Already Dead

concerned it might as well be dust. My blood has been occupied and harvested, whatever it is that the Vyrus consumes has been stripped away. But there's more of what I need right on the other side of this door.

– Hey!

– What?

– Don't pull on the cuffs.

I look. She's right, I've been tugging her toward me from around the door.

– Sorry.

– Yeah you're sorry. And stop being so quiet, I told you to say something.

– Like what?

– Anything. Tell me who busted up your face. Not that I don't think there's like a line of people waiting to bust it up.

– Guy doesn't like it.

– Your face?

– Yeah.

– Well. Can you blame him? Are you going to kick his ass?

– Hadn't thought about it.

– Maaan.

– What?

– For a big guy.

– Yeah?

– For a big guy, you're kind of a pussy.

– You pee yet?

__Damn it. I was almost there. Why'd you have to say that? Now talk about something else.

– How'd you get in here?

– There's like an alley around back, off of Tenth? The gate's not locked. Whitney showed me last summer. Go through the gate and there's the basement door. Squatters busted the lock off that couple years back, I guess.

My legs hurt from squatting. I'm pretty sure I fractured something in my right ankle when I came down the stairs. I shift to keep it from aching and I lose my balance for a second. Our wrists tug-a-war before I steady myself. I grab the edge of the door and accidentally touch her fingers. -Don't touch me.

A moment's silence.

– Talk.

Jesus fucking.

– Why'd you run away?

Now it's her turn to get all silent.

– If it's like you say and your dad isn't messing with you?

– None of your business.

– OK.

More silence.

– Are you jerking off back there?

– No.

– Then stop getting all quiet, it's creepy.

– OK. Why'd you run away?

– I told you, none of your business.

– Fine.

Silence.

– Fuck do you care?

– I don't. I just want you to piss so I can stretch my legs.

She laughs.

– Stretch your legs, I just went.

She digs through her little backpack looking for something. She's holding her flashlight in her cuffed right hand as she searches with her left. She jerks my left hand this way and that as she rummages.

– Why'd you have to cuff my right hand?

– If I'd cuffed your left you would have to walk around backward.

She stares at me.

– Yeah, right. Like I would have done that.

Our hands bump.

– Your hand is all cold and sweaty.

She gives me a fish-eye.

– Are you sick? 'Cause if I catch something from you I am going to be so pissed.

– Just clammy by nature.

– Gross.

I am cold and sweaty. The Vyrus is downshifting, trying to save energy, storing up for its last big push. But sick is not a big enough word for what I am.

She pulls a few things out of the pack; some extra clothes, an MP3 player, batteries, a bottle of water, and finally comes up with what she's looking for: a handful of diet bars. She holds one in her left hand and tears the wrapper open with her teeth. She catches me watching her.

– You want one?

I do want one. I haven't eaten for awhile and I usually eat like a pig. You have to, just to keep up with the high revs the Vyrus usually runs your metabolism at.

– Sure.

– There's peanut butter or chocolate and coconut.

– Peanut butter.

She hands me the bar and we eat by the dim light cast by her flashlight. She finishes hers, throws the empty wrapper on the floor, and picks out another.

– So my mom was the one who called you?

I chew for a couple seconds. The peanut butter was a mistake, it's hard and sticky and hurts my sore jaw as I chew.

– Yeah.

– What'd she say?

– Said you were missing, said she wanted to find you.

She's picking at her second bar, pinching tiny pieces of the chocolate coating between her fingernails and nibbling them.

– What about my dad, you talk to him?

– Yeah.

She huffs.

– Aaand?

I think about my meeting with Dr. Dale Horde, the way he casually put me in my place like it's something he does ten times a day. The way he mickeyed me so Predo's spook could rob my stash.

– Said he wanted me to find you.

– Yeah, right.

She's peeled about half the chocolate off her second bar, leaving the coconut underneath untouched.

– Mom says he wants to fuck me. Least that'd be something.

Looks at me all the time like he can't figure out where I came from. Only time he pays any attention is when one of my girlfriends comes over. Then he tries to be all supercooldad so he can impress them. Lame.