crawlingly scared until dark, into the dark when it would get even worse, until she tossed and turned herself asleep.

Toto sighed and shivered, waiting out the terror with her.

The dust moved in the sunlight, and the sunlight moved across the wall, and no one came, and no one came. Time and loneliness and fear crept forward at the same slow pace.

Then the front door swung open with a sound of sleighbells on a leather strap, like Christmas. Dorothy looked up. A woman in black stood in the doorway, carrying a basket.

'Are you the little girl who's waiting for her aunty?' the woman asked. Dorothy nodded. The woman smiled and came toward her. There was something terribly wrong.

The woman's arms were too long. The bottom of her rib cage seemed to stick out in the wrong place, and she walked by throwing her hips from side to side and letting her tiny legs follow. As she moved, everything was wrenched and jolted. Dorothy backed away from her, along the bench.

'I brought some chicken with me,' said the woman, smiling, eyes bright. Her face was young and pretty. 'My name's Etta, what's yours?' Toto sat up from the floor, ears forward, but he did not growl.

Dorothy told her in such a low voice that Etta had to ask her again. 'And the dog's name?'

'Same,' said Dorothy. Etta sat down on the bench some distance away and began to unfold a red-checked cloth from the basket. Some of the fear seemed to go. 'He's got the same name as mine.'

Etta plucked out apples and cold dumplings and some chicken and passed them on a plate.

'The same name. How's that?'

'My mama got the two of us on the same day. So I'm called Dorothy and he's called Toto. That's short for Dorothy.' Dorothy had the drumstick.

'Would Toto like some chicken?' Etta asked.

Dorothy nodded yes, with her mouth full. She stared at the woman's pretty face as she held out a strand of chicken for Toto. Dorothy was confused by the woman's height and manner. Dorothy was not entirely sure if she was a child or an adult.

'Are you middle-aged?' Dorothy asked. She did not understand the term. She thought it meant people who were between childhood and adulthood.

'Me?' Etta chuckled. 'Why no, I'm twenty years old!'

'Why aren't you bigger?'