“I went there, Mark. Four years ago. I was on a trip with some other rabbis, to see the concentration camps. I took a side trip to Dornow. I went down to the spot between the hills and the river.”
“And?”
“There was nothing there. Just a rough, uneven field with the river flowing past it. I said kaddish and drove away.”
Leibovitz touched a finger to his chin. “Some justice did come out of it. Anna’s diary was used as evidence in the infamous Nazi medical trials. One of Brandt’s assistant physicians had been away from Totenhausen at the time of the attack. He was hanged, largely on the evidence of the diary.”
“What about the record kept by the Jewish women? Did Rachel take that out?”
Leibovitz smiled sadly. “How symmetrical it would be to think she did. But when that last night of horror came, no one thought of it. They thought only of survival.”
“Perhaps if Frau Hagan had still been alive. . . ”
“Perhaps. But in any case, they were not the only prisoners who kept records. After the war, similar journals were found buried in jars, cans, under barrack floorboards. Some of them . . .”
For the first time I saw moisture in the rabbi’s eyes. He leaned his head back and blinked, then fell silent. I picked up the Victoria Cross from the floor. “I think I’m beginning to understand,” I said. “What happened at Totenhausen had nothing to do with glory.”
“Not in any conventional sense. Winston Churchill thought so, though. He awarded Mac the medal in a private meeting near the end of the war.” The old man squeezed his hands together, then reached out and took a sip of brandy. “I’ve sometimes wondered whether or not that VC is real. As I told you, the only other American ever to receive it was the Unknown Soldier. Technically, it’s not supposed to be awarded to civilians. The highest British medal that can be is the George Cross, and Jonas Stern received that for the Totenhausen mission. I believe the VC is real, though. I believe Churchill liked your grandfather, Mark. I think he deeply respected him, and his ideals. I think Churchill saw in Mac the best part of America. And Mac had given a great deal to England. He’d been working for them since 1940, remember, long before Pearl Harbor.”
Leibovitz set down his glass. “Mac respected Churchill as well. Churchill asked him as a favor to preserve the secret of BLACK CROSS, and as you know too well, Mac did so until his dying day. He once told me Churchill’s note meant far more to him than the VC.”
The rabbi got up from the chair and walked over to my grandfather’s bookshelves. “We had a bit of a shock in 1991,” he said, moving slowly along the row of books. “Mac and I were in my home, watching CNN. The Desert Storm deadline was near to expiring. We saw a clip of American soldiers being briefed on how to inject themselves with atropine in response to poison gas attacks. The announcer specifically mentioned Sarin as the most feared weapon in the Iraqi arsenal.”
“My God.”
Leibovitz turned from the shelves. “It’s true. To this day, Sarin and Soman remain the deadliest poison gases in the world.”
The rabbi’s revelations were shocking, but the truth was that my mind was no longer on weapons and military medals. I picked up the old wooden box and took out the black-and-white photograph, the one showing the blond woman’s face against dark wood. She really was beautiful.
“This woman is Anna Kaas, isn’t she?”
Leibovitz nodded. “That was the real secret of your grandfather’s life, Mark.”
“What happened to her?”
“She lived in Britain until the end of the war. I don’t know whether she and Mac lived together there or not. But when the war ended, he came back to America alone.”
“She stayed behind?”
“Yes.”
“And he never told my grandmother about her?”
“Never. Two years after the war, Anna Kaas emigrated to New York. She graduated from the Cornell Medical School in 1952.”
“Wow. Did my grandfather ever see her after that?”
The rabbi seemed hesitant to answer. “Two or three times,” he said finally. “Over all those years. Medical meetings in New York, Boston. What does it matter now? He shared something with Anna that no one but Jonas Stern could understand, and probably not even him. Stern was made of different stuff, I think.”
I stood up, tired from lack of sleep, yet alive with a strange energy. “It’s difficult to take in,” I said. “I don’t really know what to say, or do. I guess there’s nothing I
Rabbi Leibovitz gave me a meaningful glance.
“What is it?” I asked. “Wait a minute. Do these people know my grandfather is dead?”
He smiled wistfully. “Jonas Stern is dead himself, Mark.”
“What?”
“He died in 1987. One day a telegram came to Mac’s office. It was from Hannah Jansen — under her married name, of course. It said that Stern’s will had instructed her to notify Mac of his death. Nothing else, though. We never found out how he died. I contacted some friends in Israel, but Israel is obsessive about security.”
“What about Rachel? Does she know?”
“She knows. I called her the day of the crash.”
I was pacing the room, growing inexplicably more nervous with each passing minute.
“
I stopped. “Me? Why me?”
He cocked his head to one side. “I think it would be fitting.”
“Where did you say she was? New York?”
“Yes. Westchester. Her name is Anna Hastings now.”
“She got married?”
“Of course. She wasn’t one to pine away the rest of her life. Her husband died some years ago, though.”
“Well . . . it’s an hour later in New York. I guess I could call her in a couple of hours.”
Leibovitz looked shocked. “You don’t handle something like that over the phone, boy.”
“You mean I should go to New York?”
“Is it so difficult? Would it take so much time out of your life? There and back in a day. Drive to Atlanta, get on a plane, you’re there.”
I tried to remember my hospital schedule, then realized with some embarrassment that I had taken the next three days off. After all, the man and woman who raised me had just died. I knew I’d need some time to clear up any final legal business, make arrangements about the estate and so on. But the simple fact was that all of that could wait a few days, if not months.
“What the hell?” I said. “Okay. I’d like to hear what she’s been doing all these years. Maybe get her side of this story.”
Leibovitz smiled. “I think you’ll be glad you did.”
In the end, I was glad. I flew into Newark on Monday, rented a car, and after a one-handed wrestling match with a cheap service-station map, navigated the rented Ford Tempo up to Westchester.
The house was smaller than I’d expected. Anna was supposedly a physician, after all, and she’d had the good fortune to practice medicine before the advent of so-called healthcare reform. Hell, she’d probably started practicing before they even established Medicaid.
I parked the Ford and walked up a flower-lined sidewalk right out of Fairplay, Georgia, to the modest suburban house. I felt a little overdressed. I’d worn a nice suit in case the former Anna Kaas turned out to own the biggest palace in suburban New York. I pushed the bell twice, assuming — as I had learned to do in medical practice — that anyone over the age of sixty had some degree of hearing loss. I wondered if Anna would have a strong German accent.
When the door opened, I was struck dumb. I stood face to face with a mirror image of the woman from the photograph in my grandfather’s box. There was only one difference. Anna’s eyes had been dark. This woman’s eyes were blue. She looked at me strangely, as if trying to decide whether or not I was dangerous. The Armani suit and
