EVEN VAMPIRES GET THE BLUES

He nodded.

'Gotcha. What are the steps?'

We moved forward another car length. Outside the car, the hum of idling traffic made a dull background to the excited chatter of bystanders watching from behind the yellow accident tape. 'The first step is the marking.'

'Right. Finn said that could be a psychic thing?'

'The second step,' Paen said, ignoring my comment, 'is protection from afar.'

'Hmm.' I tapped my chin. 'That sounds very chivalrous. Kind of like you were watching out for someone when she needed you?'

'Possibly,' he allowed.

'So I'm two for two, then.'

He turned to give me a look that by rights should have sent me screaming. I just wanted to kiss him again, instead. 'How do you reckon that?'

'You pulled me back when Pilar was threatening me while I was astralling the first time. That's protection from afar.'

'Of a sort, and it was purely unintentional.'

I laughed. 'Don't sound so grumpy about it. You did pull me out of a bad situation, and I'm grateful for it. What's the third step?'

'The first exchange. And before you ask, that means an exchange of body fluids.'

'Ew,' I said, wrinkling my nose. 'Oh, wait. Does French kissing qualify as an exchange?'

'Yes,' he said, his jaw tight.

'Three down, how many left?'

'There are seven steps altogether, and those first three are just coincidences, no more.'

'Fourth?' I asked, watching as an aid car pulled out with its sirens and lights screaming a warning.

'Fourth is the Dark One giving the Beloved the means to destroy him.'

'Hmm,' I said, tapping my chin again as I eyed him. 'Like giving her a stake or something?'

He didn't answer, just tightened his jaw even more.

'Or could it be something as simple as telling her enough information about him that she could use it to bring about his destruction if she so desired?'

'You can't destroy me,' he said, not answering the question.

'Wanna bet? I'm willing to wager that if I don't find that statue and your mom loses her soul, you'd be pretty destroyed.'

He didn't say anything to that, either.

'Paen—' I leaned over until he made eye contact. 'I will find it, don't worry. I'm not going to let your mom lose her soul.'

He nodded abruptly.

'This is like pulling teeth, so we might as well get the worst over with. What are the fifth and sixth steps?' I asked as I resumed my seat.

'A second exchange, and help in overcoming his darker self.'

'Hmm. Second body fluid exchange, check. But overcoming your darker self… hmmm.'

'As you now see, you have accomplished some of the steps, but not all of them,' he said, moving forward another car space.

I don't know about that—I'm thinking that overcoming your darker self can mean a lot of things.

Such as?

Well, admitting someone into a previously-held-private area of your life.

I could feel him frown as he thought about that. In what way do you think I've allowed you further than any other woman I've had sex with?

How many of them did you mind-talk with?

He withdrew—not physically, but mentally—but before he did I got a sense of shock as he realized the truth.

'So that's five and six done. One's left, right? What's that?'

Deep within him, emotions warred so strongly I felt them even with a few feet between us. 'The seventh step is an exchange of blood.'

'Blood, huh? I'm not into that, but I suppose if it doesn't have to be a bloodfest, I could tolerate it. Let's do it.'

He gave me a look like I'd just suggested he strip naked and dance on the roof of the car. 'You can't be serious.'

'Sure I am. If it will get you back your soul, then it would be worth it to me to put up with a little blood.'

'You have no idea what you're saying,' he sputtered.

'In fact, I do. But according to you, I'm not your Beloved, so it shouldn't matter. I think. What happens if we do the seventh step and I'm not your Beloved?'

'Nothing happens, but you aren't—' he started to say.

I took his hand and pulled off my jacket the Celtic cross brooch my mother had given me for Easter. Before waiting for him to protest, I jabbed the tip of his finger with the pin, taking the end of his finger into my mouth to suck off the bead of blood that appeared there.

'Sam, no!' he yelled as I wrinkled my nose at the coppery taste of blood.

'Seventh step,' I said, putting my thumb over the spot on his finger to stop the bleeding. I squinted at him, surprised to see that nothing looked different about him. 'Um. Does it take a while for your soul to come back?'

'It would be instantaneous if you were my Beloved,' he said, pulling his hand back.

'Oh. Rats.'

'Rats?' he asked, looking a bit surprised. I didn't blame him—I felt a bit surprised by my disappointment that I hadn't turned out to be his Beloved after all.

'Yeah. I'm sorry I couldn't help you. I really thought I could.'

The silver light in his eyes narrowed. 'You want to become my Beloved?'

'No, not really.' Pain flashed over his face so quickly I wasn't sure if I really saw it or was projecting. 'That is, I want to help you. I like you, Paen. I like you a lot. I know you pooh-pooh any sort of emotional attachment in your lovers, but some level of it is important to me. I care about you. And I'd like for you to have a soul. So in that sense, yes, I was willing to be your Beloved in order to do that. But if you're asking if I'm madly in love with you…' I bit my lip.

'Well?' he asked, trying not to look interested but failing badly. Evidently he realized that as well because he gave up the pretence. 'Are you madly in love with me?'

'I am not head over heels in love with you, no,' I said carefully, honesty being one of my rules. I avoided thinking about the fact that chances were good I was soon going to be in that state.

'Ah.' Deep within him, for just a second or two, disappointment added to the blackness that threatened to engulf him. 'That's good. I'm not in love with you, either. But as for the other… er… I like you as well.'

'Right. So we're both on the same channel, then.' Ahead of us, the cop waved the car in front and us through the intersection. Paen shifted, a tiny frown pulling his eyebrows together.

'Exactly.'

'And I'm not your Beloved.'

He was silent for a second longer than I thought he would be. 'That's correct.'

'Sorry about stabbing your finger.'

He made a little gesture waving it away. 'It's nothing.'

Silence filled the car as we made our way down Princes Street and turned onto the street where my office was located. I directed him to the loading zone spot along the side that Mila had told us we could use.

'You sit tight and I'll go unlock the side door,' I said, pointing to the unmarked door along the side of the building. 'It's faster than going in the front way, and if you run, you shouldn't get too much more sun.'