Paen sucked in his breath, releasing me to lunge for Caspar, but the god of death leaped aside, holding the manuscript tightly. Behind him, Finn slashed through a couple of demons obviously intent on reaching Caspar, but it was no good.
'Now you will suffer as you have made me suffer,' Caspar gloated, his body stretching into a thin, ribbony suggestion of a human. 'You too will spend an eternity in torment, and when at last you decide to end your own agony, I will be waiting for you!'
'No!' Paen shouted, throwing himself onto Caspar.
Eerie, high-pitched, evil laughter was all that remained as Caspar succumbed to the inevitable and was pulled back into his domain in hell, taking the manuscript with him. The demons suddenly vanished, leaving the ghosts and extras fighting nothing more substantial than air. They all froze, and for a moment, there wasn't a sound.
'Dude!' a voice said in awestruck amazement.
'Did you get that?' a second voice asked.
'Er… get the big guy in the ugly costume and all those little brown guys disappearing?'
'Yeah.'
'I got it, but no one is going to believe it.'
Paen helped me to my feet, being careful to avoid jarring my arm.
The howling wind inside me seemed a horrible parody of Caspar's mocking laughter. Pain twisted deep within, pain and despair and hopelessness.
'He's gone?' Finn asked, covered in black demon blood, panting as he stopped to help Clare over a gore- splattered stone.
'Ew,' she said, prodding Pilar's detached arm. 'That's just gross. So, we won?'
Two fat tears rolled down my cheeks. Paen pulled me up to his chest, but not even the lovely glow of his soul could warm me now. 'I'm cold,' I told him.
'I know, sweetheart. We'll get it back. If I have to go to hell myself, we'll get it back.'
'Get what back?' Clare asked, her brow furrowed. 'I thought we won.'
I wrapped my good arm around Paen and held him tight, allowing him to pour into me all his love and warmth and everything that he was, but it wasn't enough. Sharp fingers of despair kept me tight in their icy grip.
'The
'Oh, the manuscript that's supposed to tell Sam how to get her soul back? But I thought that wasn't a sure thing?'
'It isn't…' Paen said, stopping before he could complete the sentence, his arms tightening around me.
I did the job for him. 'But it was the only chance we had.'
'Non-deities have such linear thinking,' Pilar said, leaping over a few rocks to land a few feet away, Beppo clinging to his shoulder.
I wondered for a moment why I wasn't surprised to see Pilar wasn't affected in the least by losing an arm— then I realized I didn't feel anything inside that wasn't an all-consuming hopelessness.
'He does not have the
Paen lifted his head from mine to look at Pilar, his beautiful eyes stark with loathing. 'I will destroy you. I don't know how, but this I swear—I will destroy you for what you've put us through… for what you've done to Sam.'
Not even the fact that Paen would undertake such an impossible task warmed me. I shivered, wondering if I would ever be warm again, and leaned into Paen, too exhausted even to think.
'She's diminishing,' I heard Clare's voice say. The words were familiar, but they didn't seem to have meaning to me anymore. My focus was on the tornado of misery that ripped through me. 'My aunt said something once about elves who diminish. They just sort of fade away until they are no more.'
Paen's words seemed to come from a long way away. I examined them, holding them, wondering why such beautiful words should mean nothing to me anymore.
The pain washed over me.
There was no sense fighting it.
My ending had been written. How ironic that it would happen now when I had found the one person I was ready to give up everything for.
'Can't you do something to stop it?' Clare asked, her voice thick with tears.
Pilar sighed, his voice as distant as everyone else's. 'I've always found elves to be so melodramatic, but since she did stop you from slaying my mortal form, I will return the favor.'
'You've done enough already,' Paen snarled.
'Not yet, but I'm about to. This will accord us without debt on either side,' Pilar said.
'What—'
I was ripped from Paen's side, yanked without ceremony from my existence to another one, a world filled with drifting souls and beings which had been caught there.
'Behold the Akashic Plain,' a familiar voice said behind me.
Epilogue
'You already talked to him—why do you need to talk to him again?' I held the phone away from my ear for a second. 'No, he's not going to change his mind. He's not that kind of man, and besides, he can't. I'm his Beloved. He can't impregnate me and leave me for someone else. Well, OK, he
My mother, never one to keep feelings to herself, unburdened herself of several items, up to and including the likelihood that the elf side of my family would look down on Paen because of his dark origins. 'Like I care what they think?' I flinched at the barrage that followed that statement. 'Sorry. Yes. Yes, I hear you. Yes, yes, yes. Huh? Of course we're going to get married! I don't know about Clare—she and Finn seem to be pretty tight. More than her usual boyfriends. I think they may be getting serious. We'll just have to see how that goes.'
Outside, traffic hummed along merrily in another gloriously sunny—AKA rare—May day.
'No, you can't talk to him again, you've talked to him three times already today. Someone finally tracked down his parents, so he's telling them everything that's been happening. Yes, you'll meet them. Yes, they're nice. Mom—' I sighed and prayed for patience. 'No, I won't let his mother help me pick out a wedding dress, OK? I have to go. No, now is not a good time to look into ear reconstruction surgery—I'm happy with my ears! Paen likes them, too. No… no… it's not a matter of money, I just don't want them re-elfed! Look, I really, really have to… Mom… Mom, Paen is stark naked with an erection that could bring down buildings, and he's calling for me. Gotta run! Love to you and Dad.
I clicked off the phone to the sound of my mother sputtering indignantly, rubbing my ear in an attempt to get feeling back into it as I leaned against the wall and stretched. I knew my mother was going to be excited by the news that I was now immortal (something she had been fretting over ever since I had my ears bobbed), and madly