of glasses and the murmur of conversation intruded. 'I'm doing okay,' he said. 'I'm doing good. I slept really well last night.'
'That's great.' Why in hell didn't you tell my ley line practice I was waking you up? You could have been sleeping well here, too.
'How are you doing?' he asked.
My jaw hurt, and I forced my teeth apart. I'm confused. I'm hurt. I don't know what you want. I don't know what I want. 'Fine,' I said, thinking of Kisten. At least I knew what he wanted. 'I'm fine.' My throat hurt. 'Want me to get your mail, or will you be home soon?'
'I've got a neighbor picking it up. But thanks.'
You didn't answer my question. 'Okay. Do you know if you'll be back by the solstice, or should I give your ticket to…someone else?' I hadn't meant to hesitate. It just happened. It was obvious Nick had heard it, too, given his silence. A seagull cried in the background. He was on a beach? He was at a bar on a beach and I was dodging black charms in cold slush?
'Why don't you do that,' he said finally, and I felt as if someone punched me in the gut. 'I don't know how long I'm going to be here.'
'Sure,' I whispered.
'I miss you, Rachel,' he said, and I closed my eyes.
Please don't say it, I thought. Please.
'But I'm feeling much better. I'll be home soon.'
It was exactly what Jenks had told me he would say, and my throat closed up. 'I miss you, too,' I said, feeling betrayed and lost all over again. He said nothing, and after three heartbeats, I stepped into the breach. 'Well, Ivy and I are going shopping. She's in the car.'
'Oh.' He sounded relieved, the bastard. 'I won't keep you. Um, I'll talk to you later.'
Liar. 'All right. 'Bye.'
'I love you, Rachel,' he whispered, but I hung up as if I hadn't heard. I didn't know if I could answer him anymore. Miserable, I pulled my hand from the receiver. My red nail polish looked bright against the black plastic. My fingers were trembling and my head hurt.
'Then why did you leave instead of telling me what's wrong?' I asked the empty room.
I exhaled with a measured slowness to try to wash the tension from me. I was going shopping with Ivy. I wouldn't ruin it by brooding about Nick. He was gone. He wasn't coming back. He felt better when he was a time zone away from me; why would he come back?
Hitching my bag higher up my shoulder, I headed for the front. The pixies were still clustered at the windows in small knots. Jenks was somewhere else, for which I was grateful. He'd only tell me 'I told you so' if he had heard my conversation with Nick.
'Jenks! You have command of the ship!' I shouted as I opened the front door, and a smile, faint but real, crossed me when a piercing whistle emanated from my desk.
Ivy was in the car already, and my eyes were drawn across the street to Keasley's house, pulled by the sound of kids and a dog barking. My steps slowed. Ceri was in his yard, wearing the jeans I had dropped off earlier and an old coat of Ivy's. Bright red mittens and a matching hat made a vivid splash against the snow as she and about six kids ranging from ten to eighteen rolled snowballs around. A mountain was taking shape in the corner of Keasley's small lot. Next door were four more kids doing the same. It looked like there was going to be a snowball fight before too much longer.
I waved to Ceri, then Keasley—who was standing on his porch watching with an intent hunch that told me he'd like to be down there, too. Both of them waved back, and I felt warm. I'd done something good.
I lifted the door latch of Ivy's borrowed Mercedes, slipping in to find it still blowing cold air from the vents. It took forever for the big four-door sedan to warm up. I knew Ivy didn't like driving it, but her mother wouldn't lend her anything else and a cycle in slush was asking for stitches. 'Who was it?' Ivy asked as I angled the vent off me and buckled myself in. Ivy drove as if she couldn't be killed, which I thought was a little ironic.
'Nobody.'
She gave me a telling look. 'Nick?'
Lips pressed together, I set my bag on my lap. 'Like I said, nobody.'
Not looking behind her, Ivy pulled away from the curb. 'Rachel, I'm sorry.'
The sincerity in her gray silk voice pulled my head up. 'I thought you hated Nick.'
'I do,' she said, not at all apologetic. 'I think he's manipulative and withholds information that might get you hurt. But you liked him. Maybe…' She hesitated, her jaw tightening and relaxing. 'Maybe he's coming back. He does…love you.' She made an ugly sound. 'Oh God, you made me say it.'
I laughed. 'Nick isn't that bad,' I said, and she turned to me. My eyes flicked to the truck we were about to rear-end at a stoplight, and I braced myself against the dash.
'I said he loved you. I didn't say he trusted you,' she said, her eyes on me as she braked smoothly to a halt ending with our grille six inches from his bumper.
My stomach clenched. 'You don't think he trusts me?'
'Rachel,' she cajoled, inching forward as the light changed but the truck didn't move. 'He leaves town without telling you? Then doesn't tell you when he's coming back? I don't think someone has come between you, I think some-thing has. You scared the hell out of him, and he's not enough of a man to admit it, deal with it, and get over it.'
I said nothing, glad when we started moving again. I hadn't just scared him, I had made him seize. It must have been awful. No wonder he left. Great, now I'd feel guilty all day.
Ivy jerked the wheel and shifted lanes. A horn blew, and she eyed the driver in the rearview mirror. Slowly the car put space between us, pushed back by the force of her gaze. 'Do you mind if we stop at my folks' house for a minute? It's on the way.'
'Sure.' I stifled a gasp when she cut a right in front of the truck we'd just passed. 'Ivy, you may have lightning reflexes, but the guy driving that truck just had kittens.'
She snorted, dropping back two whole feet off the bumper of the car now ahead of us.
Ivy made an obvious effort to drive normally through the busier areas of the Hollows, and slowly I relaxed my death grip on my bag. It was the first time we'd been together and away from Jenks in about a week, and neither one of us knew what to get him for the solstice. Ivy was tending to the heated doghouse she had seen in a catalog; anything to get him and his brood out of the church. I'd settle for a lockbox we could cover with a rug and pretend was an end table.
As Ivy drove, slowly the yards grew larger and the trees taller. The houses began moving back from the street until only their roofs showed from behind stands of evergreens. We were just inside the city limits, right next to the river. It really wasn't on the way to the mall, but the interstate wasn't far, and with that, the city was wide- open.
Ivy pulled unhesitatingly into a gated drive. Twin tracks made a black trail on the dusting of snow that had fallen since it had been plowed. I leaned to look out the window, never having seen her parents' house. The car slowed to a halt before an old, romantic-looking three-story home painted white with hunter green shutters. A little red twoseater was parked out front, dry and free of snow.
'You grew up here?' I asked as I got out. The two names on the mailbox gave me pause until I remembered vampires maintained their names after marriage to keep living blood-lines intact. Ivy was a Tamwood, her sister was a Randal.
Ivy slammed her door and dropped her keys into her black purse. 'Yeah.' She looked to holiday lights making a tasteful, subdued display. It was getting dusky. The sun was only about an hour from setting, and I was hoping we would be gone before then. I didn't particularly want to meet her mom.
'Come on in,' she said, her boots thumping on the brushed steps, and I followed her onto the covered porch. She opened the door, shouting, 'Hi! I'm home!'
A smile curved over me as I hesitated just outside to stomp the snow off. I liked hearing her voice so relaxed. Coming inside, I shut the door and breathed deeply. Cloves and cinnamon—someone had been baking.
The large entryway was all varnished wood and subtle shades of cream and white. It was as stark and elegant as our living room was warm and casual. A runner of cedar bough made graceful loops up the railing of the nearby stairway. It was warm, and I unbuttoned my coat and stuffed my gloves in the pockets.
