we're looking for a witness who saw anybody going in or out of here yesterday morning. It'd be nice to turn one up, and it'd be nice if you could put Stettner at the scene, but I can tell you now it ain't gonna happen. And even if it did there's no case against him. So he was here, so what? Thurman was alive when he left. He was despondent, he seemed upset, but who ever thought the poor man would take his own life? Horseshit on the half shell, but let's see you go and prove it.'
I didn't say anything.
'Besides,' he said, 'is it so bad this way? We know Thurman killed his wife and we know he didn't get away with it. True, he had help, and maybe it was Stettner-'
'Of course it was Stettner.'
'What of course? All we got for that is Thurman's word, which he said to you in a private unrecorded conversation a few hours before he fell to his death. Maybe he was jerking you around, did you stop to think of that?'
'I know he was jerking me around, Joe. He was trying to make himself look as good as possible and trying to make Stettner look like a combination of Svengali and Jack the Ripper. So what?'
'So maybe it wasn't Stettner. Maybe Thurman had some other accomplices, maybe he had some business reason to do a number on Stettner. Look, I'm not saying that's what happened. I know it's farfetched. The whole fucking case is farfetched. What I'm saying is that Thurman set up his wife's killing and he's dead now, and if every murder case I ever had worked out this well I wouldn't sit around eating my heart out, you know what I mean? If Stettner did it and he skates, well, I live with worse than that every day of my life. If he was as bad as Thurman made him out to be he would have got his dick in the wringer somewhere along the line, and it never once happened. Man's never been arrested, hasn't got a sheet on him anywhere. Far as I can tell he never even got a speeding ticket.'
'You checked around.'
'Of course I checked around, for Christ's sake. What do you expect me to do? If he's a bad guy I'd love to put him away. But he doesn't look so bad, not on the record.'
'He's another Albert Schweitzer.'
'No,' he said, 'he's probably a real prick, I'll grant you that. But that's not a crime.'
I called Lyman Warriner in Cambridge. I didn't have to break the news to him. Some sharp-witted reporter had done that for me, calling Amanda's brother for his reaction. 'Of course I declined to comment,' he said. 'I didn't even know if it was true. He killed himself?'
'That's what it looks like.'
'I see. That's not quite the same thing as yes, is it?'
'There's a possibility that he was murdered by an accomplice. The police are pursuing that possibility, but they don't expect to get anywhere. At the present time there's no evidence that contradicts a verdict of suicide.'
'But you don't believe that's what happened.'
'I don't, but what I believe's not terribly important. I spent a couple of hours with Thurman last night and I got what you were hoping I'd get. He admitted murdering your sister.'
'He actually admitted it.'
'Yes, he did. He tried to make his accomplice the heavy, but he admitted his own role in what happened.' I decided to stretch a point. 'He said she was unconscious for virtually all of it, Lyman. She got a blow on the head early on and never knew what happened to her.'
'I'd like to believe that.'
'I was scheduled to meet with him yesterday afternoon,' I went on. 'I was hoping to talk him into a full confession, but failing that I was prepared to record our conversation and turn it over to the police. But before I could do that-'
'He killed himself. Well, I'll say one thing. I'm certainly glad I hired you.'
'Oh?'
'Wouldn't you say your investigation precipitated his actions?'
I thought about it. 'I guess you could say that,' I said.
'And I'm just as glad it ended as it did. It's quicker and cleaner than suffering through a court trial, and a lot of the time they walk away, don't they? Even when everybody knows they're guilty.'
'It happens.'
'And even when it doesn't the sentences are never long enough, or they behave themselves, they're model prisoners and after four or five years they're out on parole. No, I'm more than satisfied, Matthew. Do I owe you any money?'
'You probably have a refund coming.'
'Don't be ridiculous. Don't you dare send me anything. I wouldn't accept it if you did.'
Speaking of money, I told him he might be able to institute proceedings to recover his sister's estate and the insurance payment. 'You're not legally entitled to profit from the commission of a crime,' I explained. 'If Thurman murdered your sister, he can't inherit and he can't collect the insurance money. I'm not familiar with the terms of your sister's will, but I assume everything comes to you in the event that he's out of the picture.'
'I believe it does.'
'He hasn't been legally implicated in her death,' I said, 'and there won't be charges brought against him now because he's dead. But I think you can institute civil proceedings, and the rules are different from criminal court. For instance, I might be able to testify to the substance of my conversation with him the night before he died. That's hearsay, but it's not necessarily inadmissible. You would want to talk to your attorney. In a case like this I don't think you have to prove guilt to the same degree as in a criminal trial, beyond a reasonable doubt. I think there's a different standard that applies. As I said, you'll want to talk to your lawyer.'
He was silent for a moment. Then he said, 'I don't think I will. Where would the money go if I don't? I doubt that he's redrawn his will since Amanda's death. He would have left everything to her, and to his own relatives in the event she predeceased him.' He coughed, got control of himself. 'I don't want to fight with his sisters and his cousins and his aunts. I don't care if they get the money. What difference does it make?'
'I don't know.'
'I have more money than I'll ever have time to spend. Time is worth more to me than money, and I don't want to spend it in courtrooms and lawyers' offices. You can understand that, can't you?'
'Of course I can.'
'It may seem cavalier of me, but-'
'No,' I said. 'I don't think so.'
AT five-thirty that afternoon I went to a meeting in a Franciscan church around the corner from Penn Station. The crowd was an interesting mix of commuters in suits and low-bottom drunks in the early stages of recovery. Neither element seemed at all uncomfortable with the other.
During the discussion I raised my hand and said, 'I've felt like drinking all day today. I'm in a situation that I can't do anything about and it feels as though I ought to be able to. I already did everything I could and everybody else is perfectly happy with the results, but I'm an alcoholic and I want everything to be perfect and it never is.'
I went back to the hotel and there were two messages, both that TJ had called. I didn't have a number for him. I walked over to Armstrong's and had a bowl of the black bean chili, then caught the eight-thirty step meeting at St. Paul 's. We were on the Second Step, the one about coming to believe in the capacity of a power greater than ourselves to restore us to sanity. When it was my turn to say something I said, 'My name is Matt and I'm an alcoholic, and all I know about my Higher Power is he works in mysterious ways his wonders to perform.' I was sitting next to Jim Faber, and he whispered to me that if the detective business went to hell I could always get a job writing fortune cookies.
Another member, a woman named Jane, said, 'If a normal person gets up in the morning and his car's got a flat tire, he calls Triple A. An alcoholic calls Suicide Prevention League.'
Jim nudged me significantly in the ribs.
'It can't possibly apply to me,' I told him. 'I haven't even got a car.'
WHEN I got back to the hotel there was another message from TJ and still no way to get in touch with him. I showered and went to bed, and I was starting to doze off when the phone rang.
'You hard to reach,' he said.
