No sound,
I can?t make a single sound?.
If I look back, I'm dead,
CHAPTER
60
?Penn?? Major McDavitt says in my headset.
?Yeah?? I jerk out of the nauseated doze into which four hours in a free-floating roller coaster have submerged me. Leaning forward and looking at the FLIR screen, I see that we?re flying along what looks like a one-lane road.
?We?re getting into a fuel situation. We?re into the reserve. My GPS is set to the airport, and we?re already going to be cutting it close. We need to get back and refuel.?
?Kelly?? I say. ?You seen anything??
?SOS, man. Sorry. We need the air cav for this job. A fleet of these bitches.?
?I'm willing to keep going,? says McDavitt, ?but we?ve got to be honest with ourselves. Without more specific intel, these are really long odds.?
I rub my eyes hard and try to see the larger picture, but exhaustion and airsickness are taking their toll. The only thing I can hold clearly in my mind is an image of Caitlin standing on her porch with her arms folded, the night we had our last talk. Remembering this, I try to imagine telling Annie that Caitlin was kidnapped and won'?t ever be coming back.
?Let?s refuel and keep going,? I say. ?I know it?s a lot to ask, but we all know what?s at stake.?
Nobody says anything.
?Am I being stupid? Is there no chance at all??
?Outside,? says McDavitt. ?But if it were my wife, I?d keep looking.?
?Carl?? I say.
?Keep going. All night if we gotta. If I?d kept my damned eyes open, she wouldn'?t ever have got took.?
?Forget that. You don'?t know that. Let?s head back to the airport and fill her up, Major.?
McDavitt starts to bank the chopper, but Kelly says, ?Hold up. I?'ve got something on the road.?
?What is it??
?Two legs, foot-mobile. Can you circle, Major??
McDavitt takes us into a slow revolution of the bright white human form on Kelly?s screen.
?Looks female to me,? Kelly says. ?We?re in Bumfuck, Egypt, too. Let?s set down and check it out.?
McDavitt descends rapidly, then touches the cyclic and flares at the last moment. As we settle gently onto the road, he puts the throttle into flight idle to conserve fuel.
?Where?d she go?? asks Carl. ?Did she run??
?There,? says McDavitt, pointing left of the cockpit. ?She?s running!?
?I'?ll get her,? says Kelly, opening the side door and leaping down to the pavement. I'm still trying to get my harness off when Kelly climbs back into the cockpit, shaking his head.
?Who was it?? I ask.
?A drunk. Black woman, about sixty-five. I offered her a ride, but she told me to get the hell off her driveway. She thought we were a UFO until I caught up to her.?
Carl settles back in his seat, obviously demoralized.
?Let?s take this bird back to the barn and gas up,? Kelly says. ?Caitlin?s still out there somewhere.?
I'm expecting the chopper to rise and tilt forward, but we don'?t move. Then I see McDavitt holding his headset tight against his ear. ?Ten-four,? he says in an angry voice. ?On my way.?
?Who was that?? Kelly asks.
?The sheriff of Lusahatcha County. We just lost our helicopter.?
?How come?? Carl asks, leaning forward again. ?What does Billy Ray need with the chopper this time of night??
?It?s not that. The guy from that hunting camp saw the insignia on our fuselage and called the sheriff?s department, screaming bloody murder.?
?Goddamn it,? Carl mutters.
McDavitt turns in his seat and looks back at me with genuine regret. ?I'm sorry, Penn. We can probably get another chopper, but this is the only FLIR unit between Baton Rouge and Jackson.?
?It?s okay. It was a long shot anyway.?
The JetRanger rises on a cushion of air, then reaches translational lift. The nose tilts forward and we head into the darkness. As I look to the horizon, battling airsickness once more, something Kelly said pings back into my mind.
?For the life of me, I don'?t know why, but I keep hearing the phrase, even in my semicoma of nausea and depression.
And suddenly I know why: The term