'In the kitchen,' I answer.
He comes to the kitchen door. Good thing it's martian gravity because he is carrying Theresa and he looks done in.
'Sit down,' I say.
Theresa has her head on his shoulder and opens her eyes only when he shifts her to put her down. I put the bread in to flash, wait for the timer and then pull it out. 'Theresa,' I say, 'have a little bread and cheese and then you can go to sleep. Careful, it's hot.'
I pour him coffee and heap food on his plate, pour coffee for me and take some bread and cheese. At first he picks at it, then he eats. Theresa eats half of her bread and cheese and then I take her in to the guest bedroom and take off her shoes and socks, her coveralls and top. Tonight she can sleep in her underwear. I turn the bed up warm and tuck her in and she falls asleep as I am sitting on the bed.
When I come back, Alexi is sitting at the table, the plate pushed away from him, his hands wrapped around an empty coffee cup.
'Thank you,' he says. 'I don't know how to say thank you.'
'What made you come back?' I ask.
'I realized I couldn't do it. I thought, maybe in New Arizona, or in Wallace, I could slip into the free market or something. But it's not like Earth, there's no where to go. I don't know what to do. And I kept thinking, you're on the committee, I know I've asked so much of you, but I thought maybe you could help.'
I'm full of anger. Anger is boiling up inside me. Just looking at this man, sitting at my kitchen table, full of my food, asking me for help. I know that my anger is irrational, I know that it's the flip side of fear, but that doesn't stop me from feeling it.
'The Commune is supposed to send five people to the water reclamation project. We won't send landholders, because landholders are what make the commune work.' Anger makes my word come out crisp and clear. 'We'll have to send newcomers and if they've been here for more than a year and we send them, then we're making them wait longer to get their holding.'
Alexi is looking at me, vulnerable in the kitchen light.
'Including you, there are four newcomers who have been here for a year. I brought up the fact that you've been relocated so many times and that it's not good for Theresa, but the committee feels that sending you will give you a chance to accumulate a good chunk of credit for when you come back and do get a holding.'
He opens his mouth as if to say something, and then changes his mind.
'Right now, the committee is more interested in trying to figure out how to select the fifth person than it is in listening to why you shouldn't go, and I can't think of anything to say that will change that.'
He nods. 'Okay,' he says.
There is a little silence.
'Okay,' he says, 'so that's that.'
'There's still some things to try,' I say. 'I have an idea, but I don't think it will go. Just don't do anything until I try my idea.'
'What is it?' he asks.
'There are some other people who might go,' I say vaguely.
He nods tiredly. 'And if that doesn't work, it's only two years.' He is defeated. He says 'it is only two years' the way I imagine someone might say, 'Everybody has to die sometime.'
But if it doesn't work, I have one more idea. But I'm not ready to talk about that, because I'm not really sure I'm ready myself.
Goats, leaks, bees. Bees, leaks, goats. My life goes back to it's expected rounds. Alexi and Theresa come the following weekend. Theresa is hyper and unhappy on Saturday, but Sunday she is fine until it is time to leave. Alexi and I are pleasant to each other. We don't talk much about his reassignment but once he says, 'After I come back from the pole… '
They go back to the dorm, Theresa fussing and crying. Monday is goats and bees. Tuesday is bees and goats. Wednesday I get stung twice. Well, I'll never get arthritis. I sleep badly, dream and dream but I can't remember what I dream about when I wake up. At least I don't sleepwalk. And then it is Thursday, time for the council meeting.
There is an empty chair at the front, McKenzie sits in the audience. Aron opens the meeting and says, 'We can't have a meeting until we have a full council. We have one person willing to sit on council, Martine Jansch. Any other nominations or volunteers?'
Kepet Waters stands up, 'I'm willing,' and sits down.
McKenzie looks at her lap and frowns. Waters is a horse's ass.
I look around the hall, I have no illusions about my own popularity. Alexi, I am surprised to see, is standing next to the door.
Aron says to me, 'Martine, would you like to say anything?'
I think for a moment. I can't imagine getting up and addressing all these people, even though I know most of them. 'I guess everybody pretty well knows me, Aron.'
'Anybody want to say anything about Martine?'
McKenzie pops up, 'I think Martine would do a fine job and she's the person I'd like to follow me.' She pops back down, shoves her hands in her pockets and frowns.
Aron waits to see if anyone else wants to say anything.
'Kepet?' he says.
The only thing I have going for me is that I don't think I've made many enemies. Not that Kepet has real, honest enemies, but well, he stands up and says, 'I'd like to say a little, Aron,' and proceeds to talk for twenty minutes about what this commune could be.
Most of us had our fill of speeches during the days of the Cleansing Wind; particularly speeches about how wonderful things are going to be. People are polite while Kepet talks, and a few clap politely when he is done, but I think most of us tend to distrust a man who talks that much.
Still, I'm nervous when everybody votes. Kepet and I don't vote. I glance back in time to see someone hand a piece of paper to Alexi, who doesn't know what to do for a moment, then takes it. Back on Earth you don't vote unless you're a party member, but here everybody on the commune votes on commune business if they're old enough to receive credit for their work. You have to be a party member to vote on anything out of New Arizona, but even many of the party members, like me, don't bother with most of that. Who cares who our representatives are at the Martian Congress, all the major decisions are made on Earth anyway.
They count the votes, it's 8:45 by the time they're finished but for once I'm not sleepy.
I'm astounded when they read off the totals. 'Martine has 111, Kepet has 34.' I had convinced myself I wouldn't win, that I'm too sour a woman. Kepet's speech has been more of a drawback than expected. I even more surprised that almost 150 people showed up for a council meeting. There are over 1000 people in the commune, over 200 landholding families, but council meetings are late, they're boring, and most of us have better things to do with our time.
Aron says, 'Okay. When Martine decides to come up here and sit down we can start the meeting.'
I stand up, embarrassed, and take my seat at the front. I don't hear much for a few minutes, it's been a long time since I had to stand in front of people, or even sit in front of them, and that was when I was Captain Jansch and had a uniform to hide behind. I can't look up for awhile, but finally, while Aron is talking about reducing our water use-a topic of council meetings for as long as I can remember, I glance up to see a little group of four or five people leaving. In fact it doesn't look like anywhere near 150 people are at the meeting.
'Okay,' Aron says-it's a verbal tic of his, every sentence begins with 'okay'-'now can we have a report from the Committee on the Water Reclamation Volunteers?'
An unfortunate choice of words, that. Volunteers.
Cord stands up, 'We are required to provide five people to work for at least two years on the water reclamation project. We thought that we should look first at the newcomers who have been here for less than a year, since newcomers who have been here for more than a year are less than two years from possibly having their own holding.' Cord pauses for a moment. 'At least officially.'
There is a titter, everybody knows that it takes closer to five years to get everything together, approved and
