Prototype

than insane, full of desperate gratitude for a woman to talk with, who valued his opinion on anything, and she tried not to think of what he must look like, smell like, his skin a burnt patchwork of self-made sores.

She tried not to think of his inevitable fate.

So through the ragged clouds of snow and hostility they had driven to Boston, had gotten a hotel room, had acquired maps and charted out what was where. And if Clay wasn’t with Patrick Valentine after all, if he had instead disappeared into the frozen mists like the misbegotten outcast of Mary Shelley’s most famous novel, well… perhaps it really would be time to pack in their best intentions and head for home. For the mountains, then the desert.

“Five more minutes,” Adrienne said. “Then we’ll check.”

“Okay.”

“Maybe they’re asleep. You know the kind of hours he keeps, sometimes.”

“I know,” said Sarah. “I know.”

She reached across to massage the back of Adrienne’s neck. In her lap was paper and pen, resting upon the flat of a book, with which she had whiled away their forty-five-minute stakeout. Sarah had filled it with experimental addresses for herself, seeing the way her name looked conjoined with cities and states all over the country: Sarah Lynn McGuire, 123 Fogbound St., Eugene, OR. Sarah Lynn McGuire, 456 Potato Lane, Boise, ID. She did this sometimes, in coffeehouses and comedy clubs, did it the way others doodled stick figures or hearts or future fortunes, Sarah indulging basic wanderlust. “You never know,” Adrienne once heard her tell someone who didn’t understand, “maybe I’ll write one and it’ll be like a talisman. I’ll look at it and the match will be so perfect, I’ll just know it’s a place I have to be.”

I want to go to these places, too, Adrienne thought now. However many may seize you, I want to try them on with you and see how they fit us both. She really hoped she meant that, would mean it tomorrow and next week and a year from now, and that it wasn’t just the wintry miles of failure and desolation talking.

“Okay,” Adrienne said. “Time’s up.”

She put the car into gear, rolled ahead and down the street, to the house that Valentine built. They got out and picked their way along the front walk, up to the dark-windowed, two-story Cape Cod. Beneath its snowy blanket it looked sinister, she decided, as if it had something to hide.

“I had an optimistic thought,” she said quietly, watchful. “If Clay’s been here, now that he’s made the trip and confronted his unknown, maybe it satisfied something in him and he’ll be ready to leave.”

Sarah nodded and raised one hand, pulling off her mitten so Adrienne could see her crossed fingers.

They mounted the porch. Rang the doorbell, and when that failed to rouse anyone, began to pound until she realized, no, no one was here, and selfishly, this brought relief. They retraced their steps, and she wondered if Valentine — or Clay — might later notice their prints and wonder like paranoiacs about what mysterious pair had come knocking.

“Well, there’s always the other place downtown,” Sarah said. “We could see if that’s still going.” She tossed a hasty snowball at Adrienne before she could regain the shelter of the car. “If we time it right, maybe they’ll even invite us to stay for dinner.”

Thirty-Six

The world was full of asylums, all kinds: those into which you were committed, those you carried around inside, those you let others build for you. Clay watched the first flakes of late afternoon snow drifting past the nineteenth floor and wondered if Valentine even realized what he had created here: just another asylum.

Though it was not without its appeal. At the moment the woody resin scent of marijuana smoke hazed the air. In this asylum they prescribed their own drugs and Valentine didn’t seem to mind. A chromo mute could surrender here, trudge out onto the balcony like a beaten pontiff and tell the world, Enough, you win, I’ll never be what you want, only what you deserve, then come back inside and wait to age another day.

He and Valentine had dropped by two hours ago, a follow-up to last night’s visit, and this time Ellie’s gaze lingered on his eyes instead of looking him up and down as a whole specimen. Just beyond her, Daniel Ironwood was taking in every move, and had wandered up even before Clay got his field jacket off, taller by a couple of inches and making sure Clay knew it.

“I meant to ask last night, what happened to your face?” Daniel pointed to the raggedly parallel scabs.

“I cut myself eating,” Clay told him.

Ellie appeared borderline sympathetic. “Those look painful as hell,” then she shot a sporting glance at Daniel that he missed seeing. “I could kiss it to make it better, but Patrick says you don’t like to be touched.”

Daniel straightened, striving for still more height, crossed his arms before his chest. “Why don’t you get it over with and kiss his ass instead?”

“Well that’s half-profound.” She scruffed both hands across the cropped sidewalls of her hair and up through the length, as if she were about to pull it out. “Look, Jeopardy! should be on TV in a few minutes. If you want, I’ll be happy to spend some more quality time with you, and if you’re really really nice between now and then, this time I promise not to count how many times your lips move and no sound comes out.”

“Fuck you,” and Daniel stalked off down the hall toward the bathroom.

“Yeah, that’s what you’re being paid for, isn’t it?” Ellie called over his shoulder. “Maybe I should tell Patrick I’m not quite getting his money’s worth.”

The bathroom door slammed and Valentine stood gloating, as if everything were some grand joke that he had told with perfect timing, and then Ellie turned to him and began to complain of how brutal Daniel had been last night, and she had no reason to believe he would alter his tactics.

“It’s only for tonight and tomorrow night,” Valentine said, “and after that you don’t have to see him if you don’t want to. You can put up with him for two more nights.”

Clay supposed it was at this point that he began to think, Wait, there’s something going on here I don’t know about, something he’s not telling me, and then Ellie said that when they first met she’d actually thought Daniel was fairly sedate and even-tempered for a Helverson’s guy, and Valentine smiled his tightest control-freak smile.

“If you need somebody to blame,” he said, “blame Clay. Daniel just thought he was coming in for the same casual sex he’s always had. But now? Now he’s taking a lot more personal interest in sowing that seed. He can’t help it, it’s sperm competition.”

“Could you be a little more manipulative, is that possible?” Ellie twirled one finger around a strand of hair and plucked it out. “Anyway, I’m not looking to blame anybody, all I want is for Daniel to quit acting like he’s trying to crack my pelvis in two.”

“Then go back and start being nice to him. Get him to quit sulking in the bathroom.”

She barked another of her strange, incredulous laughs. “He went in by himself, let him decide when he wants to come out. Why should I have to coax him?”

Valentine took a step forward and leaned into Ellie’s face. “Because if you don’t, I’ll blacken your eye,” then he reached beneath his cable-knit sweater to draw out a gun that Clay hadn’t realized he’d been carrying, a heavy revolver that captivated by sheer presence and oiled, black sheen. He spun the cylinder and let the gun dangle errantly from his fist. “And if that doesn’t move you, then we’ll play the game again, like we did that one time.”

Ellie drew herself together, very cool, very aloof, her lips compressing into an expression almost prim as she regarded him for a few moments. “Okay, Patrick. You can have it your way.” She began to scoot toward the hall. “You always do.”

And when Clay followed Valentine over to sit with him in the living room it wasn’t so much that he wanted to, as that he hoped for some explanation that would shed full light on this nineteenth floor cuckoo’s nest. Certainly he didn’t belong here, and probably he would have left by now if he had anywhere to go, anything to do… any reason to leave and live for. He was beginning to get a distinct feeling of being used,