was all he could say at first. Then he lowered his hand, glancing weakly to Kurt. “How did all this come about? You just happened to stop by, and he told you?”
The Route finally met its end. Kurt whipped into the tricky turn, braking then over the sudden exchange of gravel. Glen’s bungalow lay ahead, hedged in by drooping trees. “Actually, I was hoping you could help me out there,” Kurt said. “Willard’s ready to file a missing persons. Since he knows, you might as well have out with it.”
“A missing p— Why?”
Kurt pulled up and stopped.
“But that doesn’t make sense,” Glen said, his insistence snapping. “If she was going to leave, she’d at least let me know before she took off.”
Kurt gave him an abrupt, funky look. “You mean she’s not shacking up with you?”
“No. Hell no.”
“We thought the two of you were planning to go off together. Her car’s still in Willard’s garage, so I figured she was staying here.”
“She’s not here.”
“You wouldn’t be feeding me a line, would you? This is important.”
“She’s not here, Kurt, I swear. I got no idea where she is; this is the first I’ve heard of any of it. I guess I better—” but then Glen’s thoughts seemed to collide. He threw open the Ford’s door. “I—I’ve got to find her. Shit, if she…”
“If she what?”
“Nothing. Never mind. I’ll take care of it.”
Kurt was dismayed. Was Glen lying to his face?
But before Kurt could even think to offer assistance, Glen was already out and in his own car. Backing up, speeding away.
««—»»
His insides seemed to be slowly drawing in; he could hardly swallow, hardly blink, and he pushed his dull blue Pinto past the fringes of recklessness. An hour passed, his mind flashing the same dry horror.
He checked the safest places first. He checked the libraries in Crofton, in Annapolis, in Bowie, praying that he might rush in and find her seated happily in some remote corner of the reference section. She would look up, and he would tell her his fears, and she would shake her head and laugh it all away. But he found only frowning librarians and children who looked at him in quiet terror.
Exhaustion thinly paled his face, blackened his eyes like smears of soot. He blew through red lights and past stop signs, forgetting what they were for. The taverns they sometimes drank at didn’t open till six or seven, but he checked them anyway. All a waste of time.
Preposterous. He didn’t believe it, though the things she’d said did seem too wild to be a display of humor. She’d sounded so serious. She’d sounded as though she cared about him. Perhaps that was what he found most impossible to believe.
He didn’t know
Perhaps his own impressions were more accurate. How far could the common neuroses of everyday life be from out and out mental illness? He almost hoped that was it, that this entire ordeal could be blamed on a breakdown, a simple case of a woman losing focus on the things in this world that were real and falling prey to the deceptions of illusion. Then he could find her, take her to a doctor, and eventually everything might be okay. They might even be closer in the end.
Or perhaps she had left, as Kurt seemed to suspect, long fed up with her husband, and sufficiently bored by Glen. Had she wiped her slate clean, to displace herself from here, and to start again in a new place with new people? All he could offer was his wholehearted love, and he knew that in this day and age love alone was not enough.
What other alternatives could there be? These were real alternatives, and a testament even to his own soundness of mind. Madness, or relocation. For what else could possibly—
In that instant, Glen’s mind shattered through the impact of a single thought.
“Bait,” Nancy had said. “We need bait.”
So it was true then.
But Nancy herself was the bait.
He socked the accelerator to the floor, an ache throbbing where his heart should be. His tires shrieked, laying lines on the road and wearing down around one uncontrolled turn after another. He honked and swore aloud at a slow car in front of him, then passed without thinking, only to miss a car in the oncoming lane by inches. A carhorn blared as he squeezed by, and someone shouted “Shithead!” louder than the horn, but Glen kept on driving. As he picked up speed, his vision seemed to melt with thoughts of Nancy. Then something never seen thunked under his wheels. In his rearview he glimpsed a stray dog quivering in the road behind him.
The next miles streaked by in a torrent of delirium. He skidded into the turn, then tore up the access road, rocketing gravel and blowing dust yards high. His tires lost their purchase momentarily as he plowed into the final ascent; he heard the rear fender collapse when he buffeted against one of the phone poles which lined the road up the hill.
He locked the brakes, fishtailed in the cul-de-sac, and stopped. Dust settled, trickling, as he jumped out and raced for the security truck parked at the side of Willard’s garage. With his key he went into the truck, unlocked the rack, and took out the shotgun.
A few steps then, and he halted.
He stood stock-still in the middle of the court, feet apart, hair sifting in the breeze. He held the shotgun low port as he eyed the house.
The mechanism clacked when he chambered a round. It was a satisfying sound; it made the shotgun feel more full, more comfortable in his hands. He advanced toward the house.
On the porch he paused again. Perhaps he should announce himself by blowing that eyesore knocker right through the door panel, or better still, by blasting the entire door down out of its frame. But before he could knock, a voice crackled from the intercom: “The door’s unlocked, Glen. Come on in.”
Willard’s voice.
Glen entered the foyer’s strange, unfamiliar darkness. How many times had he been kissed by Nancy here? How many times had they embraced on this very spot? He’d made love to her here once, right on the foyer floor. She’d pinned him between the cold slate and her heated body, and it had been wonderful.
His eyes shot up for signs of danger. The kitchen entrance stood as a block of light at the end of the hall. Like a dream, Willard stepped into it, his details back-lighted into blackness.
“I knew you’d come.”
