'We did it for the wrong reasons,' Ari said. 'We expected things to happen that didn't happen. Paradise, and, like, virgins.' Ari looked shyly down at his decaying feet. 'I'm sorry.'
'More,' Rusty said. 'Tell them more.'
'Dying hurts,' said Ari. 'It won't make you happy. It won't make anybody happy.'
'So please do the right thing,' said Rusty. 'Don't kill anybody else.'
The man with the quiet voice let out a howl and leaped toward Rusty. He grabbed Rusty's free arm, the right one, and pulled; the arm came off, and the man with the quiet voice started hitting Rusty over the head with it. 'You fucking incompetent! You traitor! You said you'd tell them—'
'I said I'd do the right thing,' Rusty said. 'I never said my version of the right thing was the same as yours.'
'You lied!'
'No, I didn't. I misled you, but I told the truth. What are you going to do, kill me?' He looked out at the crowd and said, 'We're the dead. You loved some of us. You hated others. We're the dead. We're here to tell you: please don't kill anybody else. Everybody will be dead soon enough, whether you kill them or not. It hurts.'
The crowd stared; the cameras whirred. None of the living there that day had ever heard such long speeches from the dead. It was truly a historic occasion. A group of aides had managed to drag away the man with the quiet voice, who was still brandishing Rusty's arm; Rusty, with his one arm, stood at the podium with Ari.
'Look,' Rusty said. He let go of Ari's hand and reached around to pull the paperweight out of his pocket. He held it up in front of the crowd. Ari cooed and reached for it, entranced, but Rusty held it above his head. 'Look at this! Look at the shiny glass. Look at the flower. It's beautiful. You have all this stuff in your life, all this beautiful stuff. Sunshine and grass and butterflies. Barrettes. Bandanas. You don't have that when you're dead. That's why dying hurts.'
And Rusty shivered, and remembered: he remembered dying, knowing he'd never see trees again, never drink coffee, never smell flowers or see buildings reflected in windows. He remembered that pain, the pain of knowing what he was losing only when it was too late. And he knew that the living wouldn't understand, couldn't understand. Or maybe some of them did, but the others would only make fun of them. He finished his speech lamely, miserably, knowing that everyone would say it was just a cliche. 'Enjoy the beautiful stuff while you have it.'
The woman who had heckled the man with the quiet voice was frowning. 'You're advocating greed! That's what gets people killed. People murder each other for stuff!'
'No,' Rusty said. He was exhausted. She didn't understand. She'd probably never understand unless she died and got revived. 'Just enjoy it. Look at it. Don't fight. You don't get it, do you?'
'No,' she said. 'I don't.'
Rusty shrugged. He was too tired; he couldn't keep his focus anymore. He no longer cared if the woman got it or not. The man with the quiet voice had been taken away, and Rusty had done what he had wanted to do, although it seemed much less important now than it had even a month ago, when he was first revived. He remembered, dimly, that no one had ever managed to teach the living anything much. Some of them might get it. He'd done what he could. He'd told them what mattered.
His attention wandered away from the woman, away from the crowd. He brought the paperweight back down to chest level, and then he sat down on the edge of the platform, and Ari sat with him, and they both stared at the paperweight, touching it, humming in happiness there in the sunshine.
The crowd watched them for a while, and then it wandered away, too. The other corpses had already wandered. The dead meandered through the beautiful budding park, all of them in love: one with a sparrow on the walk, one with a silk scarf a woman in the audience had given him, one with an empty, semicrushed milk carton she had plucked out of a trash can. The dead fell in love, and they walked or they sat, carrying what they loved or letting it hold them in place. They loved their beautiful stuff for the rest of the day, until the sun went down; and then they lay down too, their treasures beside them, and slept again, and this time did not wake.
Sex, Death And Starshine
by Clive BarkerClive Barker is probably best known as the writer and director of the
In addition to his work in Hollywood, he is the best-selling, award-winning author of many novels, such as
In
The zombies in the story that follows aren't quite the killing machines that Barker's quote suggests, but the relentlessness he implies with 'They just keep coming at you' is certainly present.
Diane ran her scented fingers through the two days' growth of ginger stubble on Terry's chin.
'I love it,' she said, 'even the grey bits.'
She loved everything about him, or at least that's what she claimed.
When he kissed her: I love it.
When he undressed her: I love it.
When he slid his briefs off: I love it, I love it, I love it.
She'd go down on him with such unalloyed enthusiasm, all he could do was watch the top of her ash-blonde head bobbing at his groin, and hope to God nobody chanced to walk into the dressing-room. She was a married woman, after all, even if she was an actress. He had a wife himself, somewhere. This tete-a-tete would make some juicy copy for one of the local rags, and here he was trying to garner a reputation as a serious-minded director; no gimmicks, no gossip; just art.
Then, even thoughts of ambition would be dissolved on her tongue, as she played havoc with his nerve- endings. She wasn't much of an actress, but by God she was quite a performer. Faultless technique; immaculate timing: she knew either by instinct or by rehearsal just when to pick up the rhythm and bring the whole scene to a satisfying conclusion.
When she'd finished milking the moment dry, he almost wanted to applaud.
The whole cast of Calloway's production of
But then La Duvall, as Edward insisted on calling her, didn't need to be a great player, she was famous. So what if she spoke Shakespeare like it was Hiawatha, dum de dum de dum de dum? So what if her grasp of psychology was dubious, her logic faulty, her projection inadequate? So what if she had as much sense of poetry as