CHAPTER 9
LATER THAT NIGHT Michelle lay on the bunk in her room, the rancid grub they called Salisbury steak burning a hole in her belly. Since she was in here on a voluntary basis, her movements were fairly unrestricted and she was leaning toward a walk over hugging the toilet. Not all patients here had such liberty. There was a separate ward, locked down and patrolled by guards, that housed involuntarily committed patients who were deemed to be violent. Michelle had heard some staffers refer to it as the “Cuckoo’s Nest.”
The door opened and her roommate, Cheryl, walked in; last names were not used here. Cheryl was grossly underweight, about forty-five, with ringlets of graying hair plastered against her gaunt face. She carried a drinking straw with her and constantly sucked on it. Michelle didn’t know exactly why Cheryl was in here, but assumed anorexia figured in somehow.
Cheryl collapsed on her bunk and started sucking on the damn straw.
It’s no wonder I keep having nightmares, Michelle thought. Great, big sucking beasts coming after me in bed.
“How’s it going, Cheryl?”
The sucking sound stopped for an instant and then started again.
Michelle started pacing. She wanted to call Sean, but what would she say? I’m sorry about the whole bar thing. Come get me, I’m fine now.
In desperation she turned to Cheryl. “That steak was something, wasn’t it? Feels like I’ve got a tire in my gut.”
Cheryl turned away from her and started sucking louder.
Michelle gave up and headed to the small workout area. For obvious safety reasons all exercise equipment was locked up when it was not being used. However, a large rubber ball had been left out. Michelle used it to work her abs and legs. That took thirty minutes and it felt good to use her muscles again. Yet she still had the rest of the night to kill, and she wasn’t sleepy.
She walked back down the hallway, passing two other patients dressed in scrubs and blue slippers accompanied by a nurse. On another of the corridors one of the burly attendants passed her and stopped. “You need any help, Michelle?”
He was a muscle-bound six-footer running to fat in his fifties with close-cropped blond hair and three gold chains visible from under his green scrub V-shirt. His nameplate read, “Barry.”
The way he asked she didn’t like, but maybe it was just her bad attitude. Then he touched her elbow and his intentions became clearer with just the feel of his fingers against her skin. “You need help back to your room maybe?”
She pulled her arm away. “It’s not that big a place. I can find it.” She strode off, but could feel his gaze burning into her. She whipped her head around and caught him smiling at her.
She hurried back to her room. Cheryl was still sucking on her straw. Michelle lay on her bunk, staring at the door. There were no locks on the rooms, so patients couldn’t barricade themselves in. But it also meant that you couldn’t stop others from coming in, like Barry.
An hour later the lights went dark and still Michelle did not close her eyes. She was waiting for footsteps, stealthy and motivated by evil purpose. Around one in the morning she finally told herself, “He just touched your arm, for God’s sake, and made a suggestive comment.” Was she adding paranoia to her other issues? No, she told herself, I don’t have
At two in the morning she was awakened by footsteps passing down the hallway. She slowly sat up and checked Cheryl’s bed, but the straw sucker was dead asleep. Michelle slipped the covers off and put on her tennis shoes. A moment later she was out in the corridor. At night there was a reduced number of staff on duty and the rental guard had a lot of ground to cover and not a lot of motivation to do it.
She followed the sounds of the footsteps down another corridor. Michelle heard a door open and then close. She crept closer, straining to hear something. Then she froze. She’d heard another sound, but this one was
An instant later, coming around the corner was Barry, the gold chain attendant. He strode right past Michelle’s hiding place in the darkened hall. As soon as it was safe, Michelle ran back to her room.
CHAPTER 10
THE NEXT MORNING MICHELLE RETURNED to that part of the building. Two things caught her eye: the lovely, well-dressed lady who was being wheeled out of her room by a nurse; and the pharmacy at the end of the hall.
Later that afternoon, Michelle had her session with Horatio.
“No more nightmares last night?” Horatio asked.
“No, it was really peaceful. There’s a woman in a wheelchair in a room at the end of the patient corridor on the east wing?”
Horatio looked up from his notes. “Yes, what about her?”
“Who is she?”
“She’s not one of my patients. But if she were, I couldn’t tell you anything about her. Patient confidentiality, you understand. That’s why I don’t talk to anyone else about
“But you do to Sean. Talk about me, I mean.”
“Only because you signed that release.”
“Can you at least tell me why she’s in a wheelchair? That’s not mental, right?”
“It certainly could be. But as I said, she’s not my patient. Why do you want to know?”
“Just curious. There’s not a lot to hold one’s attention around here.”
“Well, I’ll give you something. How about we focus on getting you better?”
“Okay, what’s on the menu today?”
“Not Salisbury steak, but the spaghetti isn’t much better. Now yesterday we finished up with your thinking about why you’re here. What conclusions did you draw?”
“Not many, I’ve been busy.”
“Busy? Really? I thought you just said you were bored?”
“Okay, I’m here because I want to get better.”
“Are you just saying that or do you mean it?”
“I don’t know, which answer do you want?”
“I can play games with the best of them, Michelle, but it does waste a lot of time.”
“Is that what you’ve been telling Sean, that I’m wasting his time, and his
“And does that matter to you?”
“I know he’s trying to help me. He’s a good guy. It’s just…”
“Just what?”
“I think he could probably spend his time and money better elsewhere, that’s all.”
“Meaning you’d rather he abandoned you to your fate? You going melodramatic on me? Do I have to add that to the list of weird shit to look out for in you?” Horatio’s smile managed to defuse this comment.
Michelle studied the floor for a few moments.
“Do you think
“Of course. We went through some pretty dangerous things together.”
“He told me you saved his life, more than once in fact.”
“He did the same for me,” she said quickly.
“If you know Sean so well you have to realize that he’s not going to walk away from you.”
“All I’m doing right now is holding him back.”
