Fractured

Amanda suggested, 'Why don't we talk about this?' She indicated the long hallway before them, the skanky set of windows overlooking the railroad trellis.

Paul looked back and forth between his father-in-law and Amanda. He nodded once, then walked down the hallway with them. No one talked until they were far away enough not to be heard.

Will tried not to feel completely emasculated as he watched them-the child who wasn't allowed to sit at the adult table. As if to put a fine point on it, he noticed that he was standing right by the women's restroom. Will made himself look away, leaning his shoulder against the wall. Before he turned, he noticed that Paul's opening tactic was the usual one-he jabbed his finger in Amanda's face. Even from twenty feet away, Will could feel the tension his bluster created. There were just some people in the world who had to be the center of attention at all times. Paul was king of them.

Abigail said, 'He's not all bad.'

Will raised his eyebrows, his nose throbbing from the gesture. He realized he should stop feeling sorry for himself and take the opportunity to talk to Abigail Campano, whom he'd yet to find alone.

'I said some horrible things to him yesterday. Today. This morning.' She gave a faint smile. 'In the bathroom. In the driveway. In the car.'

'You're under a lot of pressure.'

'I've never been the type of person to strike out,' she said, though, to Will, yesterday's performance in the carriage house had seemed pretty natural. 'I think maybe I used to be. Maybe some time ago. It's all coming back to me now.'

She wasn't making much sense, but Will preferred talking to her rather than straining to hear the exchange between the adults. 'You just need to do what you can do to hold on. The press conference won't take long, and Amanda will handle everything.'

'Why am I here?' Her question was so straightforward that Will found himself unable to answer her. She continued, 'I'm not going to make a plea. You're not going to let me beg for the safe return of my daughter. Why is that?'

He did not tell her that if a sadist had her child, watching Abigail's pain might inspire him to get more creative with his victim. Even without that, Abigail proved every time she opened her mouth that she was unpredictable.

He told the woman a softer version of the truth. 'It's easier if you let Amanda do all the talking.'

'So they won't ask me about killing Adam?'

'Among other things.'

'Aren't they going to wonder why I'm not at home waiting for the second phone call?'

He gathered she was speaking more for herself than the members of the press. 'This is a very tense time-not just for us, but for whoever has Emma. We need the press to tone down the rhetoric. We don't need them running with some wild story, making up clues and chasing down crazy theories while we're trying to negotiate for Emma's return.'

She slowly nodded her head. 'What will it be like in there? In front of all those cameras?'

Excruciating, Will thought, but said, 'I'll be standing in the back of the room. Just look at me, okay?' She nodded, and he continued, 'There will be a lot of cameras flashing, lots of people asking questions. Just stare at me and try to ignore them. I'm kind of easy to pick out of a crowd.'

She didn't laugh at the joke. He noticed that she was holding her purse against her stomach. It was small, what he thought was called a clutch. Will had seen her closet, a spectacularly furnished room that was larger than his kitchen. There were evening gowns and designer labels and slinky high heels, but nothing in her wardrobe had appeared understated. He wondered if she had bought the outfit for the occasion, or borrowed it from a friend.

As if she could read his mind, she asked, 'Do I fit the part of the bereaved killer?'

Will had heard the news call her as much this morning. The reporters were having a field day with the savage-mother-protecting-her-daughter angle. The irony was too rich to pass up. 'You shouldn't watch television. At least until this is over.'

She opened her purse. He saw a tube of lipstick, a set of keys, and a bundle of photographs that she rested her fingers on but did not take out. Instead, she pulled a tissue from the bottom and used it to wipe her nose. 'How can I not watch? How can I not soak up every horrible thing that comes out of their mouths?'

Will did not know how he was expected to answer, so he said nothing.

One of Paul's ubiquitous 'fuck you's came from down the hallway. Whatever Amanda said was more of a murmur, but the tone sent out a chill that could be felt even from this distance.

Abigail said, 'I like your boss.'

'I'm glad.'

'She wrote my statement for me.'

Will knew this already. Amanda wouldn't have trusted the mother to prepare a plea for the return of her child. The semantics were too important. One wrong word could send the wrong message, then they would suddenly find themselves going from working a kidnapping to working a murder case.

'She doesn't lie to me,' Abigail said. 'Are you going to lie to me?'

'About what?'

'Are they going to ask me questions about Adam?'

'If they're any good at their jobs-yes. They'll try. But keep in mind, you're not here to answer questions. The reporters know the ground rules. That doesn't mean they'll necessarily follow them, but you have to. Don't let them bait you. Don't let them force you into a situation where you have to explain yourself, or where you say something that might later be used against you.'

'I killed him. In every sense of the word, I murdered him.'

'You probably shouldn't say that to a cop.'

'I used to be a lawyer,' she said. 'I know how this works.'

'How?'

'It all depends on how things go from now on, doesn't it? Whether or not you charge me. If Emma comes back in one piece, or if she's…' Abigail sniffed, wiping her nose again. 'If the newspapers are with me, if they paint me as some kind of cold-blooded killer, if the parents push for prosecution…so many ifs.'

Will assured her, 'I'm not going to charge you with anything.'

Abigail indicated Amanda. 'She might.'

Will admitted to himself that the woman had a point. 'It's not my place to advise you, but you're not going to do yourself any favors talking like this.'

'He was just a child. He had his whole life in front of him.' She pressed her lips together, taking a moment to gather her thoughts. 'Think of all the things I took from him-from his parents. There's nothing for them now. Just eighteen years, then nothing.'

Will wasn't sure what he would be saying in her place, but he found himself wondering if Abigail was focusing so much on Adam Humphrey because the alternative-focusing on the fate of her own daughter-was too much to bear.

She asked, 'What should I say when the reporters ask me about Adam?'

'Nothing,' he told her. 'We told them from the start that they're only supposed to direct their questions to Amanda. They won't do that, of course, but you don't have to talk to them.'

'What if I want to?'

'What would you say?' Will asked. 'Because if it's the things you just told me, I can tell you right now that they'll have you nailed to a cross by nightfall.' He added, 'If you want to punish yourself for what happened to Adam Humphrey, then take some pills or try experimenting with heroin. You'll be much better off than throwing yourself onto the mercy of the press.'

'You are honest.'

'I guess I am,' Will admitted. 'Save yourself for Emma. If you can't be strong for yourself, then be strong for her.'

'I'm so sick of people telling me to be strong.'

Will wondered what else could be said-be weak? Fall on the floor? Rend your clothes? Wail? All of these things seemed like obvious reactions that a normal person might have, but they certainly wouldn't play well for the