'Poor thing, poor thing,' she whispered, then turned back to the car and rummaged in a back seat, came up with a short-waisted Levi's jacket and held it out to me.
I ducked my head and took the jacket. She gasped when I dropped my arms from my chest. I wrapped up in the jacket, which was roomy, but not long enough to cover my crotch. Then again, from the outside, my crotch didn't look so bad. I turned the collar up to cover my neck and the lower part of my face. 'Thank you,' I said.
Her eyes were wide, her broad face pale under her tan. 'You need help,' she said. 'Hospital? Police?'
'Seattle,' I said.
'Medical attention!'
'Won't help me now.' I shrugged.
'You could get infections, die from septicemia or something. I have a first aid kit in the car. At least let me —'
'What would help me,' I said, 'is a mirror.'
She sighed, her shoulders lowering. She walked around the car and opened the passenger side door, and I followed her. I looked at the seat. It was so clean, and I was still goofer dusted. 'Gonna get it dirty,' I said.
'Lord, that's the last thing on my mind right now,' she said. 'Get in. Mirror's on the back of the visor.'
I slid in and folded down the visor, sighed with relief when I saw my face. Nothing really wrong with it, except my chin was nearer to my nose than it should be, and my lips looked too dark and puffy. My eyes weren't blackened and my nose wasn't broken. I could pass. I gapped the collar just a little and winced at the angry dark rope marks around my neck, then clutched the collar closed.
The woman climbed into the driver's seat. 'My name's Marti,' she said, holding out a hand. Still keeping the coat closed with my left hand, I extended my right, and she shook it.
'Sheila,' I said. It was the first time I'd ever said it out loud. She. La. Two words for woman put together. I smiled, then glanced quickly at the mirror, and saw that a smile was as bad as I'd thought. My mouth was a graveyard of broken teeth, brown with old blood. I hid my mouth with my hand again.
'Christ!' said Marti. 'What's your boyfriend's name?'
'Don't worry about it,' I said.
'If he did that to you, he could do it to others. My daughter lives in Renton. This has to be reported to the police. Who is he? Where does he live?'
'Near Sea-Tac. The airport.'
She took a deep breath, let it out. 'You understand, don't you, this is a matter for the authorities?'
I shook my head. The heat in my chest was scorching, urging me on. 'I have to go to town now,' I said, gripping the door handle.
'Put your seat belt on,' she said, slammed her door, and started the car.
Once she got started, she was some ball-of-fire driver. Scared me—even though there wasn't anything I could think of that could hurt me.
'Where were we, anyway?' I asked after I got used to her tire-squealing cornering on curves.
'Well, I was coming down from Kanaskat. I'm on my way in to Renton to see my daughter. She's got a belly- dance recital tonight, and—' She stared at me, then shook her head and focused on the road.
The land was leveling a little. We hit a main road, Highway 169, and she turned north on it.
The burning in my chest raged up into my throat. 'No,' I said, reaching for her hand on the steering wheel.
'What?'
'No. That way.' I pointed back to the other road we had been on. Actually the urge inside me was pulling from some direction between the two roads, but the smaller road aimed closer to where I had to go.
'Maple Valley's this way,' she said, not turning, 'and we can talk to the police there, and a doctor.'
'No,' I said.
She looked at me. 'You're in no state to make rational decisions,' she said.
I closed my hand around her wrist and squeezed. She cried out. She let go of the steering wheel and tried to shake off my grip. I stared at her and held on, remembering my grand-mere's tales of the strength of the dead.
'Stop,' I said. I felt strange, totally strange, ordering a woman around the way a pimp would. I knew I was hurting her, too. I knew I could squeeze harder, break the bones in her arm, and I was ready to, but she pulled the car over to the shoulder and stamped on the brake.
'I got to go to Sea-Tac,' I said. I released her arm and climbed out of the car. 'Thanks for ride. You want the jacket back?' I fingered the denim.
'My Lord,' she said, 'you keep it, child.' She was rubbing her hand over the wrist I had gripped. She heaved a huge sigh. 'Get in. I'll take you where you want to go. I can't just leave you here.'
'Your daughter's show?' I said.
'I'll phone. We're going someplace with phones, aren't we?'
I wasn't sure exactly where we would end up. I would know when we arrived . . . . I remembered the inside of Richie's apartment. But that was later. First he had pulled up next to where I was standing by the highway, rolled down the passenger window of his big gold four-door Buick, said he'd like to party and that he knew a good place. Standard lines, except I usually told johns the place, down one of the side streets and in the driveway behind an abandoned house. I had asked him how high he was willing to go. My pimp had been offering me coke off and on but I'd managed not to get hooked, so I was still a little picky about who I went with; but Richie looked clean-cut and just plain clean, and his car was a couple years old but expensive; I thought he might have money.
'I want it all,' Richie had said. 'I'll give you a hundred bucks.'
I climbed into his car.
He took me down off the ridge where the Sea-Tac Strip is to a place like the one where I usually took my tricks, behind one of the abandoned houses near the airport that are due to be razed someday. There's two or three neighborhoods of them handy. I asked him for money and he handed me a hundred, so I got in back with him, but then things went seriously wrong. That was the first time I saw and felt his rope, the first time I heard his voice cursing me, the first time I tasted one of his sweaty socks, not the worst thing I'd ever tasted, but close.
When he had me gagged and tied up and shoved down on the back seat floor, he drove somewhere else. I couldn't tell how long the drive was; it felt like two hours but was probably only fifteen or twenty minutes. I could tell when the car drove into a parking garage because the sounds changed. He put a shopping bag over my head and carried me into an elevator, again something I could tell by feel, and then along a hall to his apartment. That was where I learned more about him than I had ever wanted to know about anybody.
I didn't know his apartment's address, but I knew where Richie was. If he was at the apartment, I would direct Marti there even without a map. The fire inside me reached for Richie like a magnet lusting for a hammer.
Shaping words carefully, I told Marti, 'Going to the Strip. Plenty of phones.'
'Right,' she said.
'On the other road.' I pointed behind us.
She sighed. 'Get in.'
I climbed into the car, and she waited for an RV to pass, then pulled out and turned around.
As soon as we were heading the way I wanted to go, the fire inside me cooled a little. I sat back and relaxed.
'Why are we going to the—to the Strip?' she asked. 'What are you going to do when we get there?'
'Don't know,' I said. We were driving toward the sun, which was going down. Glare had bothered me before my death, but now it was like dirt in my eyes, a minor annoyance. I blinked and considered this, then shrugged it off.
'Can't you even tell me your boyfriend's name?' she asked.
'Richie.'
'Richie what?'
'Don't know.'
'Are you going back to him?'
Fire rose in my throat like vomit. I felt like I could breathe it out and it would feel good. It felt good inside my belly already. I was drunk with it. 'Oh, yes,' I said.
