Tell me you love me, she thinks.
‘Malin,’ Janne says, no anger in his voice now. ‘Pull yourself together. Tove needs her mum. Get some help.’
Zeke isn’t at his desk when she gets back.
Her hands are shaking and she bangs them on the desk a few times to stop them, and to get rid of the anger.
How low have I sunk? I let Tove vanish into the night. Into everything that might be out there. And then I got drunk.
She looks out across the open-plan office. Forces her thoughts and feelings aside. Reboots herself.
‘Toilet,’ Zeke says when he comes back and Malin is sitting and waiting for him at her place at their desk. Waiting for them to get going with the practical business of the day, waiting to let work take over her mind and her feelings.
He looks at Malin, in the same way he did when she arrived at the station.
Amiably. Benevolently. But also anxiously. No irritation. Not a trace of it. Just sympathy. And she had turned away.
Zeke knows.
And he probably thinks the same as Sven. Let her finish this case, then she has to get help.
The look in his eyes is even more anxious now.
‘Has something happened?’ he asks. ‘You look-’
‘Shut up. Let’s get to work.’
I don’t want any help, Malin thinks. I just want Janne. Tove. Don’t I?
Our life together.
Is that what I want?
The look on the face of Viveka Crafoord the psychoanalyst, her words: ‘You’re welcome to a session on my couch whenever you want, Malin.’
Then Police Constable Aronsson comes over to their desk. A sheet of paper in her hand.
‘I’ve just got this from the archive,’ she says. ‘It took a while, but they seem to have checked in all the corners now. The only thing they’ve found about the Fagelsjo family. Apparently Axel Fagelsjo attacked one of his workers some time back in the seventies. Blinded him in one eye.’
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‘He dragged me to the ground and whipped me. My back was stinging like it had been burned from the cracks of the whip, and when I turned round to get up the whip caught my eye.’
Another voice in the investigation’s choir.
Malin and Zeke are each sitting in an armchair in Sixten Eriksson’s flat in a block of sheltered housing, Serafen. From his living room he has a view of the Horticultural Society Park’s bald treetops moving gently in the wind. The rain has stopped temporarily.
Sixten Eriksson. The man Axel Fagelsjo beat up in 1973. The circumstances were described in the file they had received from the archive. Sixten Eriksson had been employed as a farmhand out at Skogsa, and managed to drive one of the tractors into the chapel. Axel Fagelsjo lost his temper and beat him so badly that he was left blind in one eye. He was only given a fine, and had to pay minimal damages to Sixten Eriksson.
Sixten Eriksson is sitting on the blue sofa in front of them with a patch over one eye, his other eye grey- green, almost transparent with cataracts. On the wall behind him hang reproductions of Bruno Liljefors paintings: foxes in the snow, grouse in a forest. The whole room smells of tobacco, and Malin gets the impression that smell is coming from Sixten Eriksson’s pores.
‘It felt like I was inside an egg that was breaking,’ Sixten Eriksson said. ‘I still dream of the pain to this day, I feel it sometimes.’
The nurse who let them in told them Sixten Eriksson was completely blind now that his other eye was afflicted by inoperable cataracts.
Malin looks at him, thinking that there is a directness about him, in spite of his darkness.
‘Of course I was bitter that Axel Fagelsjo didn’t get a harsher punishment, but isn’t that always the way? Those in power aren’t easily dislodged. They took one of my eyes, and fate took the other. That’s all there is to it.’
The court had given Axel Fagelsjo no more than a fine, and showed understanding for his anger: according to the files, Sixten Eriksson had been negligent with the tractor and had caused severe damage to the door of the chapel.
The old man couldn’t have taken revenge on Axel by murdering his son so much later, that much is clear, Malin thinks. But Axel Fagelsjo? He was guilty of extreme brutality then, so could he have done the same to his son?
‘What did you do after that?’ Zeke asks.
‘I worked for NAF, until they shut the factory down.’
‘Did the bitterness pass?’
‘What could I do about it?’
‘The pain?’ Malin said. ‘Did that fade?’
‘No, but you can learn to live with anything.’
Sixten pauses before going on: ‘There’s no pain that you can’t learn to live with. You just have to transfer it onto something else, get it out of yourself.’
Malin feels something change in the room.
The warmth is replaced by a chill, and an inner voice encourages her to ask the next sentence: ‘Your wife. Is she still alive?’
‘We were never married. But we lived together from the age of eighteen. She died of cancer. In her liver.’
‘Did you have any children?’
Before Sixten has a chance to answer, the door opens and a young blonde woman wearing the uniform of an enrolled nurse comes in.
‘Time for your medicine,’ she says, and as the nurse approaches the sofa Sixten answers Malin’s question.
‘A son.’
‘A son?’
‘Yes.’
‘What’s his name?’
The nurse carefully closes the door behind her, and Eriksson smiles, waiting several long seconds before replying: ‘He took his mother’s name. His name’s Sven Evaldsson. He’s lived in Chicago for years now.’
A bus struggles up Djurgardsgatan, and behind the windows pale passengers huddle in their seats, their faces indistinct grimaces through the rain that has once again started to fall.
Malin and Zeke are standing in the rain, both of them thinking.
‘Shouldn’t those farmers have known about Fagelsjo’s conviction? People ought to be talking about it still,’ Zeke says.
‘Even if they knew, perhaps they didn’t realise that we’d want to know,’ Malin says. ‘Or else they didn’t want to talk about it. From their perspective, it’s probably never looked impossible that the Fagelsjo family would get the castle back, in which case it probably makes sense to keep quiet.’
As they’re about to get into the car Malin’s mobile rings.
Unknown number on the display. She answers in the rain.
‘Malin Fors.’
‘This is Jasmin’s mother.’
Jasmin.